Insolent people turn me OFF!

Today while I was choosing my meal for lunch at Restoran Padi, I accidentally bumped into one of the restaurant worker who is on her way to serve Nasi ayam that cause her to spill some of the soup onto the table. I apologized because I know I am guilty too though it's her mistake for not watch her step while serving in rush only to get her death stares in return! 

I was so upset because apparently it was the worker mistake yet I was the one who is doing the apologizing thing only to received rude action in return.. She don't even utter a word like " it's okay" or may "takpe, saya pun salah". What a fool I am to expect such kindness! I feel humiliated because I am the customer & she didn't even show any respect to me as a customer. At that time I can feel my anger bubbled up & I almost exploded but I thankfully I managed to contain my anger though in my mind I already started cursing WTF.. ( muka merah suda menahan marah )

My hubby noticed my angerness, so he persuaded me to ignored the incident & calm down but how can I just ignore it when people showing bullshit manner in return of sincere apologize? Yet, I sat down & ate my lunch without enthusiasm like I always have when I eating.. Even great food turn tasteless after facing such manner..

One of people behavior that really pisses & turn me off is insolently! 

I know I can't expect all people to be kind towards me. But, C'mon in this case I am their customer & in business world customer should get some respect! The worker was lucky because she bumped on me ( I am not hostile person ).. I wonder what would happened if she bumped onto someone who is less patience & hostile.. 

"For those who are on the roof become insolent as they don't know yet about the slope and the slipperiness of the roof!" »Mehmet Murat ildan

 What do you do when you are in my place?

Note :-

• My moody heart cheered up by my ex-colleague who happened to buy lunch at the same restaurant. He paid our bill as treat for us & how can i prolong my moody heart after such kindness.. Thank you Navin!
• Hopefully the worker will learn some manner in future

PIECE OF MY HEART..

I am writing this not because i want to humiliate anybody but i only want to express what i feel deep inside my heart before it take away my sanity and strength. for almost 10 years I have to live with betrayal and pain because i make the wrong choice in my life and i don't want any other girls out there make the same mistake.

I don't know how  i survived with all of those pain that i have through because some of it really traumatized me and broke my self senses from inside. I don't have anyone here in Malaya who can support me morally. I rather keep it in my heart than discuss it with any of my in law family because i learned from the past. My family live far away from me back at Sabah and the only connected us is telephone. My father is the who always there to listen to me pouring out all my heart before this but since he passed away 4 years ago, i don't any except my mother yet i don't want to burden her.

I don't want to mention who hurt me over and over again. whenever that person lost his temper, he will start threatening me and humiliate me in public with his attitude and words. He promise to change but he never did. I really want to be free from him but he is important to my family. I have sacrificed too much for him but he never appreciate any of it.

I pray to God to give me strength and patience but I am no angel and my patience is limited. I know one day i have to let him go and i hope by that time i am strong enough to do so.. I believe God is fair in everything. I have to admit that i have a foul mouth but i am not a bad person. I don't hold grunge because I let God do the punishment for me.