Monday, June 28, 2010

Football mania + Workaholic..

I am big fan of football.. My family is big fan of football indeed..
Since the 1st day of world cup, I  rarely get enough sleep because of watching most of the match..
My eyes have a ugly eye-bag and i looked like a panda already..

However, i am really amazed with myself because never once did i skipped from working.. 
I love working... my hubby said i am workaholic... I guess my hubby is right.. I hate skipping from work and nothing can deter me from come to office except it is concerning with my kids.. 

I am football mania and workaholic... I am not ashamed to admit this... 







                           

Friday, June 25, 2010

What's Wrong With Him???

I am worried with my 2nd son behavior and condition for the past few days.. He was a very energetic and active boy before this.. He can't seem to sit and stay calm in one place for few sec and he likes to touch and observing things around him..He likes to ask thousand question about everything he saw that it's really irritated me sometimes with his continuously question.. However , for the past few days  he is so quite and weak..

I asked him what's wrong,  but he say nothing.. I even asked him whether he feel unwell but he say he's fine.. I am out of clue what is wrong with him ... I feel something missing without his babbling and thousand question.. There must be a reason for his change of behavior.. Maybe i missed something and i need to find out why he behave like this..

His present attitude really make me upset with myself.. I don't know what to do so that he can return to his normal self.. I don't like seeing him like this... Our home feel  like not home without his story and laughter..


Thursday, June 17, 2010

I am not a good mother :(

I have to admit that i am not a good mother. I love my kids though i m not very good in showing my feeling to them. My eldest sons once complained to me that i am very strict and mean to them and his complain make me feel utterly horrible with myself.. 

Since that day i am trying my best to change my attitude toward them especially with my eldest son, Ilhan Rafiq.. He is almost 8 years old and i know that during this stage of ages he is emotionally changing and i don't want my attitude affect his development in a bad way..

However my eldest son already show some sign of bad character in him such as laziness and stubbornness and i feel responsible to change this character in him. I read a lot in finding a way to change this bad character that seem become his habit and practicing it but so far nothing work..

I feel hopeless and always think that i am not a good mother.. But i won't give up..I will try my best to change him so that no one will blame for not trying in future..

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Happy Dumpling Festival 2010..

My boss, Mr Alfred Cheng come to office a bit late than usual this morning.. I guess he must be busy with dumpling festival which is celebrate today.. 
I guess today the phone will it rest since all the customer will be busy with this festival.. Maybe i should tell you a bit about Dumpling festival..
Dumpling Festival is celebrate on the fifth day of the fifth lunar month, honoring scholar-poet Qu Yuan who took his life by jumping into  a river due to the king refusal on taking his advise that lead to terrible war..
Custom and tradition plays a huge roles in every malaysian's life, regardless of ethnic or religion backgrounds. It's also differ our country from other country and we should proud of it..
 I enjoy every single festival or celebration that being celebrated in Malaysia such as Hari Raya, Deepavali, Thaipusam, Chinese New Year, Christmas Etc. 

 Well, i guess that's all i can jot down for now.. So, Happy Dumpling Festival 2010!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 31, 2010

"Tagged" GOOD or BAD??? You Decide...

It's been a while since last time I updated my blog entry.Actually i have a lot of stuff that i want to share but it's all mixed up in my mind and I don't have a free time to sort it out and make a good story..My last entry was about "Tagged", a social web that I have used for a month now and I decided to write more about this social web, so let start..

In a month I have almost 400 friends and most of them are male, aged between 18-40 years old.. I have tried to add female friends but only few of them accepted my request.. Initially I was wondering why but eventually I got my answer after I did some research..

Most of the male user of Tagged did not used their  own picture/image. They either used model/actor picture or inappropriate image.Female user normally used their own picture but most of the picture were very sexy and some o them even posed in their bra and panties only..

Using a glamorous ID/username is normal in any kind of social web but it's even weirdo in Tagged.. I don't even know why they used such ID because I can't even pronounce some of their ID..I was browsing through some Tagged user profile and i was shocked because there were a lot of inappropriate background that been used and i was wondering why those user were not banned or removed by "Tagged" since in their terms and condition was stated that inappropriate/Pornography image/sentences/statement/etc were prohibited and anyone who did so considered violence against the term and condition and will cause the user to be banned or removed, yet so far there were a lot of inappropriate stuff been used  by Tagged user and no action was taken..

Since most of my Tagged friends were male user, so i will describe what kind of male friends i have got from Tagged. Well most of the male user will start the conversation with normal and polite question such as hi, how are you? What's your name? How old are you? Are you married? Can we be friends?? However, once they get comfortable they will start the flirt and talk about sex thing and other dirty talks.. I was shocked 1st time one of them start talking dirty to me.. He said i won't find online friend unless i was feel lonely and needed someone to satisfied my need..My gosh, that was really incredulous..I am so mad and pissed off because of what they think.. It's seem like they have set on their mind that whoever looking for online friends is a desperado person..what a shallow mind they got..

I opened Tagged account to know and get more friends.. I am not searching any kind of thing such as an affair or what so ever.. It's really irritated me to repeat the same thing to all of my Tagged friends.. I don't care if  they want to remove me from their friend list since i won't die if i lost friend that have a shallow and dirty mind.. I am grateful instead..But some of them are good people and accepted the fact that not all female Tagged user is looking for such thing and i can't hardly blame the male user for thinking so because most of the female user were looking for those stuff and some of them even advertising themselves. What a shamed!!
To me, it's up to individual to determine what they want to achieve through this kind of social web.. I used Tagged to get more friends and shared story of life.. I really hope that my tagged friends will respect my intention as much as i respect theirs.. I just like knowing people characters and behavior through this social web and i did learn a lot of people character and mind set and it's give me realization that human can be worst than a beast sometime ...

we can't blame technology for morality catastrophe and down fall because technology don't have a brain.. It's was invented merely to help improve human life.. As a human gifted with brain, we supposed to use it for good and we shouldn't let technology over-power our sense and sensibility..

There are a lot of stuff about tagged i likes to share but i guess that's all for now..

Monday, May 3, 2010

let's " TAGGED"!!!

Last week really a wonderful yet hectic week for me. I get to know another social web called " TAGGED ".
 This social web is more interesting ( to my opinion ) because of the game which they called "pets"..

After I signed-up, i got 12 new friends instantly but they are foreigners who looking for serious relationship instead of regular relationship..

To me, the foundation of ever-lasting relationship is honesty, so i m honest to them from the very beginning when i told them all that i am looking for friendship only..

Anyway, thanks to my hubby for let me know about this social web.. I hope i can make a lot of new friend via these social web..

Well, anyone out there who haven't heard about this social web, have a look yourself and it's up to you to judge whether it's good or not..

Friday, April 23, 2010

Gone Yet Remain..

It's been a while since i last updated my blog.. Well, actually i am upset with myself and the only way i can derived myself from this kind of feeling is working very hard, real hard until i don't have time to think about it even i know the feeling will always here in my heart..

My stepmother passed away last week and i couldn't go back to my village because of my work obligation. My boss went to oversea, leaving me alone to handle our supplier from Japan who is doing their annual visit. I am the only one who cannot go back during her funeral and that make me feel so upset. I feel like I am not a good daughter. I planned to go back and visit my sick stepmother this coming May but my plan shattered to pieces the moment i heard that she is gone..

I should have known that something bad happened because I have this weird dream the night before my sis-in law leave a message on my wall in FB. I dreamed that a crazy man is after me and i get lost in a forest only to find way back and greeted with smile by my father and my stepmother.. They are hugging me tightly and it's really feel real..

Until now i can't forgive myself for couldn't give my stepmother a last visit. I don't think I can forgive myself the rest of my life.. To me, my stepmother might be gone but she will be remain in my heart and prayer till the last breathe of  my life.. I don't want to lost my grip like i did when my father passed away.. That was the darkest period of my life because i lost myself, my guidance and my dream the day my father passed away.. I feel like half of myself being  taken away from me.. It took me a while to get back on my track and start over once again..

My beloved stepmother,
I am sorry for cannot see you for the last time but you will always in my heart and prayer.. May you  rest in peace along with bapa in heaven.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

ParenThots - Parents Corner ( Good Articles )

ParenThots - Parents Corner

I am agreed with the author of  this article because me too had practiced the method of using flash card and reading book to my eldest son and the result really impress me because he can read very well when he just 5 years old..

However i am very disappointed with myself because I didn't continued the method to my other children.. Reading the article remind me of my lack of effort to give the best for my children.. Right now, I made a promise to spare some times to use the method towards my other kids and hopefully it's can help them read in early age.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

He is smiling and playing again :)

Yesterday, I am very worried about my baby son condition. When i fetched him at their nanny house, he was weak and seeing him like that wretched my heart.. I am used  to his smile and his sick condition take away all of those warm smile that always welcoming me..

I am praying silently in my heart hoping that he will be better. I am willing to take over his sickness because i don't want him to suffer.. He is just a baby. At home I am doing my best to give him more milk and water so that he will not dehydrated and will regain his energy. He consume his foods nicely without vomiting and that make me feel weird about his nanny complain that he can't drinks his milk without vomiting..Weird, really weird.

I wake up around 4.30 am to feed my baby son and I am really glad because he finished it without any problem.. around 7.30 am he was awake and crying asking for another round of milk.. He can move around and he even plays like always.. Only God can described how happy and grateful I am to see him smiling and playing around again..

But I am a little bit mad with their nanny behavior. She always expect the worst happen. I wonder whether she take care of my children nicely or not.. I am paying her much enough and I hope she know that I expect her to take my children with her best.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

My little smiling prince is not well..

I am very worried about my baby boy condition that cause me doing a minor mistake despite of my zero-mistake working habits. He has been sick for almost 3 days.
        I calls my children nanny to know his current condition and feel a little relief knowing that he is crying and rolling. To me it's better than he just laying on the mattress doing nothing and making no sound at all.
       My hubby and i intend to consult to Hospital serdang if his condition no better by this afternoon.. Hopefully he is getting better and i can see his smiling face welcoming me when i fetch him today.. I hate hospital and i don't want him to be warded since hospital smell and sight only remind me of my last experience..

        I am praying to God that he will be better to prevent us from going to Hospital Serdang..

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