It's Been A Month Already

Hello everyone!

Actually I was hesitant to post about it because I don't really like to show off but I think it's okay if I just want to share the feeling of owning something we want for a long long time (^_^). 

On this day a month ago, a significant event took place: I got my very 1st own car, yay! The feeling?? Well, imagine the excitement a girl can feel when she get her most wanted doll...That's exactly how I feel that day, plus the nervous feeling and also the alertness of adding another chapter of debt in my life.. There were lots of obstacle during the process especially when my suppose to be guarantor back off (during my 1st application with a 2nd hand car). I was devastated and almost gave up but at some point I do understand her situation and I am not mad at her at all. Then I tried my luck one more time and this time I applied loan for new car and thank God, it was approved!

My Car Key

Some people might think that owning a car is just a sign of luxury life but to me, it no longer a luxury but a need, especially when you are working in area where no public transportation available like me (T_T).

I been driving by myself for a month now except for the 1st week, where my husband became my guide, driving in front of me to show how to tackle the traffic along the way to my workplace which is pretty challenging to me. Thank god, I survived the 1st month, except for one minor incident where I 'bergesel' with other car (@_@). Hopefully my driving skill will improve with times and I can drive to other place than Puchong since for time being I only dare to drive around Puchong and the highway to Semenyih where my MIL lives..

Well, that's all for now... Happy Working and Happy Monday everyone!

 P/S: Sorry, I won't post the pic of my car because MIL said it's not a good idea.. Myth huh?

Exercise For Good Health!

Have you ever been in situation where people questioned your motive of exercising??  Well, I have and their question really irritating me sometimes. I always received remark such as "awak kan dah kurus, tak payah la nak exercise lagi" or "badan kremping pun nak exercise lagi ke??" or "dah kurus nak kurus lagi ke??" etc. whenever they saw me doing my weekly run at the nearby park. Hello, ada undang2 ka yang halang orang kurus beriadah. Kalau jeles, cakap saja la jeles kan. Nda payah cakap berlapik2 (*pissed off) Normally I will just ignore those remark but if I am not in mood I will give them one of my 'laser' answer..

Image credited to ftkonline.com

Never ever crossed in my mind to exercise solely for maintaining my slim figure! In fact, in whole my life I always try to gain weight, meaning I don't want to lose my fat cell but I want to stay in good health as well and exercising is one of the best way to maintain good health. I have tried not to exercise before this and the result was disastrous; I was always tired and pale although I ate good amount of foods and my blood pressure rises drastically that caused me to feel dizzy most of time. So, there is no way I am gonna repeat that stupid act in order to gain weight ever again. So, for those who have this negative perspective of slim/skinny people who do their exercise, please acknowledge that exercising is good for our health beside it help us to maintain our figure. 

Nah, kan explode suda gunung berapi! Such a relief for me to be able spit out my raging feeling toward those people who always said above stuff to me. Nowadays, I do my weekly run in the morning when most people are still sleeping and I feel more comfortable doing my aerobic/zumba at home with my daughter. Less irritating because I don't have to hear any negative remark and more freedom! 

It's almost 5pm, so gotta go now for my aerobic & zumba workout session! Have a blasting & blessed weekend everyone! Peace No War!

Best Rental Car Services - Cheap & Customer Friendly

I have some free time tonight so I think why not sharing about the car rental services we used during our recent holiday in my hometown. Moreover, it is really nice to share about good thing, isn't it??

As I told in my post about glimpse of our short holiday, we decided to rent a car instead of taking bus/taxi/Unser because we think it was better option for us since we were traveling with the kids that might need special attention. Anybody who have kids might understand what I mean right, so I don't need to explain further..

The only pic of the car we rented!

Okay, let us get back to the main point.. We found out about this car rental services from Great Teacher Onizuka where he posited about his experience with this lousy renting car services (mostly based on KKIA Terminal 1 and 2) and I read one comment from a guy named Brandon regarding his car rental services. I browsed to his website and found out that his offer is cheaper than others. We called him but no answer. Then we sms him and got replied. He said he only communicate via sms.. Yeah, sound weird and unbelievable at 1st but he is real okay and dealing with him was as easy as ABC.. We asked him whether he have any available car from 20th-23rd of April and he offered us new Myvi 1.3 LAGI BEST at special rates RM120/day. Means, we have to pay RM360 + RM100(deposit).. That was a good deal right? I know what you all thinking but nope.. No payment made online. Payment will only made when he send the car to us.. We also asked the charges for late return and Brandon explained to us that 1st 2 hour is free and after that they will charge us RM6/hour.. It is cheap, isn't it?

On the night of our arrival in KK, hubby sms Brandon regarding our booking and he asked us to contact his friend (En. Abu, person who sent the car to us) since he was out-stationed that week. We called En. Abu and asked him to send the car to us at 9.00am. Believe me when I said he sent the car to us at 9.00am sharp! Before I forgot, time counted only after they deliver the car to us. Meaning, he deliver the car at 9.00am, then one day is at 9.00am the next day.

We returned the car at 3.00pm on 23rd April at airport (terminal 2). So the total cost was RM360 (3days) + RM24(extra hour charges). Of course we got back our RM100 deposit since we returned the car in good condition. Orang punya harta mesti mo jaga baik2 ba kan (*winking).

We greatly satisfied with Brandon and En. Abu Rental Car Services and we definitely recommended their services to those who want to explore Sabah by driving because we could say that their rate is the cheapest, their services really customer friendly and dealing with them was super easy. Anyone who planning to go to Sabah soon and in need of renting a car, you can go to Brandon Facebook Page or his website at kkrentacar.com for further details.

This sharing is based on my real experience and everything I write is solely my opinion. I hope this sharing will be useful for those who planning to rent a car during their visit in Sabah. Until next post and be cheerful and jangan malas2 for tomorrow okay!

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Good Dad?? Bad Dad??

I am reading through one of blogger post about  her father and how much she love him because of the sacrifice her father have done for her and her siblings and couldn't help myself from snorting and making an ugly expression because I know her and this man she call 'father'. Maybe not that well but long enough to know their family character and frankly I really don't like their character and behavior.

image credited to gooddadbaddad.com

I am not writing this to judge or to humiliate them but the feeling I have keep for so long about them is clawing from deep inside me to be acknowledge especially after reading her praise and adoration over her father. Well, who is not praising a good, wonderful and responsible father whom willing to sacrifice everything for his children happiness right? But, this girl's father only being good towards his children with his new wife. Yep, this 'father' have kids with his 1st wife/ex-wife that being treated badly by him and his new family. Thinking of his bad treatment towards his other children make want to puke when I read this blogger praise over him. I guess she is just want to be a good daughter who talk only good thing about her father and turn blind to the bad side of her father... If her father really that good, he will find them, support them and guide them to the right path instead of giving up and let the children strayed away.. If he is really such an amazing father, he will never disowned his other children for no matter what the situation is.. (*with emo aura)

I never stop wondering how can a father acted indifferently towards his children when his blood is running in them though they are from different mother? When I was a kid, I only watched this kind of scenario from TV and it really hard for me to believe that this kind of father exist in reality since I lived with my mother, my stepmother, my siblings and my step-siblings and my father love all of us equally. For that I am really grateful..But when I was older and  seen one 'father' with this bad traits, I have to accept that this is not a fiction but a fact..(*defeated expression)

As I said, this is not my judgement but just my hidden feeling that been lurking in my heart for quite some time now and I feel such a relief to blurt it out here.. I am really sorry if you may find that this post offense you in some way because as I mentioned earlier it just my thought and feeling.. Well, some people said it's better to pour out our hard feeling before it turn into poison and here I am doing exactly that to avoid my heart from being poisonous.. Padahal alasan mo kasi lepas geram ja..(*winking)

Source Of Strength

Whenever I feel like breaking down and want to raise the flag of surrender over life hardness, I will focus my mind over my kids smiling face to calm myself and keep on fighting. Yes, they are my amulet of strength, the source of my strength that their smiling face alone can reload 50% of my fighter spirit beside prayer to God and support from those who cares.. Balik-balik cerita pasal anak kan but they are my life and it's better writing about them than gossiping about other people affair kan.. (*winking)

My Source Of Strength (^_^)V

Why do I refer my kids as my amulet of strength? Isn't God suppose to be our source of strength? Well, of course God is our source of strength. I can't never denied this FACT but to me my kids also my source of strength. Why? Because whenever I feel like want to give up for examples my job due to its' pressure and demand, I will think of my  kids happy face and what will happen if I quit. They will lost the smile of happiness and I don't want that happened.. You see what I mean, they existence give me a new meaningful purpose in life and it give me such strength to ensure they will have a better life than mine. 

Another examples, When I feel like I can't stand the marriage life any longer (1st thing 1st, touch wood..nauzubillah), I will think of my kids happiness and that give me new strength to fight for my marriage because I want my kids to have a good family... Often enough I stumbles upon hardness that took away all my energy to fight that I am glad I have my precious kids to keep me re-charge and resume fighting.. But I don't have to elaborate more about it because any person called mum or dad understand this feeling..

Did I bored you up already?? With this boring topic, I guess I did.. Hahaha! Okay, better stop now or else you might blacklisted me for being a super boring blog-post.. Huhuhu, please NO..(",)v

Hasta la entrada sigiente, bye!

Positive Thinking!

That what I been done to kill my frustrated condition last Sunday! When I went to my driving class last Sunday, I keep saying to myself to think positive, that I can do it and yes indeed I can! I executed the going down slope successfully though I need more practice to do it smoothly! I will never doubt the power of positive thinking anymore! =P

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Honestly, I been doing this since 11 years ago when my life turned upside-down and it has become some kind of amulet to me every time I make a mistake in my life. Whenever I realized that I have done a mistake, small or big one, I will try to console myself from breaking down by thinking positively that the mistake happened for reason, that everything will be alright in the end. Sound like I am making an excuses right? Some people even said that doing this doesn't help at all! But, to me I need this to prevent myself from stress/depression that might effect people around me since I am a person that can stress out easily even over a small matter and of course I do it with reality intact okay since we live in real world not in fairy tales..(*smile)

However it doesn't mean I always think positive of everything since on some matter I do have to think realistically. What I am doing preaching all this stuff when I knew all of you already know the power of positive thinking?? Stale topic suda ni Tunung!! (*mentally slapping myself)

Stale or not, I want to have my say too and I am done now! Until next post, have a nice day everyone and don't forget to THINK POSITIVELY! Peace no war.... (^_^) v 

 

The Price I Pay

It's Monday again and here I am trying to crack my blur mind of new story/idea to share with people out there (*winking). But honestly, I miss to write something in this blog of mine.. Not much to share about my ordinary life but I do have something that I need opinion from you people. It's something related to the title of this post, so bear with me & keep reading ok!

1st of all, million thanks for those who leave comment/opinion in my previous post about dilemma of married woman. I really appreciate your generosity for sharing your thought and good news is I already figure out how to convince my mom. I also figure out how to fulfill my dream and at the same time avoid prejudice from certain people. Well, instead of traveling alone I think it more safe and fun if I travel with either my husband or my friends/ families. Wise thinking & good choice right? Self appraising huh.. (*rolling on floor laughing) My mom have no objection once I told her that! I guess she is just worry about my safety when traveling alone (*smiling). Issue solved, next problem please! Kada kotogod kio ambalut.. (^_^) V

Recently I noticed that my kids are a bit scared to tell/to ask  me anything and frankly I only realized last weekend that they were not "a bit" scared but they are SCARED of me! I asked my husband why the kids acted like that and guess what he said??

Image of kids in fear - credited to risingthefawn.com

"Seriously?? You don't know why the kids scared of you? Did you noticed that since the beginning of this year you always snap at them? I mean you are always tensed and even a small matter make you angry. I didn't say anything because I know you are stressing out with our financial problem."

Well, I did remembered snapping at the kids few times but I never thought that will make them scared of me and I don't like the kids to feel like that towards me. I tried to control myself from getting angry or snapping to them but I am just human being that sometimes it just happened. Some people said that this problem occurred because I am so young and not yet ready to face the challenge of motherhood. Obviously I am 29 years old mother of 4 kids but to me age but there are lots of young parent out there who excelled in parenthood, better than some of parents who are older than them. So, I guess we shouldn't judge parent based on their age.

In my case (from my own point of view) this problem all caused by my  weakness in tackling my stress! I have no one to blame but myself for causing my kids being afraid of me. No matter how tensed or stressed I am, I shouldn't snap on them because now I am paying the price of my own mistake(*sighing). Still don't know how to win my kids heart and trust.. Can you imagine how I feel when I see my kids expression of fear every time they ask something to me? I feel horrible! No wonder they were cowering whenever I raised my voice..(-_-) So parent out there, what do you think of this matter Obviously I need to re-evaluate myself to avoid myself from snapping at them but any opinion/suggestion/idea on how to tackle this kind problem really welcomed here!

Okay, gotta go now and search for some info on how to win my kids heart again. If any of you have any advise please do tell me.. (*puppy face)

Happy Monday everyone!

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Dilemma Of Married Woman

While everyone busy giving their opinion about Anuar not guilty verdict which announced earlier today, here I am feel obligated to voice out about my dilemma as a married woman who want to catch up what I missed during my youth year. Sound like I am going to whine again huh..(*Laughing)

Last year, I mean few days before New Year, I called my mother back in my village and I talked to her about my future plan. Most of it about my intention to travel alone around Malaysia and guess what my mom said to me??? "Minog poh boh mingansau kopio dot nokosawo om kitanak Unung." English translation; "As you are married and have kids, you shouldn't think of being active/out-going anymore." Well, I don't really agreed with my mother this time because to me that kind of thinking is really ridiculous and selfish. Yes, I am married with kids but that shouldn't prevent me to enjoy my life & try to fulfill my dream. 

Image credited to Mr. Google

I don't understand when people have such thought that married woman should be content staying at home only and taking care of her kids and husband. Maybe some women might feel content but an active women like me will feel like trapped and unable to breathe. I already know that I am not going to be a full time housewife who stay at home taking care of her family only since I was young because I was and still an active person. But don't get me wrong because as other people some time I can be the most lazy-bone person you ever know when I am not in mood..

My main point here is about this thought/opinion of people especially the elder people that married woman should only think about her family and don't have right to go anywhere or don't have right to have fun! Every living soul have right to enjoy and live their life to the fullest and we married woman also want to have fun in our life. Please don't deprived us of our happiness and enjoyment just because of married status! 

I am done with my 2 cents(*rolling on floor laughing) and going straight to bed...Married woman out there, what do you think? Please share your opinion/comment because I would love to hear what other think of this topic. Until next whining okay!

Good Night & Happy Tuesday in advance!

I Miss You Dad!

 

Yes, I miss my father very much! I miss to talk with him, to tell him about my heart content, my problem and what I am thinking (*sighing). Whenever new year approaching, I will think back how was my life so far? What I have achieve in my life? Whether I am happy with my life? Whether I am satisfied with what I am doing now? Whether I am making the rightthing for me, the kids and for everyone else? Yes, all of those question  might make you think that I am such paranoia but that is just me re-evaluating my life for better option.

You must wonder why talking stuff like that with my father when I have a husband. Honestly, I never talk this stuff with husband because I don't feel comfortable talking about this stuff with him and moreover he is not a good listener like my father. Yes, we might be husband and wife but there are certain thing I don't like to share with him and even if we are spouse but it doesn't mean we gonna share everything! That just my opinion though and it not apply to all people ok! (*winking)

Well, I seem happy with my life but honestly I am not that happy at all because I often miss my family back at Sabah and too much pressure from certain people here in KL. I miss to gather with my friends and nieces back at Sabah. I don't have any close friend here in KL... In fact I never go out with friends here in KL! Sometimes I feel bored because my life only  rebound around  my kids, husband and his family. Please don't mistaken that I don't like family life because I like it but I only want some time for myself where I free to spend it with my my friends. There is nothing wrong of wanting some time for ourselves, isn't it?

The only time I have for myself is when I am going to watch movie at cinema by myself. Gosh! How I miss the girl talk with my girls friend and the last time I have that was like 6 year ago with my best friend, Opong. I wish I could talk out my heart with my father because he will know how to console me and make me feel better with his wise and comforting words. Yes, Ia such a daddy's girl! 

Well, writing a post about it definitely help a bit because now I feel bit better! LOL! Thank you for reading and sorry because you have to read an emotional post from me. Wish you all have a very Good Day! 

P/S: Song below really pictured my feeling right now! I love this song even though it make me cry every time I listen to it! (^_^) v

Kids Of 90's

I rarely post any direct update on my Facebook account nowadays but still I check on people especially my families and friends update regularly.. Yesterday I stumble upon an updates from a friend which remind me of the old time and I re-shared it on my FB. It's an interesting update, just read below which I copied & pasted it here in my blog :-

I grew up in the 90s. :D

We are the last generation who learned to play in the street, we are the first one who've played video games, and we're the last ones to record songs off the radio on cassettes and we are the pioneers of Walkman and chat-
rooms.

We learned how to program the VCR before anyone else, play with Atari, Super Nintendo, & Genesis. We also believed that the internet would be a free world.

We are the generation of the POKEMON, Digimon, Thunder Cats, Power Rangers, Dragon Ballz, Ninja Turtles, Transformers, and Doogie Howser MD. Traveled in cars without seat belts or airbags, lived without mobile phones.

We didn't have +99 television stations, flat screens, surround sound, mp3, iPods, Facebook or Twitter but nevertheless we had a GREAT TIME! :)

(Re-post if you're one of us!)

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Well, I definitely didn't played on the street when I was a kid. The jungle and the paddy field was my playground! I climbed tree like a monkey back then and still have those 'expertness' even now with 4 kids (*laughing). Yes, I did have a walk-man when I was in form one which is given by my older brother and I involved with chatting world (MIRC) when I was around 16teen. I never played Atari or Super Nintendo or Genesis because I can't afford to have those luxury. The only games I know is Super Mario Brother (*smile). We, the village kids rather stayed outside playing with dirt than being in home playing those games..LOL! Of course cartoons show such is Power Rangers, Thunder Cats, Dragon Balls, Ninja Turtles, Maskman, Gaban, Rugrats, the smurfs, Tom & Jerry etc were part of my life though I don't remember Digimon or Pokemon during those times (*scratching head). Before my father bought our own VCR, I went to my big step-sister to watch rented video taped movies. In fact, we the village kids gathered to watch it and it was really a memorable moment especially when we watched horror movie (*smiling). Frankly, we all have a great and fun times even without today technologies luxury!

Kids nowadays are too pampered with this modern technologies! I don't know about other parents opinion but to me I will never let my kids to have anything like FB or any social network account, mobile phone, laptop etc, not until they are old enough to handle this stuff wisely. Old enough means they have to wait until they are past 17 years old. Hubby said that I am being unreasonable that all of those stuff normal for kids nowadays but I have my own reason and I will stick to my point until they give me good reason to think the other way. Well, kids if you excel in your study, maybe mama will change her mind? (*winking)

No matter how happening world nowadays, I still prefer my childhood and teenage years because I have such a great and fun time during those years. What can I say..It was irreplaceable! What say you?

Happy Friday & Happy Weekend You All!

What If...

What a lovely Monday to start with (My wish..LOL) when the truth is I feel like want to bring along my blanket and pillow and snuggle comfortably here in my office if I don't mind to receive LOVE LETTER from my boss...(*wink2). Well, the weather is cloudy and just nice today but I wish the sun will shine soon because I want my laundry to dry off so that I can wash the other 2 basket full with dirty clothes! Laundry services? Nope, not my taste...LOL.. What a gross introduction! Yet I can help myself from mentioning it since it bugged me for days now.. (@@)

Now back to the main point... What's up with my entry title today? Well, for the past 2 days, I have not update anything  because I am busy, nope too engrossed reading other blogger entries. Some of them make me laugh, some of them make me slapped my forehead, some of them make me sigh, some of them make me cry and some of them make me wonder.. But as always story that make me wonder will always occupied my mind.. 

This "what if" issue, not an issue actually but more about our mind plot which considered as negative thinking by some people but to me it is not at all. Guess what, though I never regret anything happened in my life except few things that I wish I never done, I still reflect to the past and ask myself  what might happen if I choose the other option.. What if I stand on myself and refused to further my study in UKM? What if I follow my parents suggestion to let them to adopt my baby? What if I never agree to get marry? It's countless actually and though this kind of question sometime knock me hard with the possibility of what might happened but at the same times it give strength to pull myself together to accept my choice and make the best of it.. 

When I read peoples entry about how they feel sorry for ever thinking this what if matter, automatically my mind think of this, "why feel sorry? There are no law or regulation that prohibited us from thinking of the other possibilities. We are human after all and such thinking is normal for human like us, or at least for me.." It's not a problem at all but if you tended to mourn on it than that's a problem.. But overall, at always it depend on our perception.. 

I am not ashamed for ever looking back and thinking of the possibility of what if I choose the other option because I gain such strength from it to make my choice of life better than the other option. Thinking of it doesn't make us ungrateful person but in other way it make us appreciate our choice to it best.. So, don't ever feel guilty if those question of what if ever crossed your mind because that mean you are just a normal human being...(^_^) V

Happy Monday and Happy Working!

Free Vacation

Hello everyone!

Yep,  we are on free vacation at Kemang Indah Condo, Port Dickson with MIL. Its not a grand hotel, not even a popular pit stop because this condominium area located in village area but for me the its okay. Of course I am okay with it because its free... LOL

This is 1st time the kids come to Port Dickson and they are excited especially my boys (Elan & Daniel) and Shasa. Shasa love staying at hotel because she love sleeping in air-conded room and she will refused to go back home when its time to leave... We have to persuade her and tell her that we will install air-cond in our small flat.. LOL, like that gonna happen.

I dont know whether we gonna go eye-sighting around Port Dickson or just lazing out in the condominium.. Ya, maybe thats good idea and I can  read books. .(*winking).. Hubby planned to go ti the beach later and also the night market but its all depend on the weather.. So, hopefully its going to be a good day today. . Insyaallah..

I have not manage to snap some good pics, so I cant tell you any thing about this free vacation yet.. Maybe I will write it later or maybe not since I dont really keen telling people about my vacation. Its not like I am stingy to share about my vacations but since most of it just simple one and not much to tell than I prefered to keep it and just mention it here and there occasionally.. But I have this intention to give my review about budget hotel/inn/homestay/apt & condo because we stayed on those place on most of our vacation.. Dream on Tunung..Hahaha!

Opppsss.. I can feel this entry is gonna bored you, so better stop here. I hope all of you a very happy Saturday, happy weekend and Happy Aidiladha in advance!

P/S: The pics taken today at the swimming pool here in Kemang Indah Condominium..

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Delayed Dream: Travelling Alone

Here I am attacked by the insomnia.. I want to read but I better not or else I will end up stay awake till morning.. So I think maybe writing a random post will kill it. . Talking about random post make think of sharing my dream of travelling alone..

I always dream to travel alone without any company but my books.  I have this dream since I was a kid and I really do hope that I will have the guts to do so. It doesn't have to be travelling to oversea because here in Malaysia we have lots of beautiful and interesting place though travelling alone to oversea seem more adventurous.. As if I dare... LOL

I have told my hubby about this dream of mine and he said why not if I dare enough. Yep, thats the main problem; I am not that brave to travel all by myself especially nowadays where lots of missing people reported.. Just thinking of that make my knees buckled out. Moreover, I don't think I can leave my kids without thinking of them and end up missing them..q

See, I think this dream of mine will be on hold until I have the courage and gut. Let say like 10 or more years in future?! Well, I don't know for sure since life is so unpredictable...

Yay, as I told earlier, writing this post really did kill my insomnia.. So what do you think of travelling alone?  Leave you all with quest and now I am off to lala land..(*yawning)

Good Night and Good Morning everyone...



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Unexpected Gift!

It's Thursday and it mean 1 more day to go before weekend..(*winking)

Between my hectic day in office, I manage to sit down and write this entry that bugging me since Monday.. It's about my hubby..Nope, it's not a bad thing but quite a surprise for me because he is not a romantic kind of guy and honestly he never did any romantic stuff for me though I am okay with it since me too react awkwardly with romantic situation..(*Laughing)

Tada!! The content is secret but I guess you knew it

Last Monday, after fetching my kids at the day care, he then came to fetch me at my office, along with the kids. Then we went to the Giant, Puchong and asked me to wait in the car with the kids because he said want to buy some stuff. After half hour, he came back. I was not paying attention when he entered our car because I was busy playing games on my phone while the kids busy chatting and playing at the back seat. He put my favorite flower, roses and a gift bag on my lap and asked me to open it. Amazed, I opened the bag and found a Tomei jewel box inside.

I asked him why all of sudden? He said, " I never give you anything because I can't afford it before this. I know you never ask any but I want you have it. Just think of it as gift for our anniversary. "

I was speechless. I never expect this from hubby because I knew his character and attitude. Seriously, I thought he was acting really weird and lots of negative thinking started to cloud my mind. Where did he got the money to buy it? Why did he gave it to me? How ? When? etc... I barely uttered a words to him, not until after we have our dinner only then I managed to let out my mind. He laughed and said, "Is it really weird for guy like me to be a little bit romantic once a while? Seriously, no hidden agenda here. Its not that expensive but its sincere from me. Don't worry, I bought it with my own money that I save up without your knowledge. For that I am sorry and quit those negative thinking already."

That was 3 days ago. Now I am wearing it on my middle finger everyday upon my hubby request though I don't really like wearing any jewellery. Why middle finger? Don't laugh okay...Because it was the smallest one that Tomei can offer! Bigger than that mean I can't wear it at all..LOL.. To tell truth, I was really moved with this unexpected gift from my hubby because I saw the sincerity in his eyes when he gave it to me.. He is right, the gift is not that expensive but the sincerity is what I value the most..THANK YOU HUBBY!

The moral of the story, don't jump into conclusion before you understand the root/resource of something because you might concluded wrong. Obviously I jumped into conclusion by thinking that something is not right with my hubby unexpected gift just because he never do such thing in the past. Now I feel bad because I suspected him doing something illegal.. I am sorry hubby! This unexpected gift incident will definitely gonna be one of my sweetest memory...(*winking)

Time's up here! So, until later... HAPPY THURSDAY!

P/S: I don't wear my wedding ring because I lost it few years ago.

Story Of My Past

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim...

As I promised, though it took me sometime to publish and here is my story of my past.. It's not detailed but it I hope it enough to give you all a glimpse of my past that not as good as your..

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I don't really know where should I begin but I think it's better if I give you all a glimpse of myself; attitude/ behavior/ personality when I was younger. I am the youngest in my big family and the closest one to my father that some people said I was over-pampered by him. I excelled in my study since I was in primary school and finished my secondary school with good result during SPM 1999, though not as I targeted. I was a stubborn, tomboyish girl who never give a damn about stuff that normal teenager might involved and often bragging about not getting married especially not with Malay guy..Ironically, I end up with a Malay guy..Life is so unpredictable..

I never parted from my family especially my parent and pursuing my study at Matriculation college in KK was my very 1st experience being separated from them though every weekend I went back to Ranau. That was also my 1st experience to mix with new circle of friends that more worldly and exposed to the outside world than my friends back in Ranau. I was amazed at their level of knowledge about world/stuff that I fast became their friend. In fact the the name "Molly" was given to me by one of them. I was too close with my new friend that I almost forgot my childhood best friend, Falinah (Ellow) and at one time we quarreled over trivial matter that make us enemy for quite sometime  (I am sorry again for that stupid quarrel, Ellow) though we are good now. You see, I was so naive about lots of stuff and being a teenager I was too curious that I want to know more and want to learn more about stuff, positively or negatively. At that time I was already addicted to the MIRC and befriended lots of  people from virtual world..(Some of them still in contact with me until now)

My parent especially my father trusted me completely because I never did anything reckless in my life before. I finished my matriculation in just a year then got an offer from UKM to pursue my study in Chemical Technology. I was devastated actually because UKM was my last choice which I filled up in my UPU form (1st until 4th option was UMS). I didn't want to go that far when UMS is just 2 hours from my hometown but my father and family seem happy to let me go. Mad and devastated with them, I got drunk with my ex-schoolmate and make a scene at my village on that particular night to show my protest . Luckily, nothing serious/ bad happened to me because my ex-schoolmate took really good care of me and send me back home in good condition..(Thanks again Giwin) I can't imagine what would happened to me if only he took advantage of me..(palis2)  That was my 1st time being reckless and foolish yet my family still trusted me because they understood how scared I was to separated with them.

I was not ready to face the new world of Peninsular Malaysia yet I went there, mentally unprepared of the new people and lifestyle over there. I was given the key of my freedom and stupidly I vowed to use it with vengeance..Really stupid of me.. 2 month later I got to know my hubby via chat-world channel in MIRC. He was using 'Burger King' as his username and I remembered that I was the one who hit on him 1st for using those username. We quarreled online but then after sometime we became friend, exchange number until one day we decided to meet up at my hostel area at Kolej Rahim Kajai, UKM. After that we became closer though we never meet again until July 2001. He called me everyday, asking about me and I guessed that was why I melted into him. I was so engrossed and blinded by my new founded feeling that I forgot about my family and my promise with my father. 

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Ashamedly, I admitted that I lost everything to my hubby because my mind defeated by my own lust and curiosity. Yep, I was one of those stupid young woman who gave up everything she got because of thing so-called LOVE but in my case it never really about that. It was just me being stupid, naive and blind over sweet word and promise when the truth were I never really know what love is and my hubby background that well. he introduced me to his family and I get along very well with my MIL who told me and warned me about his past, that he might not serious about me at all. She said my hubby might just want to get revenge for being dumped by his former girlfriend from Philippines. I was so scared after I knew about his past and at the same time I found out that I was pregnant. I was torn apart.. It felt like tons of brick fall upon me..

I don't have anyone to confide with.. I couldn't tell my family because I know they will surely hate me and condemn me. I was too ashamed to tell my friends because I know they will call me fool or worse they might labeled me as slut. It crossed my mind to do abortion just to hide my sin but I couldn't because I don't want to commit bigger sin than I already did. I don't want to be amongst those heartless people who aborted and dumped their baby. I want to I keep the baby because I love him already. I keep my distance from my family and friends because I was afraid of what they gonna do and think of my pregnancy. At last I told my hubby about it and I was bit relief because he promised to take responsibility and I stay with his sibling during my semester break(1st year) but my big brother came looking for me at my MIL home (Kajang) and took me back to my hometown. 

Back there my family insisted me to do medical check-up and I told my mother about my condition and manage to cover my condition with lies. I persuaded her to kept it secret until I return to KL and she did so. She only told my father about it when I already in KL and my father call me right away, asked me to come back, that nobody will hate me no matter what happened but I was already smitten/committed by my hubby promises that I turned my back against my father and hurt him terribly. I converted into Islam and got married without my father consent. I betrayed my father trust and tarnished my family good reputation. It really such a shock for my father since I was the center of the family and he love me the most amongst his children. I thought that I was no longer have place in my family heart. I am the black sheep in the family. I am the thorn that sting them.

As I thought I made the right choice, that my life will be better but I thought wrong because I never felt true happiness. I always shadowed by my guilt toward my family. I cannot live in peace because day after day I was haunted by my mistaken over turning my back against my family and hurting them. I didn't ask fro their forgiveness and worse I didn't contact them because I thought they hate me and they were angry at me. Everyday I thought of them and cried. At last, when I  no longer stand it, I make myself strong and called my parents, asking for their forgiveness and blessing. I told them everything and guess what? My family especially my father still love me even after all I have done. They forgave me despite of the hurt and humiliation I put them through. YES, I am blessed for having such a wonderful family..My father said, no  matter what happened I am still their beloved daughter..

When I 1st learned of my pregnancy, I thought that the end of my study, my life. I was so afraid of what kind of future would I have if I don't finished my degree. I want to prove that I might strayed but I can excelled in my study..Most young woman might quit studying if they were in my condition but I ignored peoples sneer and negative stare and continue my study after I gave birth of my son. I know there were nothing I can do to mend the damage I caused in my family but I wanted to redeem myself by showing them that I will get my degree and indeed I got it.. 

You see, this story is kind of story you've heard and familiar with but to me who experience and been there, it something that I treasure because the experience had taught me lots about life and it meaning. Yes, it was not something I am proud about because it show how weak I was to temptation but still I am proud with myself because I survived and able to raise again from my fall though my achievement is not as great as other.

 

Actually the story still far from ended but I only have permission to reveal this far.. The rest of it concerned with my marriage and it is private..

To all young woman out there who did the same mistake as I did, please don't make bigger sin than you already commit.. Allah is merciful and forgiving.  

Happy Monday and Happy working!

P/S: To me, it is okay to glance back to our past once in while, just to remind us about the significant lesson we learn from it..=)

'Mesti Sofa Murah Kan'

Just after I post my status update on FB last Saturday, this particular person that I mention in my previous entry sms me asking me with her 1000 question.."cat warna ape?", "cat brand apa, jenis apa", "beli perabot ke tak?"...bla..bla..bla..

I feel irritate but still I answered, "cat dulux yang biasa2 je. Warna pearl white." When I said did not buy new stuff but the sofa set, she said mockingly, "mesti sofa murah kan." 

I feel a bit hurt by her mocking remark because we did buy the cheapest sofa since hubby and me dont want to waste money over trivial stuff such as sofa set but it doesn't mean she can mocked us like that. To us, aa long as it is functional then it is okay.. I knew about this person bragging habit and understand her obsession with expensive stuff but I think it is really rude of her to say such thing to me..

"Ye, murah je tapi takpe la, bukannye leh bawa kubur pun.." unconsciously i replied like that in the midst of my irritates.. Nah, ingat dia ja ka yang buli menyindir.. How about you all? Have you ever encounter person like this? How do you feel? Jawap ye, jangan tak jawab...

I dont really understand people who likes to look down and mock at other people who is less fortune than them.. They should feel grateful and humble with their fortune and try to help/motivated those people so that they too can achieve what they dreamt of instead of mocking, comparing and look down at those people. Life will be more meaningful if we share our happiness with other people..

Geeezzz... I am being carried away by my emotion. So, I better stop now.. Good Night, sleep tight and happy fasting..

P/S: Sofa in above pic is our new sofa set ( uploaded after published with blogger-droid, still don't know how to attach ba..)..Okay juga ba kan..(*wink2)

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Wish Upon A Star #2

You must think I want to talk about the 'Wish Upon A Star' (1996) film which starred by Kathrine Heigl but NOPE it's not. I just want to share with you all about my foolishness right after I watched this movie and this is actually sequel to my 1st entry of wishing upon the star.

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I was 14teen when I watched this movie and being the naive teenager (though I did know that it was just fiction movie) I still wanted to try out what 'Alexia' and 'Hayley' did in that movie. Well, you know they make a wish upon the shooting star. So, every night I stayed by my window and looked into the sky to see any sign of shooting star but after midnight I closed the window because I was scared of this creature called balan-balan and only peeked through the slits between the window. Gave up? At 1st nope, not until my father asked me one day after waiting for 2 weeks in row.

"Apa juga ko buat tiap-tiap malam tengok di langit," he asked me.

"Hmm..Tiada. Saja-saja ambil angin," I lied because I don't want him to laugh  on me if he knew the reason behind it..

He laughed and said,"Ni mesti ko mo ikut yang dalam tu cerita yang ko tengok tu hari kan." (nah kedapatan!) Imagined how embarrassed I was that time!

"Tidak salah mau harap sesuatu tapi berharap sama Tuhan bukan sama tahi bintang," this sentence woke me up from my foolishness and since then I gave up waiting for the shooting star to make my wish and directed it to God instead.

I have done too many foolish thing when I was younger and I am glad that there always someone who can point out my foolishness and guide me to be on the right track. Yes, my father is right. We can have as many wish as we can but make sure we wish it upon God who can hear out and grant it if our intention is pure enough..

As I told before, I still make wish here and there but I no longer look into sky and wait for the shooting star but I closed my eyes and say it in my heart.. Remembering the young me make me laugh sometimes..So naive..

How about you? Do you have any childhood foolishness that make you laugh every time you remember it? Gonna leave you with this Q, Happy Tuesday & Happy Fasting!

P/S: Remembering my childhood memories make me miss my father very much..

Being Simple And Humble

I am doing my early blog-reading when I saw this entry:- Maria Elena: Knowledge should humble you

I read it and said to myself, "yeah, go girl! you are right bout that!" 

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Nowadays lots of people tend to preach using humiliation rather than using persuasions an approach to raise people awareness of religion law. Preaching and debating is two very different way to capture human awareness. Preaching means, you are persuading people to follow the law/rules/regulation/nature/etc with humility and kind words without being arrogant and boasting up how knowledgeable you are. Debating in other way means, you are comparing the pro and con of certain issue/thing/stuff/etc and by doing so you are humiliating/exposing people weakness that may raise people awareness of that issue by exploiting their feeling of shame. To me, I will choose to listen to people who is humble in their way of approaching me because I don't want to change 'my way' just because I feel ashamed of myself.

I always remind myself to lead a simple and humble life. When I did mistake, I admitted it and try not to repeat the same mistake. I am grateful because I don't have much to brag about since my life is average, nothing extravaganza. I am noob in religion and I am noob in life so there is no way I am gonna preach or debate about it to other people though I might like to share my POV/thought/idea/opinion ( it's SHARING k)... I am still learning and there are so much I want to learn it might takes forever before i can consider myself knowledgeable...But my kids is exception since they are my priceless treasure and I love to brag about them (this one can waive ba kan??)....hahahaha, macam aku sorang ada anak (^^)V

What do you think? Which way of above you prefer the most? Relax, we are not debating la...I just want to know your opinion..(*wink2)

Happy Monday, Happy Working & Happy Fasting..

P/S: I like to read Maria Elena entry.. It's original and refreshing!

Should I Try Or Shouldn't I Try?

You must wonder what's  the question above all about? Let me do the telling before you all jump into the wrong conclusion kio.. 

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Last week hubby, the kid and me went to my Mom In Law (MIL) to buka puasa together. After that, out of nowhere we start to talk about this particular food supplement drinks called Cocoa Collagen which is pretty hot among woman nowadays. MIL said that this product really are good and she suggested me to try this one out.Well, I also aware of this product because some of my FB friend also recommended it to me. 

I guess all woman must know what is collagen and I don't think I need to define it to you. Even my mother knew what it is! hahahaha, really funny when I remembered my mother told me to eat lots of citrus fruit and broccoli to delay aging due to lack of collagen. Jangan main2, orang kampung lagi advance oo sekarang.. I do know that lots of woman out there really concern with this collagen stuff because it's something related to our outer beauty. Jangan nak kata tak kisah pasal collagen ye.. 

I never tried this kind of product before because I don't like any kind milk-based beverage..YUCK!  So, it's a bit hard for me to give this product a try but being a woman, me too have those urge to try product that can enhance my inside and outside health. So far, I only took vitamin C tablet as a health supplement because according to what I read through medical and scientific research article, it's the most important mineral that can help our body to maintain our health and also maintain the collagen level in our body.

However, since I notice the difference of my skin nowadays and 10 year back, I start to consider on taking supplement that focus on enhancing or at least maintaining collagen level on my body though I still believe in natural source. I don't want to look like 40 years old woman when I am just 29.. I sure don't to wear make-up 24/7 to cover that! And sadistically, I don't even know how to put on make-up! Masalah..Masalah.. @_@

Yes, nobody can stop aging because it's part of life span and everyone will undergo the process and I am thinking to try out this kind of product not to stop the aging process but only to prevent aging before the time. Who want to look like 40 when she/he is just 30, right? I will never put myself at the same level of those celebrities who are suppose 50 years old that have a stretched-plastic face. You know what I mean.. Haiya, just look at our 1st lady la..Tegang bangat!!

Opsss, did I rants too much? Okay, better back to the main Q:- So should I give it a try? Or shouldn't I give it a try? Or maybe you gals can suggest me another type of product with same purpose? Share2 la you all punya beauty secret kio..

I really want to rant some more since I haven't rants in this blog for some time but I got to go now because I need to settle 1 pending paperwork which my boss need for this afternoon meeting with customer. 

So until next entry, GOOD DAY, HAPPY FRIDAY & HAPPY FASTING!

"Tu Lah, Beranak Lagi Ramai"

I am used to phrases such above. Lots of people  said that to me every time I said something like "Adui, pening betul la dengan korang ni" , "Kenapa suka gaduh2 ni?", "duduk diam jap boleh tak?" and etc.. You know words you might blurt out when you can't stand your kids mischief and manner any longer. I guess mommies always blurt this kind of word but we never really mean it, aren't we mommies?

I have to admit that the feeling of ashamed did crossed my mind once and even complained to my mother only to be scolded by her. She said, "You should be proud and grateful because you are healthy enough to give birth as many as you can. Do you know there are people out there working and praying hard just to have a baby of their own?" Yeah, she got a point there and I couldn't argue the truthfulness of her word. 

Then I thought of those who have 6 or 7 or 8 or even 14teen kids and that killed all of those nonsense feeling of ashamed or what so ever. So now whenever people say the phrases above to me, I just smile to them and said, "Ramai anak, Banyak berkat, Murah rezeki" 

Sometimes they might be good but often they might be naughty

Sometimes they make me mad but often enough they me laugh

Their laugh, their smile, their tear are essence of my life

Their existence give a new meaning to my life

I have POV, what say you? Ahahahaha.. A very short entry but what to do since my messy work desk really need my attention right now..

Happy 8th Fasting day, happy Monday & Have A Good Day!