Goodbye My Dear Friend

I choose to post here instead of IG or FB because we started our friendship from blogging world. 

We met face to face for the 1st time on February 5th 2012 at Amcorp Mall and since then,we became best friend who shared lots of story and memories. I met her when I need someone to lend their ear to hear out my silent cries and and a shoulder to lean on. 

Since the death of my father, I was a loner, an extreme introvert until I meet her. I don't have a friend to talk with or to hang out with because nobody seem to understand me. Nobody can stir up the excitement of mingling with others until her. It was her who fished me out of my extreme introvert world. I always thought Allah destined us to meet so that I can experience all of those sweet memories being with friends, hanging out and travelling together. 

I went to my 1st oversea trip and Island escapade with her and Lin, a friend I got to know thru her, whom too, became my best friend and together we made lots of sweet memory. 

I can count on her to listen to my soppy & sappy story without being judged. She is like my personal confidante, someone I trust other than Allah. 

From the 1st time I meet her, I was drawn with her strength and strong will. People couldn't tell that she is cancer fighter because she never shown her sickness or weakness. 

Today, I lost her, I lost my dear friend; my sister; my confidante; my shopping buddy; my travel partner, leaving another wound deep inside my heart. Yes, maybe time will heal the wound but it will become another permanent scar on my heart. 

I wish it's just a bad dream, a nightmare that will gone once I wake up, but I know it's not. She is gone. I don't want to say goodbye, I am not ready to say goodbye yet I know I need to let her go; to let her peacefully rest in her eternal sleep. 

Goodbye my dear friend; Justinah Suntin (1979-2021). 

Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for every memory we shared together.

I will always remember and cherish our memories.

You will be always remember.

Till we meet again in hereafter..

Al-Fatiha..

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ

إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ

اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ المُسْتَقِيمَ

صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ المَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّينَ

Me, Just & Lin in 2019 - last time I meet her

Below 50kg Again

Alhamdulillah..

5kg lighter. 

No spesific diet. 

I still love to eat BUT I must control the portion size especially carbs portion. I also try to avoid heavy food/junk food after 8pm, which sometimes I failed and succumb to my gluttony but thankfully manage to control my portion in take. 

I am not fan of sweet drinks but I am crazy of sweet desserts and pastries especially cakes and jellies. I also cut off these delicacy intake since it's high in carbs.

I love fruits and vegetables, so I increased portion of these in my menu. 

I also do light yoga and light/medium intensity cardio at least 3 times a week. Will try to jog/run again after this pandemic over or cured, InshaAllah...

As I grow older, my metabolisme also seem to age by slowing down. When I was 17-34 years, I rarely watch my calories / food intake because I hardly gain weight even if I ate like maniac without any exercises. But now, if I eat like I used to be even with exercise, I easily gain weight in just a 3-5 days😣😣.

I try to make this as a habit since March 2021 and glad with the outcome. I feel lighter and no more pain while standing up and content because no need to waste money buying new clothes since I still can fit in my old clothes 😁

😊😊😊

School 2017 Preparation & Budget

Finally, kiddos 2017 school preparation completed despite of my tight financial budget, pheww, Alhamdulillah!  

My strategy for minimizing the expenses is surveying  and doing price comparison (1-2 weeks) before buying anything. I normally starting buying in the middle of December or earlier to avoid out of stock problem. 

Summarizing the expenses as below table ( For my own record and reference only)

Tanjung Harapan, Pelabuhan Klang

We been here few years ago and we are here again just because the kids want to see the sea, LOL! Actually it was an impulse visit since we are bored at home.

This place doesn't change much. Its still poorly maintain and the port nearby still busy as ever. If only the local authorities took an inisiative to make this place more attractive, it can be a good family spot for picnic and other activities.

There are Ikan Bakar Restaurant nearby but we didn't try it out because rumours said the price is expensive. Maybe will try it at other time just to confirm the rumours.

Not much picture taken this time because I am enjoying my time watching the kids.

Happy 9th Birthday Daughter

Assalamualaikum.

My only daughter turned 9 yesterday. She is no longer the only grand daughter (hubby's side) because this year 2 more grand daughter added to the family tree. 

Nothing much change in her habit and character since last year story . She is still my shy and soft tomboyish princess who like to play in her own kingdom. However I noticed that she is stubborner than her brothers, a trait that I guess she inherit from me, LOL! 

Happy birthday sumandak mama! Mama will always pray for your success and happiness. May Allah blesses you abundantly and may your grow up to be a solehah daughter here and hereafter..(Aaminn!)

my 9 years old sumandak

family pic

SCKLM 2016: 21KM FINISHER

Assalamualaikum..

Finally, after almost a year,  I run my 6th Half Marathon during SCKLM 2016 last week on 7th August. Hubby and I participated in this running event because organizer offered 25% discount to all participant of cancelled SCKLM2015. 

It was one tough 21KM for me because I barely have any proper training prior to this event. I should know better after past experience that 30min jogging is not enough and injury is unavoidable (*sigh).

I was jogging smoothly up to 14km before my left leg cramped and ITBS on my right knee caused me to walk all the way to finish line. Alhamdulillah, proud of myself to able crossed the finish line after those double injuiry because honestly, I almost gave up due to excruciating pain in my left calf. 

Regarding the event itself, to me it was another well-organised event that I will put on my annual must join event from now on (InShaAllah). No wonder the event attracted lots of runner. I just hope in future they can consider to change the running singlet to running t-shirt, hehehe.

I haven't registered for any running event so far but I am eyeing another event that cancelled last year. Hopefully I have the budget to register before it closed tho. 

My running activities seem bit slow this year but it doesn't mean I don't like running anymore. I still like running as much as I like yoga because this 2 activities keep me fit and healthy. It just that the fee to join those running events are too expensive nowadays. 

Me at the FL/ Wefie / The Medal

Peace Yo!

Photo credited to Actionpix

Official Result

Salam Aidilfitri 2016

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah, it's 1st Syawal! I am grateful because Allah gave me a chance to be alive and breathing on this beautiful days of Syawal and be together with my beloved small family to celebrate it.

The theme for this year is yellowish GREEN for male & banana leaf GREEN (eh, betul ka tu?) for female. My sons' and hubby's baju melayu was bought from KawanMU apparel shop, nearby our place and my daughter and mine bought from Gene Martino boutiqe in Subang Jaya. Daugther's and mine baju kurung I considered a bit expensive but total cost still within my budget. 

We are heading to my FIL place 1st before visiting hubby's grandma (his father side) grave. Then to my MIL place where hubby's sibling gathered before heading to Klang, visiting hubby's relatives and friends then nenek's grave. (InShaAllah, will share a bit here and there about it later in other post with pics)

I am taking this opportunity to wish all my muslim families, relatives & friends a blessed and meaningful Syawal. Let forgive and forget, be kind and be grateful for everything we have & don't have.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..

Family pic on Syawal's morning

1st Family Run: Milo Breakfast Run 2016

Assalamualaikum..

2 weeks ago, on 29th May, we (kiddos, hubby and me) participated the Milo Breakfast Run 2016 at Putrajaya. It was our 1st family run and hoping for more in future because it's fun to run with your love ones.

My daughter and my youngest son never participated in any long distance running/jogging before, so we 'trained' them to jogging/walking for 30 min, 2 week prior to this event. Their brothers already experienced long distance running during their school 'merentas desa' activity, so I was confident that they are good to go.

When we arrived at the event location, it was super-crowded with people in green shirts! It was such a sight! Kiddos were nervous, hubby was nervous and I was nervous because the kids might lost among those sea of human, hah! 

3KM family run was gun off at 7.30am and we managed to reach the finish line after 45min of running and walking. We might able to finish it earlier but hubby, my eldest son and I have to take turn carrying my youngest son after he got this bleeding blister for not wearing his socks. Lesson learned; please wear socks if your shoe is brand new, ngehehe!

Regarding the event itself, I think it was a smooth, successful and merry event. The organizer should get an applause for organizing such family-friendly event where we can exercising and bonded with our family at the the same times. The volunteer/support team were superb and helpful, enough water station for all categories (including 3KM family run), generous goodies bag, free-flow of milo (bevearge), fun after run games and cute finisher medal for all. RM70 fee per family (6pax) definitely worth it! 

This event is going to be in my list next year! Family yearly event it is..lol!

Post-run & medal pic

Wefie

Harta saya, dunia & akhirat :)

Trying our luck with goal kick games

The only pic at the pic booth taken by hubby

Interesting fact of the event; 'ask me' person, signboard & goodies bag!

Still Long Way To Go

Assalamualaikum..

Nothing interesting to share, just a bit of my disappointment over people who cannot be humble in their way of approaching and admonishing others.

Yeah, I know I am 'jahil' about Islam because I am lacking in so many way; not wearing hijab, unable to recite the holy Al-Quran , I have limited knowledge of Islam and the list goes on. But why must people dispute me when I performed my sholat? They said," kamu solat tapi kamu tidak pakai tudung. Sia-sia solat kamu,"

Those sentences really hit my soft spot and make me feel that every effort I did to approach my religion is useless and futile, hmmfff!

I wonder whether wearing hijab is the ultimate factor that secure our place in heaven? Baiklah, thank you so much for advice. Instead of mocking and looking down on my effort to perform my sholat, please pray that in near future hidayah will come upon me to wear hijab, InShaAllah..Amin YRA.

Worst CNY Holiday Ever

Post title is enough to describe how I feel about this year CNY holiday. That is why I don't like last minute decision because it never turn out well in the end, grrrrr! 

Past is the past yet I couldn't stop myself from blaming us, yep hubby and me for following and trusting those people (don't want to mention any name) that they will prepared a good CNY escapade plan. If only I knew that they won't follow the plan, I will not cancelled the hotel booking I have made earlier, grrrr! 

To be honest I was really pissed off that I feel like wanna say out loud what I feel inside but I managed to reign myself because I don't want to start a feud with them. It's not good for the kids and for hubby too. Thanks hubby for the patience of those people and me. I knew he was in dilemma yet he still choose our family over them. I feel sorry for him because he is trying his best to make everyone happy yet he suffer in the end because those people easily tossed him aside for not having much like them. 

Mata sepet due to the blazing sun

Alhamdullillah, despite all of those bitter feeling, we still managed to have our family happy moment at Genting at midnight, 1st day of CNY. Kids were enjoying the cold 16 degree temperature, walking around the 1st world resort, LOL! 

Hubby and kids

Kids and me

Midnight walk in misty road at Genting Highland

Oh well, there go my post of the worst CNY holiday ever. Going to bed soon since tomorrow will resume working. Happy Monday and Happy working people!

February 2016

Assalamualaikum.

Pejam celik, it's already February. As always, times flies. 

The past 31 days has been hectic and stressful to me and still ongoing(*sigh). Seem like year 2016 started off a bit down (work related) for me so far yet I am hoping and praying that everything will be fine with time, In Sha Allah..

Also feel like I have been too focus with my commitment of spending more time with my growing up kids that I FORGOT to pamper myself with 'me' time. Even mister said I need to hang out with my fellow KL friends sooner. Green light, green light, mana suda geng2 sukat KL ni? Just, Lin, mari atur cepat! 

Oh ya, Chinese New Year Holiday is coming soon and am excited to spend it with my small family. Nope, no luxury holiday but maybe like last year gonna spend it somewhere nearby (*wink2).

Until next post, have a good day everyone!

Anticipating coming soon Island escapade :P

New Year, New Resolutions, New Hair

Assalamualaikum...

13th days of year 2016 and 2 weeks since school  re-open for new session of which the busiest weeks for me. Now that my children school matters has been settled, I can focus on my monthly plan and yearly plan with hope that everything will go smoothly. I have few goals that I really want to achieve this year (In Sha Allah) and adding up 1 new resolution for year 2016 i.e; SPEAK LESS, LISTEN MORE dengan harapan boleh kawal tu mulut/lidah dari membebel, hehehe! 

Oh ya, cut my long hair in order to persuade my daughter to cut her messy long hair, hahaha! Ringan terus kepala! My daughter is one of those girl who likes to keep her hair long but doesn't like to take care of it and believe me, I have to drag her to the bathroom to wash her hair several times before because she didn't wash it for 2 weeks! Hopefully I she will learn to keep her head and hair clean and tidy sooner.

There go my 1st post of year 2016 and more to come, In Sha Allah..

Before and After

Youngest Son 1st Day At Primary School

Believe or not, it's last day of 2015 and my youngest son happened to have his orientation day on this day. He is excited but I am not because I feel like not wanting him to grow up so fast (*sobs). Moreover, I am worried because he seem too small and frail for his age although he is one active boy. He is a shy boy so I hope he will able to adapt with the new learning environment and expand his social skills. 

Year 2015 will be soon become a past and I will treasure every single memory especially those moments I spent with my kids. That's the end of my ramblings for year 2015. Until next year, Happy New Year 2016! 

REDEEMING ASTRO CIRCLE POINT

After hesitating for quite sometimes, I heed to kiddos and hubby constant nagging and demand of watching Polis Evo; acclaimed local action movie last night although it's kind of stale movie. Biarlah cerita basi yang penting rakyat jelata puas hati

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Though we can watch it online since it's already available but our home computer desktop is too small for 6 of us and we don't have longer HDMI cable to connect it to our TV, so I decided to  purchase Polis Evo movie on Astro First HD channel. The movie will be watchable for 48 hours non-stop, so sila tengok sampai muntah ok rakyat jelata sekalian, hahaha! Oh well, since I still have some points available,  I am eyeing those minion movie pack or maybe the vouchers for Dinoscovery entry fee package or.. Tamaha mode activated suda, haihhh!

I am not really sure but I think all Astro active account holder should have astro circle point accumulated so if you have one make sure you check your point thru Astro website because  there are numbers of interesting stuffs you can get for as low as 200 points. 

Regarding the movie, to be honest, I am really out-dated when it comes to Malay movies because I am NOT too keen with the plot and genre that our local movie maker tried to highlight but for Polis Evo, The plot is kind of typical,not so interesting drug case but I considered it as okay. The characters are interesting and entertaining. It's kind of our very own 'Rush Hour' movie la. I give it 7/10. I wonder if others noticed those few sec editing flaw in the movie tho. It;s too obvious, hehehe!

Okay, enough with this not so interesting thought of mine. Have a nice day ahead & happy long weekend for those working at Selangor!

Redeemed!!

Fit Malaysia Run 2015

After twice disappointment over cancelled running event, my hubby and I participated in Fit Malaysia Run (Selangor) 2015 which held at Dataran Dewan MPPJ on 15th November. Well, I feel kind of compulsary joining this event since it offer medal and certififcate(paper cert) for all participant without any fee hokey! Terubat juga rindu belusiran, ngehehe! 

Hubby and me was late because of closed road and parking space problem. We have to park somewhere at residency area about 1km from the starting point. Luckily 10KM was gunned off a bit late from initial proposed time i.e at 8am, 30min later than stated starting time(should be at 7.30am). 

10km route was kind of challenging; hilly, narrow lane with 2 water station but overall I enjoyed the run. The morning sun was awesome and I love it. I was running and walking with average pace 12min per miles and managed to cross the finish line within my target time. I was surprised that hubby crossed finish 20min after me because unlike me, he don't like physical activities. Good job, mister!

30min later, I saw Just & Lin crossed the finish line. Sempat juga bergambar-gambar before we parted way. It's been a while kan moi, Lin...Oh ya, still have 1 last running event for 2015 with them (*smile).

Pheww!! That's all for now. It's stale draft but glad that finally able to publish it.

The medal and compulsory post-run pic :P

Hubby & me

Just, Lin & Me

Candid pic by hubby :)

Ambitious Dream

Staring at the night view from my house make me think how time flies, too fast that a day passed in blink of eyes. Just hours ago I am laying on the bed staring at the fans going round and round while thinking of my plan of the day.

I been lacking of motivation to work for people lately that I feel burden to work hard only for other people to reap the fruits of success. I have this ambitious thinking to quit working for others and be my own boss so that I will feel satisfied to pour our every sweat and blood on it. 

I know it just a mere dream for now since financially, I am not stable yet and there are many other aspect that I need to consider but In Sha Allah, I will try to make it into something real.

For now I just need to kick in my enthusiasm of working hard and sincere for my company and gain all the knowledge and experiences needed so that I can used it to make my ambitious dream come true. I have no complaint over my company especially my boss since he is the kindest person I have ever met in my life and I think him as my own father. 

The end of rambling on the last day of October 2015, LOL!

Lets Iflix!

I guess everyone already know that iflix is another newest internet tv in Malaysia market. Been stumbled upon their ads on Facebook and others site numerous time since its launched. At first I give no heed at all because I can watch movies, dramas, tv series etc from putlockers, drama.net, dramafever and many others free sites. Who want to pay when we can watch it for free kan.. 

But 2 days ago, out of curiousity and for fun I ended up signing up for iflix 30 days free trial and installed their apps on my smartphone. Benda free wajib dicuba kalau tidak memudaratkan hokey! Within 30 days, watch as much as I can then before its due just terminate my membership before the service charging me, kihkihkih (evil laugh)

So far, I am enjoying myself watching movies/dramas/tv series via iflix for free.  Movies/dramas/tv series need lots of addition and updates because most ongoing series such as 'Arrow', 'Fargo', NCIS etc is behind the latest season. Movies/dramas and tv series are still limited in iflix but I am happy to watch all of those nostalgic movies AND please be inform that we definitely can't use it anywhere, anytime, everywhere because we need a good internet connection in order for this service to run smoothly. 

At the moment, trying to finish all korean drama available though it means re-watching some of it. Hopefully I won't turned into living 'zombie' for lack of sleep by Monday!

Happy Weekend everyone!

Missing Him

Assalamualaikum.

Salam Eid Adha to all muslims. May this celebration bring happiness and barakath to all of us. Just want to warn you all to skip my page if you don't want to read soppy story because apparently this going to be one today.

9 years ago today, I lost my beloved father and part of myself that I always wish I am asleep for the whole September. I was born on September and I lost someone I love dearly on the same month. How ironic is that? Green Day's song "wake me up when September end" define my feeling well (*sighed).

People said the every wound will heal over time and yes, it will heal but it will leave a scar that will remind you a deep wound existed there before and you'll remember the pain you been thru. It will stop bleeding and the pain will subside slowly over time yet the memories will remain, forever stamped deep inside you mind and heart that will automatically replay with certain button.

Since 2006, 24th September will automatically remind me of what I lost on that day. It remind me of the pain I have thru since that day. It remind that he is no longer there at home waiting for me with his smile, he is no longer at the other side of the phone to listen to my whining and complaint of life, he is no longer there to back me up against those who hate me and importantly he is no longer there to advise and admonish me to stand up and fight back when I stumble and fall down in my life.

On this day I allowed myself to re-live the memories with him and then cry over it so that I will wake up the next day and days after with determination to make him proud of me.

Rest in peace bapa. I might be not as successful as others but I will try to become a better person, a good daughter, a good mother, a good wife and make you proud because I believe you are watching from above.

PJ HALF MARATHON 2015 (21KM Finisher)

PJ Half Marathon 2014 was my 1st HM and I participate this event once again this year because I want to improve last year finishing time. PJ Half Marathon 2015 was held on 7th September at Laman MBPJ, Petaling Jaya. It was my 5th HM (*wink2). 

We was late because some road being closed due to the event that caused us to take a quite a long detour to reach the event venue. Mister dropped me by the roadside nearby the starting point and I had to rush to find toilet because 21KM will be gun off in 20min.  I was just entering the toilet when they gun off 21KM runners at 5am and managed to sprint to the starting point 2-3 minutes later and joined the last crowd. 

The route was totally different and more challenging than last year. I enjoyed the run but those impatience cars, motorcycles and buses that keep honking at us at some congest point really a killjoy. I feel so thankful towards volunteers and police traffic who controlling the traffic for us because if they weren't there, (palis-palis) memang yang tidak penyabar langgar suda tu runners semua.

I was running with slow pace at average 12min per miles and made it to the finish line after 154min; better time than my finish time during PJ Half Marathon 2014. Am I happy? Of course! For an amateur runner like me who always lack of training, finishing a HM below 3 hours, I considered myself doing a good job(^^)V...Ba, jangan kamu muntah, ayat kasi sedap hati seja ba tu, ngehehe!

Okay, regarding the event itself; I think overall it was better than last year. The route is challenging and enjoyable (minus the barking dog when passing along the residential area and those impatience cars/buses/motorcycles), punctual and suitable starting point (at least for me), good traffic control and nice running t-shirt & finisher t-shirt for 21KM.

However there were also several flaw that the organizer should take note and overcome if they want to convince runners to join this event again next year. Firstly, they should increase the number of volunteer/support team at the water stations. Pity us because some of us especially those who run with large crowd, have to serve our own water that add 2-3min to our time. 

Secondly, they should be more considerate about providing wider running line for hundreds runner for I saw some runners almost got hit by car/motorcycle for accidentally ousted from the narrow line by other runners. 

They also should provided e-cert with ranking and finish time for 21KM and 10KM instead of paper cert that we have to fill up the details by ourselves and they should give finisher medal and light breakfast to all category since the fee was quite expensive. Blank paper certificate is so out-dated! Running event nowadays is getting expensive year by year (*sighed).

The certificate

Beside that, the organizer should design attractive medal instead of a simple plain one because this year medal is no difference than last year except for the size. Pardon me if I am rude but the medal is so boring, hehehe! Lastly but not the least, please add up the number of toilet at the starting/finish point because I had to queue up for almost 20min and missed the gun off by 2min, grrrr!

Okay, I am finish with the review of this event and sharing here few pic of me from the event:-

The medal, me at the finish line & me wearing the finisher t-shirt

Screenshot of the result

The only pic of me by freelance photographer, Maui. Can you spot me? :P

My 33th Birthday

Alhamdulillah, 33 years and Allah still give me the chance to breath, to witness His magnificent creation and importantly to give me the chance to become a better person. In my 33 years, I been thru lots of good, bad, sweet, sour, bitter and spicy experiences and undergo numerous kind of emotional changes that shaped who I am today and for that I am truly grateful.

Special present? Nope, I don't get any but kisses and birthday wishes from my kids and my mister is special enough for me. We are together, reunite and stronger hence the hurricane upon us is a blessing for me and I  couldn't ask for more. 

Special wish? Hurmmmmmm, (for myself) instead of wishing, I am praying for my little family well-being here and hereafter (Amin)! 

Errrrr, I also wish I will look young and slim forever like Amy Mastura, hahahaha! Just kidding okay! (^^)V

Rambled too much already and it's time to say Peace, No War!

Me few days before my 33th birthday