Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

What Happened To you?


That was a bonus question from my SIL the other day when hubby, the kids and I visited my MIL when she saw my face with lots of breakdown..Yep, since last fasting month I faced the worst pimples breakout in my life. Even worst than the one I endured during my teenage year! 

Hubby keep teasing me of catching this problem because I don't eat Petai and my HUGE appetite over chocolate and greasy foods.. Such a ridiculous myth since as far as I knew though our diet might play role on acne problem but it cannot causes the sudden acne breakout.. I might believe if people said it occurred due to hormone imbalance but never on diet habit..LOL
I don't really know what triggered this problem and I don't really care actually but I do want to get rid of it since it really turn down my self-esteem..Well, you know I don't wear make-up and the redness of my acne really show off and that cause me to feel a bit embarrassed to be in public.. Right now I am using the Natural Tea Tree Oil which recommended by my friend few years ago. So far this is the best product that I knew can fight pimples with no scar but I do like to try other product which is cheaper and effective too..Any suggestion?? 

You must think that I am such a whiner, aren't you?? The previous entry I whined about my flabby tummy and now this! Actually my point is don't feel embarrassed to ask for people suggestion/tips because who know their idea might help and here I am asking for tips of fighting acne breakout from all of you (*with puppy eyes)..

Happy Tuesday!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Forgetful Me!


Hi everyone! How's your day so far?

After a busy morning, now only I have a time to say hello to this blog of mine...Like it cares huh..(*Laughing)..
Image Credited To Mr. Google
Okay, don't want to make lame jokes again because I really have no talent in doing so..(*sigh)...Where should I begin this boring stuff of mine...(*thinking)...Okay, last night after I went back home, I was writing an entry for this blog from my mobile because I was thinking on posting double entry to my blog. Well, you know yesterday was suppose to be filled with words.. But, I was fall asleep before I managed to save it up in drafts and when I woke up, it all gone and I couldn't retrieve it again!!..(*sobbing).. Such a waste since I wrote it heart-fully..(*sigh again)..That's what happened when you typing from mobile and laying down at the same time with a full stomach..(LOL).

What did I wrote about last night? Nothing important really.... and I am not going write about it here because I don't have enough time...and I don't want to make any promise about re-writing it in case I might forgot again.. Lately, I become forgetful that I tend to forget even the simple thing and cause lots of trouble to me..(*sighing again)..What?! Facebook?! That one thing I can't forget...(LOL)..

Gosh..I can feel that my writing is starting to stray away from it purpose which is just to express my disappointment over my lack of focus lately.. So, now you know it, I better say "Ciao"...Cliff-hanger...(LOL)

Happy Thursday!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Story Of My Past


Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim...

As I promised, though it took me sometime to publish and here is my story of my past.. It's not detailed but it I hope it enough to give you all a glimpse of my past that not as good as your..

Pic By Mr.google
I don't really know where should I begin but I think it's better if I give you all a glimpse of myself; attitude/ behavior/ personality when I was younger. I am the youngest in my big family and the closest one to my father that some people said I was over-pampered by him. I excelled in my study since I was in primary school and finished my secondary school with good result during SPM 1999, though not as I targeted. I was a stubborn, tomboyish girl who never give a damn about stuff that normal teenager might involved and often bragging about not getting married especially not with Malay guy..Ironically, I end up with a Malay guy..Life is so unpredictable..

I never parted from my family especially my parent and pursuing my study at Matriculation college in KK was my very 1st experience being separated from them though every weekend I went back to Ranau. That was also my 1st experience to mix with new circle of friends that more worldly and exposed to the outside world than my friends back in Ranau. I was amazed at their level of knowledge about world/stuff that I fast became their friend. In fact the the name "Molly" was given to me by one of them. I was too close with my new friend that I almost forgot my childhood best friend, Falinah (Ellow) and at one time we quarreled over trivial matter that make us enemy for quite sometime  (I am sorry again for that stupid quarrel, Ellow) though we are good now. You see, I was so naive about lots of stuff and being a teenager I was too curious that I want to know more and want to learn more about stuff, positively or negatively. At that time I was already addicted to the MIRC and befriended lots of  people from virtual world..(Some of them still in contact with me until now)

My parent especially my father trusted me completely because I never did anything reckless in my life before. I finished my matriculation in just a year then got an offer from UKM to pursue my study in Chemical Technology. I was devastated actually because UKM was my last choice which I filled up in my UPU form (1st until 4th option was UMS). I didn't want to go that far when UMS is just 2 hours from my hometown but my father and family seem happy to let me go. Mad and devastated with them, I got drunk with my ex-schoolmate and make a scene at my village on that particular night to show my protest . Luckily, nothing serious/ bad happened to me because my ex-schoolmate took really good care of me and send me back home in good condition..(Thanks again Giwin) I can't imagine what would happened to me if only he took advantage of me..(palis2)  That was my 1st time being reckless and foolish yet my family still trusted me because they understood how scared I was to separated with them.

I was not ready to face the new world of Peninsular Malaysia yet I went there, mentally unprepared of the new people and lifestyle over there. I was given the key of my freedom and stupidly I vowed to use it with vengeance..Really stupid of me.. 2 month later I got to know my hubby via chat-world channel in MIRC. He was using 'Burger King' as his username and I remembered that I was the one who hit on him 1st for using those username. We quarreled online but then after sometime we became friend, exchange number until one day we decided to meet up at my hostel area at Kolej Rahim Kajai, UKM. After that we became closer though we never meet again until July 2001. He called me everyday, asking about me and I guessed that was why I melted into him. I was so engrossed and blinded by my new founded feeling that I forgot about my family and my promise with my father. 
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Ashamedly, I admitted that I lost everything to my hubby because my mind defeated by my own lust and curiosity. Yep, I was one of those stupid young woman who gave up everything she got because of thing so-called LOVE but in my case it never really about that. It was just me being stupid, naive and blind over sweet word and promise when the truth were I never really know what love is and my hubby background that well. he introduced me to his family and I get along very well with my MIL who told me and warned me about his past, that he might not serious about me at all. She said my hubby might just want to get revenge for being dumped by his former girlfriend from Philippines. I was so scared after I knew about his past and at the same time I found out that I was pregnant. I was torn apart.. It felt like tons of brick fall upon me..

I don't have anyone to confide with.. I couldn't tell my family because I know they will surely hate me and condemn me. I was too ashamed to tell my friends because I know they will call me fool or worse they might labeled me as slut. It crossed my mind to do abortion just to hide my sin but I couldn't because I don't want to commit bigger sin than I already did. I don't want to be amongst those heartless people who aborted and dumped their baby. I want to I keep the baby because I love him already. I keep my distance from my family and friends because I was afraid of what they gonna do and think of my pregnancy. At last I told my hubby about it and I was bit relief because he promised to take responsibility and I stay with his sibling during my semester break(1st year) but my big brother came looking for me at my MIL home (Kajang) and took me back to my hometown. 

Back there my family insisted me to do medical check-up and I told my mother about my condition and manage to cover my condition with lies. I persuaded her to kept it secret until I return to KL and she did so. She only told my father about it when I already in KL and my father call me right away, asked me to come back, that nobody will hate me no matter what happened but I was already smitten/committed by my hubby promises that I turned my back against my father and hurt him terribly. I converted into Islam and got married without my father consent. I betrayed my father trust and tarnished my family good reputation. It really such a shock for my father since I was the center of the family and he love me the most amongst his children. I thought that I was no longer have place in my family heart. I am the black sheep in the family. I am the thorn that sting them.

As I thought I made the right choice, that my life will be better but I thought wrong because I never felt true happiness. I always shadowed by my guilt toward my family. I cannot live in peace because day after day I was haunted by my mistaken over turning my back against my family and hurting them. I didn't ask fro their forgiveness and worse I didn't contact them because I thought they hate me and they were angry at me. Everyday I thought of them and cried. At last, when I  no longer stand it, I make myself strong and called my parents, asking for their forgiveness and blessing. I told them everything and guess what? My family especially my father still love me even after all I have done. They forgave me despite of the hurt and humiliation I put them through. YES, I am blessed for having such a wonderful family..My father said, no  matter what happened I am still their beloved daughter..

When I 1st learned of my pregnancy, I thought that the end of my study, my life. I was so afraid of what kind of future would I have if I don't finished my degree. I want to prove that I might strayed but I can excelled in my study..Most young woman might quit studying if they were in my condition but I ignored peoples sneer and negative stare and continue my study after I gave birth of my son. I know there were nothing I can do to mend the damage I caused in my family but I wanted to redeem myself by showing them that I will get my degree and indeed I got it.. 

You see, this story is kind of story you've heard and familiar with but to me who experience and been there, it something that I treasure because the experience had taught me lots about life and it meaning. Yes, it was not something I am proud about because it show how weak I was to temptation but still I am proud with myself because I survived and able to raise again from my fall though my achievement is not as great as other.
 
Actually the story still far from ended but I only have permission to reveal this far.. The rest of it concerned with my marriage and it is private..

To all young woman out there who did the same mistake as I did, please don't make bigger sin than you already commit.. Allah is merciful and forgiving.  

Happy Monday and Happy working!

P/S: To me, it is okay to glance back to our past once in while, just to remind us about the significant lesson we learn from it..=)

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Letting Go


I suppose to post this during my return to my beloved village on 17th until 20th September but due to the poor Digi broadband/3G/Internet connection at my village I have to hold it until I return to KL. I thought I want to post it yesterday but I don't have those 'FREE' times because well you know, load of work at home and office waiting for me. So I only manage to post this after I sort out all of those tasks which is today.. I do realize that this month I rarely update my blog, missed to post entry for WW and I missed my blog-hopping since last week.. Haiya, I have not finish the story of my past yet!! However, I will try to finish it before end of this month and for now let hear out why I did not go back to my village for such a long time...

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Yep, I went back to my village on 17th until 20th Sept, alone because I need to do it by myself.. I can't describe the feeling of happiness and relief because after almost 5 years delaying and finding excuses, I find the strength to face and accept the fact of my father death. For years I dwell in my grief and refuse to go back home because I know going back there will definitely remind me of my father 'absence' though I miss my mom very much. I keep in my mind that my dad is still there in my village waiting for me and if I dont go back he will be always there waiting  for me..

Yes, that was me running away from the reality and living in the world of my own creation. For years my mom persuaded me to come home but I am too scared of the truth that will crash down my world of creation. I always make excuses from going back when the truth is I was just can't accept the fact.

Last year my big bro said this to me,  "Nung, how long you gonna run from the fact? Our dad is gone but our mom is still there waiting for you! Do you think dad can rest in peace if he know his beloved daughter live in denial of his death and cannot let him go? Do you think he can rest in peace if he know you ignore our mom plea because you refuse to accept the fact? Mom is getting older and always sick. She miss you so much.. You don't want the history to repeat right?"
 
My big bro advice hit my wall of defense and rock my world to its core.. I dont want the history repeat itself and I want my father soul rest in peace. Though it was very hard for me but after being counseled and advice by certain people, I decided to go back ..When I arrived at KKIA (terminal 2) I have the same feeling that I have 5 years ago on 25th Sept 2006, messy but this time I don't have those anticipation that the news of my father death was lie and he will be there to greet, hug and talk to me because I know he is no longer there..  

I have thru many obstacle but my father death really make me lost my way.. I blame myself for his death. He suffered a lot because of my mistake. I knew I hurt him.. I was the last person informed by my family about my father death and that was one of reason I feel so damn angry and  hurt.. I was the last person among my sibling who arrived at my village and I only manage to see his face for like few minutes before they buried him. I couldn't touch him and all I can see was his face through the glass pane on his coffin.. At that time I set my mind that he was just sleeping, that he not yet dead.. When I returned to KL, I started to create my own world that effected my health, my work and almost lost my sanity.. Only after I gave birth of my daughter that I rebuild my career yet I still running from the fact of my father death.. Lot of people thought that I was okay because I am very good at hiding my sadness and misery.. Whenever people talked about my father, I turned deaf to them and I ignored any statement that will brought up my father absence..Then I will cried in darkness every time I thought of him.. Might sound really silly for some people but I really did that because I was unable to grasp my father sudden death.. For years I live like that until those words of my big bro hit me and make me realize of my stupidity..

After those advice of my big bro, I talked with certain people and they said I must letting go and forgive myself and the best way is to go back to where the reality awaiting to be acknowledge by me and this time I am ready to letting go..I feel better after I go back to my hometown, talked to my mother and let go every single reason that caused me refusing to accept my father death starting with forgiving myself.. I am not saying that I will let go everything about him because I am holding our memory close to my heart as a reminder of him.. I knew my father will always watching over me.. 

Really sorry if I bored you all with this sad story of mine but I want to share about how important to let go of something that bugged and sadden our life because life is so short to dwell in such grief and everyone will die and everything will come to end sooner or later.. I really hope you can learn something from this story of mine.. Until next post, Good day Everyone!..


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Sunday, September 11, 2011

Happy & Sad Sunday

Yeah, as always I am tremendously happy but at the same time I am sad as well. I am happy because it's Sunday and it mean I can wake a bit late and 'lugai2' at home with my family but I am sad because it's mean weekend will be over soon and tomorrow is Monday already..(*sigh)
I like working, of course but still I love spending time with family as well..
Just some update about the story of my past; I still working on it's draft and I do hope that I can post it very soon. Since it also have something to do with my hubby, I asked his permission before I start with my draft of it. He too think that sharing our past is kind of responsiblity so that youngster can learn something from it. To tell the truth I am nervous because people may hate me after reading it. So, I really hope that people can see to the brighter side of the story..
Okay, need to go back to my notepad and continue with my drafting. Wish you all a very happy Sunday!
P/S : have to prepare simple dish for my kids friend before get back to my notepad.. Kids never stop beraya right...
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Tuesday, August 23, 2011

'Mesti Sofa Murah Kan'


Just after I post my status update on FB last Saturday, this particular person that I mention in my previous entry sms me asking me with her 1000 question.."cat warna ape?", "cat brand apa, jenis apa", "beli perabot ke tak?"...bla..bla..bla..
I feel irritate but still I answered, "cat dulux yang biasa2 je. Warna pearl white." When I said did not buy new stuff but the sofa set, she said mockingly, "mesti sofa murah kan.

I feel a bit hurt by her mocking remark because we did buy the cheapest sofa since hubby and me dont want to waste money over trivial stuff such as sofa set but it doesn't mean she can mocked us like that. To us, aa long as it is functional then it is okay.. I knew about this person bragging habit and understand her obsession with expensive stuff but I think it is really rude of her to say such thing to me..

"Ye, murah je tapi takpe la, bukannye leh bawa kubur pun.." unconsciously i replied like that in the midst of my irritates.. Nah, ingat dia ja ka yang buli menyindir.. How about you all? Have you ever encounter person like this? How do you feel? Jawap ye, jangan tak jawab...

I dont really understand people who likes to look down and mock at other people who is less fortune than them.. They should feel grateful and humble with their fortune and try to help/motivated those people so that they too can achieve what they dreamt of instead of mocking, comparing and look down at those people. Life will be more meaningful if we share our happiness with other people..

Geeezzz... I am being carried away by my emotion. So, I better stop now.. Good Night, sleep tight and happy fasting..

P/S: Sofa in above pic is our new sofa set ( uploaded after published with blogger-droid, still don't know how to attach ba..)..Okay juga ba kan..(*wink2)

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Monday, August 22, 2011

Posting By Mobile Device


Testing..testing..123..
Hi reader! This is my 1st entry using my mobile, so do excuses me if it's very short okay.. 

1st of all, I would like to express my gratitute to my hubby for the wonderful super early birthday gift.. It's not super expensive, not even super canggih but I still love it because I know u bought it sincerely for me.. Nope, I wont tell what is it and you all have to wait for it until my special entry on my birthday... Sabar ya! 

4 day long and only today I am able to update my blog because hubby and I are busy re-decorate our flat, you know, painting the living room and then rearrange the furniture etc.. Nothing new but the sofa set since the old one is totally damaged.. Yep, we paint the wall.. We dont hire people to do it since we can do it ourselve though the result may not as perfect as one done by expert. Save $$$ ooo.. 

I don't know how to attach pics using mobile entry so no pics for this entry.. Owe you till next entry kio..
Since this is testing entry by mobile, so I think that all for now..
GOOD DAY & HAPPY FASTING!
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Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Wish Upon A Star #2


You must think I want to talk about the 'Wish Upon A Star' (1996) film which starred by Kathrine Heigl but NOPE it's not. I just want to share with you all about my foolishness right after I watched this movie and this is actually sequel to my 1st entry of wishing upon the star.

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I was 14teen when I watched this movie and being the naive teenager (though I did know that it was just fiction movie) I still wanted to try out what 'Alexia' and 'Hayley' did in that movie. Well, you know they make a wish upon the shooting star. So, every night I stayed by my window and looked into the sky to see any sign of shooting star but after midnight I closed the window because I was scared of this creature called balan-balan and only peeked through the slits between the window. Gave up? At 1st nope, not until my father asked me one day after waiting for 2 weeks in row.

"Apa juga ko buat tiap-tiap malam tengok di langit," he asked me.
"Hmm..Tiada. Saja-saja ambil angin," I lied because I don't want him to laugh  on me if he knew the reason behind it..
He laughed and said,"Ni mesti ko mo ikut yang dalam tu cerita yang ko tengok tu hari kan." (nah kedapatan!) Imagined how embarrassed I was that time!
"Tidak salah mau harap sesuatu tapi berharap sama Tuhan bukan sama tahi bintang," this sentence woke me up from my foolishness and since then I gave up waiting for the shooting star to make my wish and directed it to God instead.

I have done too many foolish thing when I was younger and I am glad that there always someone who can point out my foolishness and guide me to be on the right track. Yes, my father is right. We can have as many wish as we can but make sure we wish it upon God who can hear out and grant it if our intention is pure enough..

As I told before, I still make wish here and there but I no longer look into sky and wait for the shooting star but I closed my eyes and say it in my heart.. Remembering the young me make me laugh sometimes..So naive..

How about you? Do you have any childhood foolishness that make you laugh every time you remember it? Gonna leave you with this Q, Happy Tuesday & Happy Fasting!

P/S: Remembering my childhood memories make me miss my father very much..


Monday, August 15, 2011

Being Simple And Humble


I am doing my early blog-reading when I saw this entry:- Maria Elena: Knowledge should humble you

I read it and said to myself, "yeah, go girl! you are right bout that!" 
Image credited to robert.foo.my
Nowadays lots of people tend to preach using humiliation rather than using persuasions an approach to raise people awareness of religion law. Preaching and debating is two very different way to capture human awareness. Preaching means, you are persuading people to follow the law/rules/regulation/nature/etc with humility and kind words without being arrogant and boasting up how knowledgeable you are. Debating in other way means, you are comparing the pro and con of certain issue/thing/stuff/etc and by doing so you are humiliating/exposing people weakness that may raise people awareness of that issue by exploiting their feeling of shame. To me, I will choose to listen to people who is humble in their way of approaching me because I don't want to change 'my way' just because I feel ashamed of myself.

I always remind myself to lead a simple and humble life. When I did mistake, I admitted it and try not to repeat the same mistake. I am grateful because I don't have much to brag about since my life is average, nothing extravaganza. I am noob in religion and I am noob in life so there is no way I am gonna preach or debate about it to other people though I might like to share my POV/thought/idea/opinion ( it's SHARING k)... I am still learning and there are so much I want to learn it might takes forever before i can consider myself knowledgeable...But my kids is exception since they are my priceless treasure and I love to brag about them (this one can waive ba kan??)....hahahaha, macam aku sorang ada anak (^^)V

What do you think? Which way of above you prefer the most? Relax, we are not debating la...I just want to know your opinion..(*wink2)

Happy Monday, Happy Working & Happy Fasting..
P/S: I like to read Maria Elena entry.. It's original and refreshing!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Cut Your Hair? Sayangnye...


Ya, I already cut my long hair last month on 15th July and in result, I got this remark from people who know me:-
  1. 'Kenapa potong rambut panjang? Sayangnye.' - from macik that live in same flat building.
  2. 'Kak Molly dah potong rambut ye.. Sayangnye..' - from SIL
  3. 'Sayang betul ko potong rambut..Ko sesuai rambut panjang' - from cuzzy and niece back at Sabah.
  4. 'I like your newest hair-do but I think you look better with long hair' -from hubby
And many more remark... I have heard this word of 'sayangnye' too many time since I cut my hair last month and now it start to make me feel uneasy..Hmm, do I really look hideous with this new hair-do?

last pic with my long hair
1st pic with new hair-style
It's not easy to take care of that long hair you know.. To maintain such hair really costly. Shampoo, conditioner, hair serum, hair mask, monthly treatment, etc - all need this $$$. If I am loaded,I won't mind but my earning is just average, so it's really a burden to me. Moreover, that long hair of mine make my head feel like tonne weight, plus it took time to dry it up  since i don't like using hair dryer (Tips: it's better to let your hair dry up naturally without using hair dryer because drying hair with hair dryer can damage hair structure)   

That's why I cut my hair beside want to try out different hair fashion but I never expect to get such remark from people especially my hubby..(*Sob2)...Regret? Never! I know how hard to take care of those long hair so I will never regret my decision of cutting my hair. Haiya, it will grow back.. I just feel bit uneasy with those remark and that's all..No regret at all.. 

Actually I cut my hair till underarm length, so I guess it's still consider long kan.. Now,my head      feel lighter and of course my hair dry up faster and my hair care cost reduced.. So, i definitely won't feel any regret despite of all those -ve remarks..(^_^) V

Wanna do my laundry now so see you all again in next entry..

GOOD DAY, HAPPY SATURDAY & HAPPY FASTING!!!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Should I Try Or Shouldn't I Try?


You must wonder what's  the question above all about? Let me do the telling before you all jump into the wrong conclusion kio.. 

Image credited to Mr. Google
Last week hubby, the kid and me went to my Mom In Law (MIL) to buka puasa together. After that, out of nowhere we start to talk about this particular food supplement drinks called Cocoa Collagen which is pretty hot among woman nowadays. MIL said that this product really are good and she suggested me to try this one out.Well, I also aware of this product because some of my FB friend also recommended it to me. 

I guess all woman must know what is collagen and I don't think I need to define it to you. Even my mother knew what it is! hahahaha, really funny when I remembered my mother told me to eat lots of citrus fruit and broccoli to delay aging due to lack of collagen. Jangan main2, orang kampung lagi advance oo sekarang.. I do know that lots of woman out there really concern with this collagen stuff because it's something related to our outer beauty. Jangan nak kata tak kisah pasal collagen ye.. 

I never tried this kind of product before because I don't like any kind milk-based beverage..YUCK!  So, it's a bit hard for me to give this product a try but being a woman, me too have those urge to try product that can enhance my inside and outside health. So far, I only took vitamin C tablet as a health supplement because according to what I read through medical and scientific research article, it's the most important mineral that can help our body to maintain our health and also maintain the collagen level in our body.

However, since I notice the difference of my skin nowadays and 10 year back, I start to consider on taking supplement that focus on enhancing or at least maintaining collagen level on my body though I still believe in natural source. I don't want to look like 40 years old woman when I am just 29.. I sure don't to wear make-up 24/7 to cover that! And sadistically, I don't even know how to put on make-up! Masalah..Masalah.. @_@

Yes, nobody can stop aging because it's part of life span and everyone will undergo the process and I am thinking to try out this kind of product not to stop the aging process but only to prevent aging before the time. Who want to look like 40 when she/he is just 30, right? I will never put myself at the same level of those celebrities who are suppose 50 years old that have a stretched-plastic face. You know what I mean.. Haiya, just look at our 1st lady la..Tegang bangat!!

Opsss, did I rants too much? Okay, better back to the main Q:- So should I give it a try? Or shouldn't I give it a try? Or maybe you gals can suggest me another type of product with same purpose? Share2 la you all punya beauty secret kio..

I really want to rant some more since I haven't rants in this blog for some time but I got to go now because I need to settle 1 pending paperwork which my boss need for this afternoon meeting with customer. 

So until next entry, GOOD DAY, HAPPY FRIDAY & HAPPY FASTING!


Monday, August 8, 2011

"Tu Lah, Beranak Lagi Ramai"


I am used to phrases such above. Lots of people  said that to me every time I said something like "Adui, pening betul la dengan korang ni" , "Kenapa suka gaduh2 ni?", "duduk diam jap boleh tak?" and etc.. You know words you might blurt out when you can't stand your kids mischief and manner any longer. I guess mommies always blurt this kind of word but we never really mean it, aren't we mommies?

I have to admit that the feeling of ashamed did crossed my mind once and even complained to my mother only to be scolded by her. She said, "You should be proud and grateful because you are healthy enough to give birth as many as you can. Do you know there are people out there working and praying hard just to have a baby of their own?" Yeah, she got a point there and I couldn't argue the truthfulness of her word. 

Then I thought of those who have 6 or 7 or 8 or even 14teen kids and that killed all of those nonsense feeling of ashamed or what so ever. So now whenever people say the phrases above to me, I just smile to them and said, "Ramai anak, Banyak berkat, Murah rezeki

Sometimes they might be good but often they might be naughty
Sometimes they make me mad but often enough they me laugh
Their laugh, their smile, their tear are essence of my life
Their existence give a new meaning to my life

I have POV, what say you? Ahahahaha.. A very short entry but what to do since my messy work desk really need my attention right now..
Happy 8th Fasting day, happy Monday & Have A Good Day!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Why Do I Like To Be-Friend With A "Mak Nyah"


While I was sorting out all the invoices/Purchased order/Delivery Order etc to be file, all of sudden I remember soalan cepumas from my dear hubby from last sunday..

"kenapa awak suka kawan dengan maknyah ye?baru je kenal dah friendly giler? tak geli ke?" 

Hubby asked this question after we sent my baju kurung Pahang & Riau order to the tailor/boutique shop which owned by 2 mak nyah (I preferred o call them  mak nyah instead of pondan) Yep, I have to admit that I get along very well with them though that was the very 1st time I meet them. 
Frankly, I don't really have a reason why I like to be-friend them. Maybe it's because they are not "penggosip" like a normal girls/women and maybe they are not as arrogant as normal women. Ya, they like to be praised but overall they can be really a good 'girl' friend compare to normal girl friend.

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But beware because if you hurt their feeling, they can be your worst nemesis/nightmare. I know lots of people out there prejudice of them and said a lots of bad things about them but to me, I treat them just like I treat my girl friends..To me, there is no good if we attacking them with bad words. Moreover not all of them are immoral and quite lots of them did have a good jobs and business.. Better if we try to understand the gender dilemma within them by be-friend them and from there we can think of a way to advise them. Perghh...Sound macam pakar la pula..hihihi

Importantly, I am friendly to all people who is not arrogant and return my smile no matter you are a woman or a man or a maknyah or even if you are an alien..HOHOHO... If you smile to me than I consider that you are a friend of mine.


"A bit geli juga la ling but dorang pun manusia macam kita juga..Just because they are transsexual, doesn't mean we have to hate them. They are friendly people, so I think it's not a problem at all.."

That was my answer to my hubby.. Ya, biasa ja but sincere from my heart.. So, what do you think of golongan maknyah? Kasi hambur ja apa yang ada di kapla because I know you guy do have your own opinion.. Sharing is caring..We share our opinion not because we hate them but because we care for them..Am I right?

Few more hours to go before tut tut tut..!! Sabar ko nanti batal pula..(^^) V



Sunday, July 31, 2011

9th Ramadhan In My Life


Fuhhh.. Seriously, I am so tired because hubby and I keep going out non-stop from morning till dusk searching for tailor shop that still accepting order and thanks God that we manage to get one via my hubby friend.. Only  now, I have a time to post an entry before I go to bed since you know, tomorrow we are starting to fast for 30 days and I need to wake up early to prepare 'sahur' for my family.

As I told before in last year entry about My 8th Ramadhan, I like 'Bulan Ramadhan' and every year since I learn to fast I anticipate this month like a little kid anticipate a candy. But every Muslim and Muslimah all over the world are anticipating this sacred month, aren't they?
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This year, my second son said he want to fast for the whole month without skipping a day. As a mother, I am proud to hear that though I know that he is not yet fully understand the significant of fasting month and hoping that he can achieve what his goal. To tell the truth, hubby and I don't really have a proper religious education especially me who is just a naive 'Mualaf" and we are glad that the religious school that our kiddos attend able to teach them about anything related to Islam, especially things that we don't know. 

Okay, I got to stop now since it's almost 12 midnight. To all Muslim all over the world:- 

Walk humbly
Talk politely
Dress neatly
Treat kindly
Pray attentively
Donate generously
May ALLAH bless & protect us! 
HAPPY FASTING EVERYONE!

Friday, July 29, 2011

You Are Such A Show Off!


Yay!! It's Friday again!! 1st thing 1st:- title above is nothing to do with me but keep reading then you will catch the whole situation..(*wink2)

I am super happy but at the same time I am not in mood because I feel irritates with this particular person for her attitude of boasting about her fortune on her FB wall.. I feel like want to puke every time I saw/stumble upon her update because she just love to tell the whole wide world about her fortune! Haiya, other people are wealthier than her but I never saw them updating/announcing every single stuff they have in possession..

Jealous? Please la.. If she boast up about her life achievement I might feel jealous but everything she boast up about are material stuff. Before this, dengan RIAKnya, she announce that she was going to move to her second house. Than she upload pics of every single stuff she bought for her new house, including how she re-arrange it. Yesterday, she upload pics of the renovation of her house verandah telling that it almost done.. 

What make me feel uneasy the most is when she chat with me asking this, "Molly, nampak x pic? Cantik x?" Where I have to lie, saying "hmm.. Cantik" then try my best to change the topic before I blurt out my true opinion.. Well, she is a 'relative' of my hubby so kena jaga hati la kan.. But today I told her sarcastically, "ini pun nak upload juga ke..pede la..hahaha
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If I am not mistaken, there is 'SPECIAL' word that used to label people with this kind of traits which we called as NARCISSISTIC.. What is it? Google ja ba..

Do you ever encounter with kind of person? You know, a person who loves to brag and exaggerating his/her achievement over and over again. What do you feel about this kind of person? Ada rasa mo muntah atas muka tu orang ka? Hahaha, just kidding..(^_^) V

Okay, I don't want to talk more bad thing about this person..Bikin tambah dosa ja.. So, to whom it may concern, if you happen to read this entry and feel like it's is YOU I talk about in this entry, be open minded and accept it as a positive critic. I am sorry if you feel offended but since I am such a coward to say it right to your face, I choose this way to express my true feeling where I can choose and use "pedas" but kind words to tell you about my discomfort with all of your bragging.. Buang Yang Keruh, Ambil Yang Jernih, together we make ourselves a better person..

I am done and over with it. So, HAPPY FRIDAY AND HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND EVERYBODY!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Hunting For New Nanny/Daycare Center!


Hi everybody!!! How are you doing?? Hahahaha..I don't think I need to ask those question since I read all of your (my follower especially) update.. You know, update like trying the newest skirt fashion, goods being detained by custom, newest music interest..etc..etc.. Hehehe, I might rarely update my blog nowadays but I still have my eyes on you.. 

Why rarely posting an entry? because I have this one major problem that occupied my mind for the past few days. What is it? Well, we have to find other nanny to take care of the kids since the our nanny want to go back to her husband hometown middle of next month. She already told us about this earlier this month but we don't fuss over this matter. Not until we found out that our nanny is pregnant and she want us to pay her in full though she will only take care for my kids like 15teen days.. Buli ka macam tu?? 

So, hubby and I decided last week right after we found out about her pregnancy to look for another nanny or at least a daycare for our kids.. So since last Saturday between pleasure time and working time, hubby and I are searching and investigate the nearby daycare centers and potential individual. Gosh, believe me it's not a easy task!! 

Best kalu dapat daycare yg mcm ni (image by Mr Google)
So far, hubby and I were pondering between 2 daycare center and we have to choose one by Friday since August will approaching us next week. One of it already operating more than 1 year, have 3 more helper but the place is bit crowded with almost 20 kids excluding the babies. While the other one is  just opened like 2 month ago, 2 workers/helpers but not crowded like  the 1st one. Both are located nearby to our flat area and our kids school. About the fee, the 1st daycare offer us RM730 while the other one offer us RM660. 

As I told you, I am bit choosy when its concern with my kids. So, I will think of this 2 choice from every angle before I give my answer. Hubby? He said he will choose the 1st one because they are more experienced but I don't agree since experienced alone not enough to handle kids especially when they are in large group..

Nah, I started to rants already! So what do you think? Which  one should I choose? Jangan malu2 bagi cadangan kio..(*Wink2)

Okay, penat suda ni otak berfikir, so got to stop now and give my mind a good rest before rebooting again tomorrow morning. 

GOOD NIGHT & SLEEP TIGHT !

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Wake Up Late? Serve You Right Tunung!

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Warghhh!!!! I have to cancel our plan for today because I woke up LATE! Serve you right Tunung... Seriously I sleep like the dead..I don't even hear the alarm clock that I set last night.. Hubby? he depend on me to wake him up, so I don't have to tell you all what happen to him.. The kids? My eldest son (Elan) said he woke up at 7am, ate his breakfast (breads and jam) then went back to sleep AGAIN. The other 3, sleep like no tomorrow..

Actually, every weekends all of us will wake up a bit late than usual but today I planned to wake up early because I want to go to Klang to have breakfast at hubby aunt's stall/restaurant. It's been a while since the last time I taste her nasi lemak and I am hoping to have one before fasting month. Fasting month is next week isn't it??? Haiya, we can't never stop time right.. It passed by like a lightning!

I really hate it when my plan altered due to my own mistake. In the past I have done so many mistake that altered my life 360 degree but despite of my regret I really appreciates all of my mistake because it shaped and developed me into a strong and mature woman I am now. When most people tended to keep their head up and leave the  past behind, but me, from time to time still glance back to my past while keeping my head up, to remind me that I am a survivor and not to repeat the same mistake.  So what's the connection between waking up late and doing mistake? Okay, I woke up late because I watched movie till 4am this morning.. That's my mistake! Hahahahaha.. You see, there's a connection there! I know I need to wake up early today but still I stayed up until 4am to watch movie.. If only I go to bed early, of course I won't wake up late, am I?

What time exactly I woke up today? I will leave you all with this one question to ponder with.. Good day and enjoy your weekends ladies and gentleman.. 
P/S: re-plan to go to Klang tomorrow . So hopefully won't do the same mistake again..


Friday, July 15, 2011

Don't Quit!


GUESS WHAT? I take half day leave today because I don't feel very well. So, after settle up matters with few urgent customer, I go off back home and right now typing this entry before I take my medication and off to lalala land. Ya, I know you might don't care at all but still I want to let You know. Maybe someone out there will pray for my recovery right??? (*wink2)

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Okay, let get back to the title above. Poem for my kids father? Why? Actually he is felling down since last Tuesday because his advertisement of high grade (replica) sunglasses in mudah.my has been removed/declined due to complaint from other distributor. He said it might be because of his price which is cheaper than other distributor who advertise their goods on mudah.my. Things worked pretty good before this and my hubby has purchased quite lots of stock and hoping to sell it all in order to have extra buck for this coming Hari Raya. He said, he felt like quitting but I told him not to give up just because of one obstacle. This one flaw of him really worry me..(*sigh)

Then, as I browsed through academictips.org  on Wednesday I found this very inspiring poem that might uplift his spirit, so I sent him an E-card with this poem in it, hoping that he get the hidden message..Yay, that night he said "THANK YOU" with a huge smile..Thank God, My effort worth it and my prayer answered after all.. FYI, I am not good in talking and I don't really know how to persuade/cheer up someone by talking. When I encounter situation that need persuasion and cheering up, I normally used words (written one ya) to show my concern but I am not "Jiwang" okay.. 
That's me..How about you all?

So, do you know anybody who is in same situation like my kids father? Try to send them the poem below..Who know, it might help them to lift up their spirit.. Well, since I need my nap now before my head explode, enjoy the poem and GOOD DAY everyone!!! (^^) V

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
when the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but do not quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow—
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out—
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
You can't never tell how the race will end,
A victory may lie just around the next bend,
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
 
P/S: I got teary dreary when I read this poem because it's so inspiring...

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