A Glimpse Of Our Short Holiday At My Hometown

It seem like I abandoned my blog for quite sometimes. Last post from me was like a week ago right before I went back to my hometown with hubby and my kiddos. Well, I do miss to write my thought in this blog of mine but seem like lots of ular melintang bilang si aki (*laughing).. So, here I am typing and editing pics while waiting for the live anticipated match between Manchester United and Manchester City (Glory..Glory..Man United) with hope that I can post about my short holiday before it's become stale..

Okay, enough with my lame excuses.. Lets get back to the main point of this post. Yep, I am not going to write in detail about my short holiday in my hometown but only a glimpse of it. Why only a glimpse? Haiya, I think my story won't interest you all since most of you must been to Ranau countless time than us ba kan.. So, sikit2 pun jadi la (*winking)..

Eyas & Shasa excited for their 1st flight experience

My nervous hubby

We departed from LCCT on 19th April and can you guess what happened all the way of our flight to KK? I think you all can imagined it aren't you? It was 1st flight experience for my hubby, my eldest son, my daughter and also my youngest son. Initially they were a bit scared especially when the plane boarded but they overcome the feeling in a nick of time.. I intentionally choose the back seat row nearby to the toilet and exit door. Easy for me to attend my kiddos.. Ehemm, faham2 saja la ok.. My hubby sat far away from the window because he was afraid that he will nauseated if he look out of the window but he couldn't help his curiosity when our eldest son describing to him the amazing view he saw from the window. So, he exchanged seat with my eldest son when we almost reached our destination, KK and started questioning me about everything he saw down there like a little kid (LOL)..


We were fetched by my brother, Bitot once we arrived at Terminal 2, KK and spent a night at my brother house before we went back to Ranau. Oh ya, I forgot to mention my brother has a huge dog called Ribbon who is friendly with his wife(Shima) cat. Even though Ribbon is a tame doggy but my brother chained him just in case or precisely because my hubby is afraid of dog. My brother also warned my mother to chain our dog..

Ribbon & Me..

The next day we went back to Ranau after we got our rented Myvi. Ya, we rented a car instead of taking bus or taxi or Unser because we think renting a car was more suitable and comfortable for us since we were traveling with kids. Well, it's easy to stop anywhere if we need to attend our kids. I will tell more about this renting car service which we think the best and cheapest than other car renting services in KK.

Along our journey from KK to Ranau, we stopped like more than 10 times since my hubby is amazed and fascinated with the view and the freshness of the air.. We arrived at Pekan Ranau at 2pm.. It took us almost 4 hour from KK to Ranau, the longest driving I been experienced (LOL). Kalau naik bas/teksi/Unser konpem x sampai 2 jam sampai Ranau.. But that was expected since hubby only driving at 40 - 50 km/hour. I went to buy mineral water supplies before continuing our journey to Kg. Tudangan which only took 15min from Pekan Ranau.

Home Sweet Home..

We were greeted by my mother and I just can't described my feeling for at last managed to come back home with my whole family.. Mixed emotion flooded my heart at that moment...Yep, this is my home, my real home, my playground, a place where I grew up, a place where thousand precious memory created, a place that I want my kiddos and hubby to love and appreciate because I want to built my own house and spend my time with them here after I retire.. A place where I want to bury... Oppss, sorry.. I am carried away by my emotion (*smiling)..

My kids were of course fascinated by their surrounding.. Paddy field, small river, trees, human made ponds etc.. My hubby said he feel awkward at first but quickly recovered when he realized that nobody is angry with him.. Everyone is welcoming him.. I told you so hubby.. We, Sabahan people are friendly..

Our Paddy Field

I wanted to help my mother mengomot but the rainy day prevented me from doing so.. I was frustrated since I anticipated this but sometimes thing won't work as we planned, isn't it.. So, i didn't want to dwell in my frustration and we went to the pasar petang where I satisfied my cravenness of sayap ayam versi Ranau.. I should say that I kind of pajak the sayap ayam (LOL) and that night we were having dinner with rice + sayap ayam as our dishes.. Pssst, my hubby said our sayap ayam is finger licking good.. Hahaha, kan saya suda cakap, satu kali rasa mesti mau lagi (*wink2)..

On Saturday, we went to Kinabalu National Park, Dreamworld Resort (only to take pics with awesome view), Desa Cattle, and Poring Hot Spring with my nephew, Ellysia (Ogou) who acted like our tourist guide. Of course we also want to visit the Luanti Fish Massage, Sabah Tea, Sg. Biru etc but the weather was not good enough for us to continue our journey plus we don't have enough time. Well, we can save those places for our next holiday right.. My hubby said Ranau gonna be our fave rest pit since he is in love with my hometown.. Even now he said he miss my hometown already.. Should I do the break dance since my mission is accomplished??

Eyas attached to his Odu already

Going back to KL feel so hard because my kids really like being there in my village.. No wonder since back there they have a large space of playground where they can play with no worries but I did not allow them to play nearby the river because it's raining season and the water level might rises all of sudden. To tell the truth, my kids look like a Jakun because lots of thing look different to them. Can you believe my kids called those hens and roosters 'Birds'! (LOL). The kids also love the cool weather especially at night. Even now, they are complaining about the heat here in Puchong and wishing that they are in my hometown instead..We returned to KL on 23th April with lots of happy memory and hoping to go back to my village soon. Hopefully we can make it again next year.. Insyallah..

That's a glimpse of my family holiday in my beloved hometown, Kg. Tudangan, Ranau. So sorry because this entry is not in good order (*puppy eyes).. You know, I just write down what come across my mind but hopefully you can get what I am trying to share.. Kalau x faham, buat2 faham saja la kio..

Alamak, the match started already so I must stop now but before that let see some of pics taken during those few days in  my hometown...Until next post, good night and Happy Labor Day  Everyone!

view that fascinated my hubby

another view that caused my hubby to stop and snap a pic

Kinabalu  Park

At Dream World Resort

At Desa Cattle

At Hot Spring yet the kids more excited berendam dalam air sejuk

It was raining while this pic snapped

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"I Am Coming Home"

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Listening to Skylar Grey "I am coming home" and singing along while doing my last minute packing (*winking)..Yeah, I am going back to my hometown with my hubby and kiddos! 

I can't describe how happy I am to see my mother again.. I miss her so much! The kiddos also ecstatic! But I can't say that about my hubby. He is so nervous not only because this is his 1st time to see my mother but also because he is an acrophobia! I don't think I need to elaborate more about acrophobia because you all knew about it already and you knew what does boarding on plane mean to a person with acrophobia (*smiling). But I think he will be fine as long as he is not looking out of the plane window (*chuckle)..

I didn't plan anything yet since my main purpose to go back this time is to introduce hubby and my kids to our relative and also to let them have a glimpse of my beloved village where I grow up. Not to forget  that I am going to help my mother mengomot! Hopefully I am still as skillful as before since last time I help my mother with the harvesting was 13 years ago (*laughing). After that maybe we could visit a few interesting place in Ranau later if the weather is good enough, Isyaallah..

Okay- dokey people, need to get back to my packing task! Goodnight, Good day and have a wonderful day!

Wordless Wednesday #21

New-Founded Activity!

Before this I don't really know anything regarding wedding/events souvenirs, wedding/events decorations etc. I mean I do know about this stuff but I never know that we can make it ourselves! I thought only specific/expert people can make all of those cute souvenirs and awesome decoration especially those enchanting flowers arrangement. Pity me, macam kura2 bawah tempurung (-_-)..

On Saturday, I went to my MIL house after berpoya-poya with my hubby and the kids at Sg. Congkak and my SIL show her DIY weddings souvenirs and decorative. Yep, she gonna get marry on this coming May and she make all the wedding invitation cards, weddings souvenirs, hantaran and even some of the decoration like bunga manggar etc by herself! She taught me how to make the wedding souvenirs and decorative flowers and believe me when I say that I am addicted to it! Creating and making the stuff is so fun that I hardly notice the time..

The wedding souvenirs created by my SIL were so cute and unique! Even the bunga manggar is different! I wish I could attach the pics of this DIY stuff here but I couldn't, not until after the wedding. My SIL and I discussed and want to try making a side income with this new hobby of us after her wedding ceremony because we know lot of people out there love this kind of stuff especially during special events such as wedding or other celebration. Well, it's just a plan for now though (*smiling).

That's what I did this weekend. I guess all of you must have your own fun time, aren't you? Well, gotta go and keep googling about this DIY stuff before go to bed.

Good Night and Happy Working in advance! 

P/S: pics taken at Sg. Congkak, Ulu Langat yesterday. No people but us, so we are having such a GOOD time especially the kids!

A Glimpse Of Sg. Congkak, Ulu Langat

Shasa, Eyas And Of Me!

The Kids And Hubby - Shasa juga la

Main Air!

Not but not the least, me posing on the rock! (^_^)V

Smiling Ear To Ear!

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Yupp..No kidding but that's exactly what I am doing while writing this entry! Hahahaa! Any guess why?? Never mind, save your brain for other guessing because I am too happy, so let me just tell you people why.. After re-taking for the 3rd time, at last I pass the JPJ - track test! Maybe for some people it's nothing but to me who have to re-take it 3 time, you can't imagine how relief and heavenly happy I am right now..

2 weeks ago, I almost gave-up and even thought of not taking the test again but after few days of thinking and reconsidering with the help of advise from hubby and some blogger friends, I decided to try for the one last time. Thank God that I manage to pass the test with no hassle at all!To tell the truth, I am not really as nervous as the 1st and 2nd time and I guess that help me a lot. Thanks Tata, your tips of avoiding the nervousness really work but instead of bercerita-cerita, sia baca jokes sambil dengar lagu =P.. And all the while thinking that it just another class..

So, I am glad that I listen to my hubby and didn't give up. For those who are facing the same situation, never give-up and never lose faith in yourself.. People said, it's okay if we do mistake or fail, as long as we can get back to our feet and are willing to learn from the failure/mistake..

P/S: Also thanks to Just and Aki for their advise/tips and support!

Wordless Wednesday #20

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Guess Who Is This?

Who is this girl?

I found this very old picture among my old stuff while I am trying to sort it out and throw away all of the unwanted, useless paper/trash. Actually there are few more of it but I just want to share this one particular pic because it remind me of the beautiful scenery my village once hold. I am not saying that my village is no longer as beautiful nowadays because to me it 's still beautiful but the scenery was no longer same as before. Too many house nowadays (*sighing)...

When I was a kid (like the girl in the pic), the scenery of our house backyard/front-yard was full with trees especially fruits tree and also wild flower. I remembered when I got back from primary school, my nephews, my nieces and me will climbed  up the citrus tree with our homemade sambal (mixed of salt-belacan-cili padi/lado seroi) and having a great time eating limau/mangga on the tree until my father came, scolding us and spoiled our leisure time (*laughing). He was not mad because we were eating the fruits but he was mad because we're bringing along our sambal on the tree. Bapa cakap nanti itu pokok minkorikata..

I think I just want to talk about the old pic but as always once I talk about my childhood stuff/memory, I couldn't help myself from writing about it with twinkle in my eyes because it happened to be the most happiest period of my life (*smiling). Well, regarding the pic above, who do you think was the girl on the pic?? Hahaha, this is not a contest or what so ever but only giving you glimpse of myself okay! 

Happy Sunday & Happy working Monday in advance everyone!

Not Once But Twice...

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As much as I want it to be the other way but it's fact that I failed my JPJ test again. Now I failed not once but twice in JPJ test part II (slope,side parking and 3 pointer). Crying? Of course I cried because I need to pay to re-take the test and it's not cheap tau.. I swear I can see wings sprout from my money as soon as the JPJ officer blew her whistle, signalling me to stop and get out from the car. "duh, there gone my money again." (*sob2)

I feel like giving up because I was so confident that I can pass it, but unfortunately I did not pass and I can't describe the despair feeling I have right now. I don't know whether want to re-take the test in near future or not because I think I might need some time to get over this failure. I guess I need to take few more hour class concentrating on the 3 pointer part only..(*sighing)

Hubby said not to think too much about it but honestly this failure of mine is the only thing consuming my mind since I got back from the JPJ track this morning. So here I am pouring out my sadness and annoyance over my failure. Do bear with me okay! (*puppy eyes) 

I don't want to tint your wonderful day with my pathetic story more than I already have. So, better I stop this sad ranting but one last request from me; siapa2 yang ada tips macamana mo kasi hilang nervous, please share with me kio! Sound like no big thing but for me it's always got on my way...

P/S: Over-nervous sampai kaki uncontrollably shaking.. (-_-)

Cosmetics And Me!

" Kenapa tak make-up? Nampak pucat la.."

" Pakai la sikit make-up, baru nampak cantik sikit..." 

Blah..Blah..Blah...

I am used to all of above sentences and anything that concerned with make-up/cosmetic stuff that I just shrugged at it all the time like nothing but honestly sometimes I do feel uncomfortable and irritates because it kind of killing my self-esteem. You see, I am one of those woman who rarely put on make-up because I don't fancy this make-up/cosmetic thing and I don't really know how to it on my face. Ya..Ya.. I am naive about cosmetics! 

The pale me..hmm, do I need make-up??

People said, woman and cosmetics are inseparable..Eh, ya ka? Bukan woman and diamond ka itu?? (*scratching head like moron). Ba, whatever la (*laughing like moron before back to serious mode).. My daily cosmetics only consist with oil-free moisturizer, oil-free face powder, mascara (kalu sa rajin la) and lipstick (nude/natural color) but I am okay with just applying moisturizer only. Don't ask me about eye-shadow, eye-liner, eyebrow pencil, foundation, blusher, concealer etc because I am really suck with this cosmetics stuff. Whenever I have make-up on my face, I feel like a sticky mask plastered on my face and I couldn't wait to wash it off my face. Weirdly, I really like to watch woman with make-up.. Sound like I am a stalker huh (*laughing). Don't worry, I am, not stalker. I just like to see their make-up variety.. (*winking)

Haiya! What I am ranting about here?? Like you want to know my incapability in cosmetics stuff kan.. Actually, I am kind of nervous I am going to re-take my JPJ test tomorrow and that's why I feel like want to rants like crazy woman. God help me, I must pass it because I couldn't afford to re-take it again okay! Sorry for posting another boring and crazy stuff and wish all the best for me tomorrow ya!

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Good Dad?? Bad Dad??

I am reading through one of blogger post about  her father and how much she love him because of the sacrifice her father have done for her and her siblings and couldn't help myself from snorting and making an ugly expression because I know her and this man she call 'father'. Maybe not that well but long enough to know their family character and frankly I really don't like their character and behavior.

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I am not writing this to judge or to humiliate them but the feeling I have keep for so long about them is clawing from deep inside me to be acknowledge especially after reading her praise and adoration over her father. Well, who is not praising a good, wonderful and responsible father whom willing to sacrifice everything for his children happiness right? But, this girl's father only being good towards his children with his new wife. Yep, this 'father' have kids with his 1st wife/ex-wife that being treated badly by him and his new family. Thinking of his bad treatment towards his other children make want to puke when I read this blogger praise over him. I guess she is just want to be a good daughter who talk only good thing about her father and turn blind to the bad side of her father... If her father really that good, he will find them, support them and guide them to the right path instead of giving up and let the children strayed away.. If he is really such an amazing father, he will never disowned his other children for no matter what the situation is.. (*with emo aura)

I never stop wondering how can a father acted indifferently towards his children when his blood is running in them though they are from different mother? When I was a kid, I only watched this kind of scenario from TV and it really hard for me to believe that this kind of father exist in reality since I lived with my mother, my stepmother, my siblings and my step-siblings and my father love all of us equally. For that I am really grateful..But when I was older and  seen one 'father' with this bad traits, I have to accept that this is not a fiction but a fact..(*defeated expression)

As I said, this is not my judgement but just my hidden feeling that been lurking in my heart for quite some time now and I feel such a relief to blurt it out here.. I am really sorry if you may find that this post offense you in some way because as I mentioned earlier it just my thought and feeling.. Well, some people said it's better to pour out our hard feeling before it turn into poison and here I am doing exactly that to avoid my heart from being poisonous.. Padahal alasan mo kasi lepas geram ja..(*winking)

Back To Memory Lane: My 1st Crush

All of sudden I think of one name; my 1st crush and I couldn't reign myself from writing about it. It happened 15 years ago but the memory is still crystal clear.

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I guess everyone have their own experience with their 1st crush. Well, I was once a teenager and being a normal teenager, me too have that 1st crush experience. Thinking about it make me want to rolling on the floor and laugh till my lung burst because it was so hilarious and funny but embarrassing at the same time.

I was in form 3 when this crush of mine attending my school with his younger sister. He was a very skinny and pale Chinese boy. He was not really that good looking but his shyness and silence that  attracted me to him. Many times I tried to talk to him but my reputation as a fierce and stuck-up girl make him ran every time I tried to approach him. Daring gila masa dulu2 (*laughing). Since I cannot get closed to him, I tried to be-friend with his younger sister with the help of my cousin which was in the same class with her. If I want to write it in detail, it will take pages but let just shorten the story to the climax of my 1st crush confession. I asked his younger sister to pass my letter to him! Well, it was not really a letter but my bio-data on it with a message "Boleh kita berkenalan?" Did I get any replies? Nope, he never replied and few weeks after that he moved out and I never heard any of him until now. 

That was the story of my 1st crush. Of course I have another crush after that but as people said 1st time always stuck in our mind (*winking). How about you people? Don't tell me that you never experience any crush at all because that excuses won't buy me. Just kidding okay! Feel free to share your own story of your 1st crush and do let me know so that I will stop by to read about it, okay!

Welcoming March

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I can't believe it's March already but there is nothing we can do to stop time right? It's beyond our control.. No matter what, we have to welcome every single new days, new months and new years with expectation that we live it to the fullest, aren't we? or maybe it's just me..

I leave behind the month of February with relief though there were few things that I didn't managed to achieve (*sighing).. Well, I failed my JPJ test, what more can I say (*sighing again).. A slight mistake while doing the 3 pointer that cost me another amount of bucks to repeat the whole part! Thinking of it just make me mad with myself but I have to accept that I failed and the only thing I can do to make it right is to re-take the test and hopefully this time I will pass it (*positive thinking).

I have nothing much planned for March except for preparation of our whole family "balik kampung" trip on mid of April. It's just a short trip of 5 days but I think it's better than not going at all right? Sorry, can't help myself from keep mentioning this trip since the kids, hubby and I really looking forward to it (*with twinkle in my eyes).

What your plan on March? I bet all of you must have your own splendid plan right?(*winking). No matter what your plan, I hope all of us will have a peace, happy and wonderful life, not only for today  but also whole month of march and whole your life..(^_^) v

Wordless Wednesday #19

Source Of Strength

Whenever I feel like breaking down and want to raise the flag of surrender over life hardness, I will focus my mind over my kids smiling face to calm myself and keep on fighting. Yes, they are my amulet of strength, the source of my strength that their smiling face alone can reload 50% of my fighter spirit beside prayer to God and support from those who cares.. Balik-balik cerita pasal anak kan but they are my life and it's better writing about them than gossiping about other people affair kan.. (*winking)

My Source Of Strength (^_^)V

Why do I refer my kids as my amulet of strength? Isn't God suppose to be our source of strength? Well, of course God is our source of strength. I can't never denied this FACT but to me my kids also my source of strength. Why? Because whenever I feel like want to give up for examples my job due to its' pressure and demand, I will think of my  kids happy face and what will happen if I quit. They will lost the smile of happiness and I don't want that happened.. You see what I mean, they existence give me a new meaningful purpose in life and it give me such strength to ensure they will have a better life than mine. 

Another examples, When I feel like I can't stand the marriage life any longer (1st thing 1st, touch wood..nauzubillah), I will think of my kids happiness and that give me new strength to fight for my marriage because I want my kids to have a good family... Often enough I stumbles upon hardness that took away all my energy to fight that I am glad I have my precious kids to keep me re-charge and resume fighting.. But I don't have to elaborate more about it because any person called mum or dad understand this feeling..

Did I bored you up already?? With this boring topic, I guess I did.. Hahaha! Okay, better stop now or else you might blacklisted me for being a super boring blog-post.. Huhuhu, please NO..(",)v

Hasta la entrada sigiente, bye!

Ungrateful People

When you help someone or doing a favor for someone, what do expect from them? Why you do it for them? Is it because you want to help them sincerely or is it because you have to help them or is it because you want them to return the favor? I guess everyone must have their own reason on doing so right? Well, today posting is not about other people but myself because I feel like someone is using me and took my soft side for granted.

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Whenever I am doing favor for other people or helping other people, I always remind myself to do it sincerely so that I won't feel any hard feeling or offense once the deed done. But I am just human being that sometimes I will feel angry to those people I helped because of their tendency of forgetting my help/favor and treating me like a tramp! 

How do you feel when people you help was so sweet to you when they need help and once they got it and solved their problem, they will treated you indifferently? Honestly, I will feel pretty mad and angry that I won't care even if I mention my favor to them, that I seem like not sincerely in helping them at all. That's me because I don't really like ungrateful people! To me they are like a parasite, who will only use us and then kill us in the end..

I always remind myself to never ever forget people who help me no matter during my good or bad  time. I always remind myself not to become one of those ungrateful people because I know how it feel to be treated like a trash by those you help and I don't people who help me feel that. It's not like I am judging those people because I am just expressing what I feel due to this kind of people manners. Maybe they have their own reason for behaving like that but still to me it's really heartless to treat people who once help you like a trash no matter whatever the reason..

An ungrateful man is like a hog under a tree eating acorns, but never looking up to see where they come from. ~ Timothy Dexter

It is another fault if he be ungrateful, but it is mine if I do not give. To find one thankful man, I will oblige a great many that are not so. ~ Lucius Annaeus Seneca

When we are grateful for the good we already have, we attract more good into our life. On the other hand, when we are ungrateful, we tend to shut ourselves off from the good we might otherwise experience. ~Margaret Stortz

14th February: Day Of Love!

Honestly, I never really looking forward for this specific date, never even really celebrate it because for me every day is a love day (*winking). Well, lots of confrontation over the celebration of Valentine's Day but I do not give heed to any of it because to me our faith in God is what matter the most.

So, no matter what you people think, either you are celebrating or not celebrating or even against it, here I am still wanna wish Happy Valentine's Day to everyone all over the world, especially to my  kids, to my beloved mother, brothers and sisters, to all my families and relatives and also to all my friends wherever you are.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast

It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. 

Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time

 

~ Partial of 'Love' lyrics by Jaeson Ma

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There's No Peace..

Obviously, phrases above is not my saying but a person from Facebook who is apparently trying to provoke me because of my comment in her link. Well, see for yourself what they said to me as below:-

As one of individual who is against war and any kind of violence, I really want people all over the world to live in peace and harmony. I also really am like the slogan; 'Peace, No War' since this slogan shout out my deepest wish of peaceful world where people can live together despite of their race, custom, tradition and even religion difference. 

It make me feel down because people call me 'ignorant or merely hypocrite' just because of my fondness of this slogan of 'Peace, No War'..(*Sighing).. For God sake, this fan of Liverpool bombarded me with this accusation just because I said out my piece of mind over their sharing on the incident that happened between Patrice Evra and Luis Suarez.. But that's not what really make me sad the most is the other comment from this person who said that in truth, there's no peace..

I don't care if people call me ignorant or even hypocrite because I know I am not. But, I do care when people said there is no peace because to me that indicate that they don't believe peace can be achieve, that peace will never exist. To me, it sound like they are cursing! Sorry but for a peace lover like me, this kind of saying is like a blasphemy! I realize that our world is full with conflict but it doesn't mean we should give up our faith on the possibility of peace and harmony. I believe peace and harmony can be achieve if people can leave behind their zealotry of power, if people put aside their desire of superiority and if people try to understand the value of equality. Yes, I also think peace can achieve if people stop making trivial issue turn into big FUSS and learn to leave yesterday event where it is..

Well, I won't let this person comment to poison my mind because I know many people out there have the same wish as mine. If this person happen to read this post, I just want to let you know that by saying that there's no peace show how weak you are in believing good thing such peace and you don't deserve any peace for saying such thing..

"If you yourself are at peace, then there is at least some peace in the world."
Thomas Merton

"Imagine all the people living life in peace. You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will be as one."

John Lennon

What do you think people? Is there really no peace after all??

I will Always Love You By Whitney Houston

Whole wide world already knew the death of Whitney Houston. She is one of my favorite singer for her powerful voice and awesome performance on stage. I love all of her songs especially 'The Greatest Love Of All', 'Saving My Love For You' and 'Miracle'. My favorite of all is 'Miracle' because this songs inspired me during certain period of my life where I feel like giving up of love. 

Sure she may have her share of ups and downs but lets face it, she has one of the incredible and magical voice. Just listening to her singing of 'I will Always Love You' while watching her movie 'The Bodyguard" make me breaking into tears.. I am such a cry-baby.. 

I would like to convey my depth condolence to the family of Whitney Houston over their loss. May you take comfort in knowing God is watching over you.. Rest In Peace Whitney Houston..

Kitaro: Morning Prayer

Kitaro Morning Prayer is one of my favorite music/song! I listened to his musics/songs for the 1st time when I am in primary school, fell in love with his masterpieces and since then admires his talent for creating such a wonderful songs. I don't need to elaborate more about him because everyone must already knew him and his songs! If not, you can always google up right? (*smiling)

Why all of sudden writing about Kitaro? Actually it's nothing but I just want to share the songs that I always play on my PC or laptop or my mobile and give you a glimpse of my habit (*winking). I also love to listen to this kind song while I am reading or doing something on my work desk because it calming and relaxing me, make me more focus to what I am doing.. 

Above song also match (by myself) with one of lovely and deep meaning poem by Kitaro himself which sound as below:-

I SEND A MESSAGE OF SOUND

TOWARD THE SKY

ENGULFING EMPTY SPACE

SOARING FAR BEYOND GRASP

HIGH ABOVE MOUNTAIN TOPS

BEYOND OCEAN WAVES

STRETCHING TO REACH THE ANDES

AND LIGHTLY TOUCHING NEPAL

WATCH AS THE SOUNDS FLOW

LISTEN AS YOU FEEL THE WIND BLOW
NATURE IS COLORED WITH ROMANCE
UNFOLDING A DRAMA DAY BY DAY
PLANTS BREATH A RHYTHM
INSECTS PLAY THEIR MELODY
LIGHT FLIES AS WIND CRY
NOW CATCH THE SOUND…FEEL THE LIGHT
BY FEELING THINGS WHICH ARE WITH LIFE
INNOCENTS RESPOND TO THE DELICATE SIGH
OF THE WORLD, WEAVING THEIR OWN DREAMS
DREAMS WHICH SPREAD THROUGHOUT THE WORLD
PEOPLE BEGIN TO SING HARMONIES OF LOVE, WORDLESS
THIS IS A BEGINNING
CONNECTING THE DREAM
TO THE COLOR OF YOUR BREATHLESS HEART
PEACE AND TRANQUILITY, YOU NEED ONLY TO SING
IT IS FOR YOU

~ POEM BY KITARO 

So, what is your favorite music? Whatever it is, I know you have your own reason on why you love it, aren't you? Enjoy the song and have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Meet Up With Blogger Friend: Just

At last I met up with Just at Armcorp Mall last Sunday! Yes, it might be just a moment but I am glad because I get to know her a little bit. I got to know her from blogging world and now we meet up for real kan Just... Honestly, I am pretty awed by her radiance since I know she is fighting for breast cancer.. She doesn't show her illness at all! Most woman who undergo this illness will stay at home resting but she still doing her BO business at Armcorp Mall!! Salute to you my dear friend.. 

Just & Me (^_^)V

I am really looking forward to meet up with her again and hopefully next meeting will be between us only since we have lots to talk about kan moy..(*winking).. I also hope I can meet up more Sabahan blogger in future! Anyone who live in KL or who gonna visit KL don't feel shy to roger2 me kio. 

Strangers are just friends waiting to happen. 

~ Rod McKuen, Looking for a Friend  (Thank you, Carolyn.)

P/S: The pic is the only pic of Just and Me that snapped by my husband..

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Walgreen Again!

This post brought to you by Walgreens. All opinions are 100% mine.

Bonjour Everyone! How is your day so far? Hopefully everyone is having a good day. Well, last Wednesday night  is like a nightmare for my family though (*sighing). BUT, I am not going to talk about it in this special edition post of mine (*winking)..Yeah, you know what I mean right, so bear with me okay! (*puppy face)..

Remember my special edition of Walgreen product in my post about Ideal Vitamin & Supplement For My Kiddos last year on June? Yes, Walgreen is conducting another interesting offer that worth to grab! You also can join the Prescription Savings Club at Walgreens and enjoy lots of benefits throughout the year! Walgreens is offering a special discount on annual membership for its Prescription Savings Club: http://www.walgreens.com/pharm…

For $20 a year, a family membership covers everyone in your immediate family, including a spouse, dependents 22 and younger and pets. Join and receive discount prices on your prescriptions. Other benefits include:
-Savings on more than 8,000 brand-name and all generic medications
-Discounts on flu shots, pet prescriptions, nebulizers and diabetic supplies
-Bonuses when you purchase Walgreens brand products and photo-finishing services

If you want to be part of Walgreen's community, don't forget to support Walgreens and stay updated by liking Walgreens on Facebook and following Walgreens on Twitter so that you will not miss out any deal/offer from them.

That's all for now and see you again in next post.. (^_^) V

TNB oh TNB...

Oh yeah, TNB give us another problem again and this one is the worst one.. Let me do the telling then you can have you say okay!

red letter received on 20/01/2012

Last night when we arrived at our flat, we were welcomed with another red letter from TNB which surprised us since we have just paid TNB red letter last week. We got this red letter on Friday before CNY holiday and the amount is RM142.24 and no 'pemotongan' stamped on it, while this latest red letter amount is RM273.98 with 'tanggal jangka W/O 41' stamped on it. Hubby then check on the meter board and guess what? TNB did not took away the fuse as they always do but this time TNB remove our residence electric meter entirely! What the heck??!!

"surprise" for us from TNB!

At our flat area, our electricity/water bill always lost because of the naughty kids doing. So we have to wait for the 'surat peringatan' or red letter from TNB to know the amount we have to make payment. Well, it's not a good habit though but I don't like to pay something without a bill/invoices a reference. So yeah, maybe it's our fault for waiting the red letter from TNB but what puzzled my husband and me is why TNB remove our residence electricity meter entirely??? I mean, normally they will only take away the fuse right?? Moreover, why didn't they updated our payment even though it already 4 working days since we paid the previous red letter?? We paid cash not with cheque that have to wait 3 days to clear! (*fuming)

hutang RM131.74, TNB tanggal meter!

My husband called TNB helpline, asking for explanation why this happened and also seeking for help but guess what they say? "Dalam sistem tidak dinyatakan apa sebab meter rumah anda ditanggalkan". Come on, there must be reason for everything right. As for the help, at first they said will send the technician to put back the meter but then later when it almost midnight, they said have to wait until today and we have to go to the TNB Subang Jaya branch! Aiyo, cakap belit2.. Why don't just say that they cannot do anything! So in the end, we were in heat with candles as our light for whole night. You know how hot it can be during night time in city... I cannot imagined how did our ancestor managed to live and survived without electricity...

Today, my husband go to TNB office at Subang Jaya and ask the officer for explanation. My husband said nobody can give any. They keep saying that there is still balance due of RM131.74 need to be settle. Well, if so TNB can take away the fuse as they normally do right? Why TNB remove the entire meter as if we owe TNB thousand ringgit?? My husband then told me that TNB said it happened because of the system fault.. Excuses..excuses.. My husband also said that TNB said will install back the meter by today but just now he told me that he called TNB customer service to keep on tabs about this problem status and guess what they said? "Untuk kes pemasangan kembali jangka, biasanya ambil masa 3-5 hari berkerja." What the heck???!! It's TNB system fault that put us in this hard situation and now they giving excuses to fix back what they done wrong even though we already settled the balance due of RM131.74! This is what I hate the most.. We gave you, your money, so can you PLEASE fulfill your part A.S.A.P.. (*please note the sarcasm)

This incident really give me lesson not to wait for the red letter anymore because when it concern with money, even a small amount as RM131.74, TNB can be heartless! You too don't forget to pay your electric bill every month or else TNB will remove your meter..(*please note the sarcasm again)

I am done for now! Happy Thursday everyone! (^_^) V

P/S: Marah2 but still smiling tau because smiling can keep you from aging! ..(^_^) V

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Wordless Wednesday #18

Positive Thinking!

That what I been done to kill my frustrated condition last Sunday! When I went to my driving class last Sunday, I keep saying to myself to think positive, that I can do it and yes indeed I can! I executed the going down slope successfully though I need more practice to do it smoothly! I will never doubt the power of positive thinking anymore! =P

Image by positivethinking-toolbox.com

Honestly, I been doing this since 11 years ago when my life turned upside-down and it has become some kind of amulet to me every time I make a mistake in my life. Whenever I realized that I have done a mistake, small or big one, I will try to console myself from breaking down by thinking positively that the mistake happened for reason, that everything will be alright in the end. Sound like I am making an excuses right? Some people even said that doing this doesn't help at all! But, to me I need this to prevent myself from stress/depression that might effect people around me since I am a person that can stress out easily even over a small matter and of course I do it with reality intact okay since we live in real world not in fairy tales..(*smile)

However it doesn't mean I always think positive of everything since on some matter I do have to think realistically. What I am doing preaching all this stuff when I knew all of you already know the power of positive thinking?? Stale topic suda ni Tunung!! (*mentally slapping myself)

Stale or not, I want to have my say too and I am done now! Until next post, have a nice day everyone and don't forget to THINK POSITIVELY! Peace no war.... (^_^) v 

 

Frustrated!

Image credited to Mr. google

That exactly what I feel right now! I am frustrated with myself for being unable to execute going down slope successfully even though I been learning it for 2 hour today! As I told in my past post, I am going to get my driving license this year and FYI I already took the computer test on 31st Dec last year and managed to pass through it and now already started the 16 hours driving class after I got my 'L' license. Honestly, the last time I learn how to drive was like 12 year ago and I never drive again since. In fact you can say that I don't know how to drive any longer!

So far I can say that I am okay with the side parking and even the 3 point turn (which I managed to learn a bit today) but I am really such a failure with the slope test! Actually not the whole slope test since I think I can execute the going up slope quite well but really suck to execute the going down slope! I did it over and over again for 2 hour today but only managed to execute it successfully few time only and failed most of my attempt! I feel so damn bad because everyone else can do it smoothly while I am still struggling! Ironically, most people said going up the slope is the hardest while here I am whining of my struggle to going down the slope without either the engine died or reverse down the slope.(*sighing).. After trying for more than an hour and half and still unable to descending the slope smoothly, I can feel my knees shaking and I am losing my focus..(-_-)

Luckily my instructor noticed my depression and try to cool me down and diverted me with another lesson which is the 3 point turn that I can say I managed to do although I only learn it for 30min or less. However I need to practice it more to master it. However, I am not yet quite over with my depression with my failure to execute the going down slope because I am still thinking about it. I keep chanting to myself that if other can do it why not me, that I can do it better tomorrow. Yep, tomorrow I have another 2 hours driving class and I really hope I beat my failure! Keep up the positive attitude Tunung..

Now I know how hard it is to drive a car! No wonder my husband have those angry expression every time I complained/grumbled about his driving attitude because I thought it was easy! Now I learn my lesson that it is not easy as we see it.. (*sighing again).. 

That's all I can write for now. Really sorry because nothing important but just my whining on this post but now you do know a thing about me; that I don't know how to drive (*smile).. As always, don't feel shy to offer me anything; tips/encouragement/comment okay!

Ciao and have a wonderful weekend everyone!

SARA 1Malaysia

I guess everyone must already alerted about the new investment program/ saving scheme called SARA 1MALAYSIA. Me too interested to apply this investment but I couldn't because only those with combined gross household income between RM500 - RM3000 eligible to apply..(*sighing)

Image credited to sara1malaysia.com.my

I envy those who can apply this investment program/saving scheme because to me it is one of the easiest way for me to save money especially person with poor financial management like me. To me the RM500 - RM3000 combined household income eligibility is not quite fair because there were lots of family with combined income more than RM3000 especially those who have many children and live in the big city have problem to save money (including husband & me). When you live in the big city/city with many kids, you are still considered low-income group even though your combined income more than RM3000. I don't to explain or elaborate this matter because WE/YOU the urban dwellers know how true this fact.. Hopefully in future they will put this matter into consideration. (^_^) V

I never apply any investment program/saving scheme before this. Not even the ASB loan though I do have ASB because I don't have the budget/commitment to pay the loan but I do save some money according to my ability. You know, like if I have RM100 extra money for those month than that will be my saving. Bad management right? But I want to change that from this year! (*smiling). Though I feel down for not able to apply this SARA 1Malaysia investment program/saving scheme, I am still happy to let you people know how beneficial this investment/saving scheme (at least to me okay!) and you may read more about it from their official website at sara1malaysia.com.my

So for those who eligible to apply, don't forget to get the application Form from the participating banks/agent starting on 30 January 2012 okay! Till next post, Happy Weekend everyone!

Anticipated Holiday!

Almost a week without single post from me..(*sigh).. Not that I am busy or anything but it just that I have nothing interesting to share about. CNY holiday? Well, honestly we did not go anywhere but lazing off at home since we have not plan anything because we need to save up for our brief return to my village this coming April. Yes, all of us; the kids and me will going back to my village!

This is going to be 1st time for my hubby and 3 of my kids; Elan, Shasa and Eyas to visit my village after 10 years. Before this I couldn't afford the air ticket that why they never been to my village. As for Daniel, he been there before and he even live with my parent for a year during my final year in UKM. Normally I go back by myself but this time whole family going back together and that really excited all of us especially the kids. The husband kind of nervous because he is going to meet my siblings that he never meet before. I feel kind of funny to see his anxious expression whenever I mention about this trip because he is worried if my siblings gonna bully him during those period. Hehehe, I survived his family all this while so why can't he? Payback time (*winking and evilly smile).. Just kidding though! (^_^)v

I promised my kids that they going to have a good time in Ranau. I knew they will love my hometown as much as I love it! I am going to show my kids why I always miss my family and my hometown and at the same time hoping that they will fall in love with my hometown! I can hardly wait to see my mom and my village! No matter how beautiful the city of KL, it can never win my affection toward my village where I grew up!

pic of my home in Kg. Tudangan which I snapped last Sept.

All of us really hope that this time nothing will come between our plan to go back to my village. My mother also very excited to meet all of her grandchild and also her son-in-law. I hope everyone can accept my husband as one of our family. So that is what the anticipated holiday all about. I don't want to boast up about it since some people said it not good to 'broadcast' plan that still far from achieved but I am too excited and can't help myself from writing about it here! Please pray for me and my whole family that everything will goes smoothly and all of us will finally go back to my village okay!

I think it is not too late for me to wish all Malaysian especially my friends and families who celebrate Chinese New Year, "GONG XI FA CAI!" May all of us will have a PROSPEROUS year and may this year of Dragon will spread PEACE and HARMONY all over the world! Plus, Happy holiday everyone!

Image credited to javaura.com

  P/S: I am on 9 days paid leave! Thanks to my generous boss (^_^) V

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Wordless Wednesday #17

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The Price I Pay

It's Monday again and here I am trying to crack my blur mind of new story/idea to share with people out there (*winking). But honestly, I miss to write something in this blog of mine.. Not much to share about my ordinary life but I do have something that I need opinion from you people. It's something related to the title of this post, so bear with me & keep reading ok!

1st of all, million thanks for those who leave comment/opinion in my previous post about dilemma of married woman. I really appreciate your generosity for sharing your thought and good news is I already figure out how to convince my mom. I also figure out how to fulfill my dream and at the same time avoid prejudice from certain people. Well, instead of traveling alone I think it more safe and fun if I travel with either my husband or my friends/ families. Wise thinking & good choice right? Self appraising huh.. (*rolling on floor laughing) My mom have no objection once I told her that! I guess she is just worry about my safety when traveling alone (*smiling). Issue solved, next problem please! Kada kotogod kio ambalut.. (^_^) V

Recently I noticed that my kids are a bit scared to tell/to ask  me anything and frankly I only realized last weekend that they were not "a bit" scared but they are SCARED of me! I asked my husband why the kids acted like that and guess what he said??

Image of kids in fear - credited to risingthefawn.com

"Seriously?? You don't know why the kids scared of you? Did you noticed that since the beginning of this year you always snap at them? I mean you are always tensed and even a small matter make you angry. I didn't say anything because I know you are stressing out with our financial problem."

Well, I did remembered snapping at the kids few times but I never thought that will make them scared of me and I don't like the kids to feel like that towards me. I tried to control myself from getting angry or snapping to them but I am just human being that sometimes it just happened. Some people said that this problem occurred because I am so young and not yet ready to face the challenge of motherhood. Obviously I am 29 years old mother of 4 kids but to me age but there are lots of young parent out there who excelled in parenthood, better than some of parents who are older than them. So, I guess we shouldn't judge parent based on their age.

In my case (from my own point of view) this problem all caused by my  weakness in tackling my stress! I have no one to blame but myself for causing my kids being afraid of me. No matter how tensed or stressed I am, I shouldn't snap on them because now I am paying the price of my own mistake(*sighing). Still don't know how to win my kids heart and trust.. Can you imagine how I feel when I see my kids expression of fear every time they ask something to me? I feel horrible! No wonder they were cowering whenever I raised my voice..(-_-) So parent out there, what do you think of this matter Obviously I need to re-evaluate myself to avoid myself from snapping at them but any opinion/suggestion/idea on how to tackle this kind problem really welcomed here!

Okay, gotta go now and search for some info on how to win my kids heart again. If any of you have any advise please do tell me.. (*puppy face)

Happy Monday everyone!

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Dilemma Of Married Woman

While everyone busy giving their opinion about Anuar not guilty verdict which announced earlier today, here I am feel obligated to voice out about my dilemma as a married woman who want to catch up what I missed during my youth year. Sound like I am going to whine again huh..(*Laughing)

Last year, I mean few days before New Year, I called my mother back in my village and I talked to her about my future plan. Most of it about my intention to travel alone around Malaysia and guess what my mom said to me??? "Minog poh boh mingansau kopio dot nokosawo om kitanak Unung." English translation; "As you are married and have kids, you shouldn't think of being active/out-going anymore." Well, I don't really agreed with my mother this time because to me that kind of thinking is really ridiculous and selfish. Yes, I am married with kids but that shouldn't prevent me to enjoy my life & try to fulfill my dream. 

Image credited to Mr. Google

I don't understand when people have such thought that married woman should be content staying at home only and taking care of her kids and husband. Maybe some women might feel content but an active women like me will feel like trapped and unable to breathe. I already know that I am not going to be a full time housewife who stay at home taking care of her family only since I was young because I was and still an active person. But don't get me wrong because as other people some time I can be the most lazy-bone person you ever know when I am not in mood..

My main point here is about this thought/opinion of people especially the elder people that married woman should only think about her family and don't have right to go anywhere or don't have right to have fun! Every living soul have right to enjoy and live their life to the fullest and we married woman also want to have fun in our life. Please don't deprived us of our happiness and enjoyment just because of married status! 

I am done with my 2 cents(*rolling on floor laughing) and going straight to bed...Married woman out there, what do you think? Please share your opinion/comment because I would love to hear what other think of this topic. Until next whining okay!

Good Night & Happy Tuesday in advance!

Wordless Wednesday #16

Happy New Year 2012!

This is scheduled post and right now I am here in Semenyih with my husband family celebrating New Year 2012. Well, it's not really a celebration because we are only gathering at MIL house and having BBQ on the count down of new year 2012.

Frankly, I am kind of blank when I typing this post and the only idea I am thinking of is what is my new year resolution. I am going to check back my 2011 resolution list in order to make a new one though (*laughing). I think some of my 2011 resolution have to bring forward again.... That's so very me! hahahahaha...

So, I am taking this opportunity to wish people all over the world, especially my families and friends a very Happy New Year 2012. May 365 new days ahead us will fill with happiness and bless and may this New Year will spread the power of LOVE and bring peace and harmony all over the world!

Image credited to pravstalk.com

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012