Goodbye My Dear Friend

I choose to post here instead of IG or FB because we started our friendship from blogging world. 

We met face to face for the 1st time on February 5th 2012 at Amcorp Mall and since then,we became best friend who shared lots of story and memories. I met her when I need someone to lend their ear to hear out my silent cries and and a shoulder to lean on. 

Since the death of my father, I was a loner, an extreme introvert until I meet her. I don't have a friend to talk with or to hang out with because nobody seem to understand me. Nobody can stir up the excitement of mingling with others until her. It was her who fished me out of my extreme introvert world. I always thought Allah destined us to meet so that I can experience all of those sweet memories being with friends, hanging out and travelling together. 

I went to my 1st oversea trip and Island escapade with her and Lin, a friend I got to know thru her, whom too, became my best friend and together we made lots of sweet memory. 

I can count on her to listen to my soppy & sappy story without being judged. She is like my personal confidante, someone I trust other than Allah. 

From the 1st time I meet her, I was drawn with her strength and strong will. People couldn't tell that she is cancer fighter because she never shown her sickness or weakness. 

Today, I lost her, I lost my dear friend; my sister; my confidante; my shopping buddy; my travel partner, leaving another wound deep inside my heart. Yes, maybe time will heal the wound but it will become another permanent scar on my heart. 

I wish it's just a bad dream, a nightmare that will gone once I wake up, but I know it's not. She is gone. I don't want to say goodbye, I am not ready to say goodbye yet I know I need to let her go; to let her peacefully rest in her eternal sleep. 

Goodbye my dear friend; Justinah Suntin (1979-2021). 

Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for every memory we shared together.

I will always remember and cherish our memories.

You will be always remember.

Till we meet again in hereafter..

Al-Fatiha..

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ

إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ

اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ المُسْتَقِيمَ

صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ المَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّينَ

Me, Just & Lin in 2019 - last time I meet her

Below 50kg Again

Alhamdulillah..

5kg lighter. 

No spesific diet. 

I still love to eat BUT I must control the portion size especially carbs portion. I also try to avoid heavy food/junk food after 8pm, which sometimes I failed and succumb to my gluttony but thankfully manage to control my portion in take. 

I am not fan of sweet drinks but I am crazy of sweet desserts and pastries especially cakes and jellies. I also cut off these delicacy intake since it's high in carbs.

I love fruits and vegetables, so I increased portion of these in my menu. 

I also do light yoga and light/medium intensity cardio at least 3 times a week. Will try to jog/run again after this pandemic over or cured, InshaAllah...

As I grow older, my metabolisme also seem to age by slowing down. When I was 17-34 years, I rarely watch my calories / food intake because I hardly gain weight even if I ate like maniac without any exercises. But now, if I eat like I used to be even with exercise, I easily gain weight in just a 3-5 days😣😣.

I try to make this as a habit since March 2021 and glad with the outcome. I feel lighter and no more pain while standing up and content because no need to waste money buying new clothes since I still can fit in my old clothes 😁

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Salam Aidilfitri 2021

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, with His grace and permission, once again I am allowed to celebrate Syawal with my small family though it just 6 of us due to the implementation of MCO3.0 to prevent the spread of C19 pandemic.

This is my 1st year since my conversion 19 years ago, celebrating Syawal without my MIL. Honestly I have to say that I am upset because this whole pandemic situation really suffocating my sanity; wearing face mask at public place, physical distancing, constantly sanitizing and washing hands, no social gathering, cannot do this, cannot do that, must do this, must do that and the list goes on. All of those new norm overhelming sometimes but it's necessary to prevent further damages to our health sector a

However, I feel so grateful because I still have a place to sleep, I still able to afford foods for my family, I still have my job whereas lots of people affected badly by this pandemic (*sigh).

Wishing all of my muslim families, relatives & friends 'Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin'

During this difficult time, may Allah give all of us strength to stand tall and overcome any obstacle. Aaminn!

Family Potrait 😊