Ambitious Dream

Staring at the night view from my house make me think how time flies, too fast that a day passed in blink of eyes. Just hours ago I am laying on the bed staring at the fans going round and round while thinking of my plan of the day.

I been lacking of motivation to work for people lately that I feel burden to work hard only for other people to reap the fruits of success. I have this ambitious thinking to quit working for others and be my own boss so that I will feel satisfied to pour our every sweat and blood on it. 

I know it just a mere dream for now since financially, I am not stable yet and there are many other aspect that I need to consider but In Sha Allah, I will try to make it into something real.

For now I just need to kick in my enthusiasm of working hard and sincere for my company and gain all the knowledge and experiences needed so that I can used it to make my ambitious dream come true. I have no complaint over my company especially my boss since he is the kindest person I have ever met in my life and I think him as my own father. 

The end of rambling on the last day of October 2015, LOL!

Zero Run Medal: BSNPNM 2015

Another event cancelled again due to worst haze condition. Frustrated? Once is okay but twice in a row?? I am totally pissed off because I am anticipated this night run since it's going to be my night run of year 2015, grrrr!

BSN Putrajaya Night Marathon should be my 7th HM but it cancelled so it doesn't count anymore (*sob). Hurmmmm, I feel reluctant to join any future running event since nowadays haze problem from Indonesia is unpredictable and getting out of control. 

Collected the finisher medal and all post-race entitlement with kiddos on the night the event should be on at Place of Justice Putrajaya. It was crowded there and some were doing  5km running before collecting their medal despite of the unhealthy haze. Took some pics then hurriedly went back home. 

I was hibernating and haven't doing any LSD or jogging since the haze attacked last month and honestly I miss my evening jogs while waiting my daughter. Thankfully those nasty haze can't prevent me from doing yoga and simple cardio-workout at home to stay fit and healthy.

Okay, enough ramblings! Have a great days ahead everyone!

Zero-run medal!

Wefie!

Lets Iflix!

I guess everyone already know that iflix is another newest internet tv in Malaysia market. Been stumbled upon their ads on Facebook and others site numerous time since its launched. At first I give no heed at all because I can watch movies, dramas, tv series etc from putlockers, drama.net, dramafever and many others free sites. Who want to pay when we can watch it for free kan.. 

But 2 days ago, out of curiousity and for fun I ended up signing up for iflix 30 days free trial and installed their apps on my smartphone. Benda free wajib dicuba kalau tidak memudaratkan hokey! Within 30 days, watch as much as I can then before its due just terminate my membership before the service charging me, kihkihkih (evil laugh)

So far, I am enjoying myself watching movies/dramas/tv series via iflix for free.  Movies/dramas/tv series need lots of addition and updates because most ongoing series such as 'Arrow', 'Fargo', NCIS etc is behind the latest season. Movies/dramas and tv series are still limited in iflix but I am happy to watch all of those nostalgic movies AND please be inform that we definitely can't use it anywhere, anytime, everywhere because we need a good internet connection in order for this service to run smoothly. 

At the moment, trying to finish all korean drama available though it means re-watching some of it. Hopefully I won't turned into living 'zombie' for lack of sleep by Monday!

Happy Weekend everyone!

Won Without Running: SCKLM 2015

Standard Chartered KL Marathon is cancelled due to the bad and unhealthy haze problem, thank you Indonesia (*please note the sarcasm there).

To be honest, I was a little bit upset and feel awkward to get the finisher medal without running.. tapi dalam hati gembira sebab tidak payah susah-susah lari, hehehe! Actually I was upset because I thought the organizer will only postpone the event instead of cancelling it. But I understand their decision is the best for all since it involved many critical aspect.

Hopefully next year SCKLM will be held again without no issue such as haze again and hopefully I will be able to run in SCKLM next year, InShaAllah...

Although the event cancelled, gambar kenangan itu wajib hokey!! Sharing some of photo from race kit collection day & finisher medal collection day.

Pic taken during race kit collection

Pic with bib and finisher medal, wearing the running vest

Holding the finisher medal instead of wearing it

Peace and see you next year SCKLM!

Missing Him

Assalamualaikum.

Salam Eid Adha to all muslims. May this celebration bring happiness and barakath to all of us. Just want to warn you all to skip my page if you don't want to read soppy story because apparently this going to be one today.

9 years ago today, I lost my beloved father and part of myself that I always wish I am asleep for the whole September. I was born on September and I lost someone I love dearly on the same month. How ironic is that? Green Day's song "wake me up when September end" define my feeling well (*sighed).

People said the every wound will heal over time and yes, it will heal but it will leave a scar that will remind you a deep wound existed there before and you'll remember the pain you been thru. It will stop bleeding and the pain will subside slowly over time yet the memories will remain, forever stamped deep inside you mind and heart that will automatically replay with certain button.

Since 2006, 24th September will automatically remind me of what I lost on that day. It remind me of the pain I have thru since that day. It remind that he is no longer there at home waiting for me with his smile, he is no longer at the other side of the phone to listen to my whining and complaint of life, he is no longer there to back me up against those who hate me and importantly he is no longer there to advise and admonish me to stand up and fight back when I stumble and fall down in my life.

On this day I allowed myself to re-live the memories with him and then cry over it so that I will wake up the next day and days after with determination to make him proud of me.

Rest in peace bapa. I might be not as successful as others but I will try to become a better person, a good daughter, a good mother, a good wife and make you proud because I believe you are watching from above.

Family Day At Pengkalan Balak, Melaka

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Just want to share about family day (Mister family) that we attended last month before the draft become stale. Mister's sibling has been planning this family day/trip after the wedding of mister's brother on March. Although I am not part of their whatsapp group, my sis-in-law(SIL) always keep me on tabs on important news such as place selection, the date of execution and the theme for our family day. Pening ba saya ratus2 message come all in once bila on data/wifi. 

Our 1st choice was Desa Balqis Beach Resort but it was full on 29th and 30th August. So we opted for 2nd choice which is Pengkalan Balak and we choose to stay at Seraya Chalet. We all agreed to the blue theme and I am glad that my SIL heed my suggestion over using 'family day 2015' instead of 'family reunion 2015' on our blue-theme t-shirt. The T-shirt was cheap and I really like the material; soft and cool. It only costed RM68.80 for mister, me and kiddos T-shirt.

We drove from Puchong around 9.00am after having light breakfast of buns and milo and reached pengkalan Balak around 10.30am. Since the other family members just started their journey, we drove round and round looking for good stall/restaurant and choose this owned by an old man and have our lunch there. We ordered 6 plate of rice, 2 bowls of yummy asam pedas  ikan kembung (kuah is refillable), veges, fried chickens and 6 different beverage and it only costed us RM32. Super cheap and the food is delicious! Unfortunately I forgot the name of this stall (*sighed). 

The only pic I took at that time, LOL!

Around 2pm, the others arrived and we checked in to our room at Seraya Chalet. We booked 8 rooms in total at RM100/room which I considered cheap since it was peak season. We didn't start any games until 5.30pm because we were waiting for mister's eldest sister from Johor to arrive. Moreover it was scorching hot and  bit hazy that noon, jadi kami lepak-lepak, borak-borak sambil makan (lagi) makanan yang MIL masak dari rumah.

We are lucky because the beach was less crowded that we have the space to do all of those games created by SIL a.k.a the organizer. It was fun and hilarious games where we were divided into 4 group (adult+kids mixed). The guys cheated most of time (LOL) that the ultimate judge (MIL) find it hard to determine who is the winner. In the end, group who showed good cooperation won. Not much pic taken (by me) during games because I was busy having fun, hehehe!

Pics while doing games at the beach

Beside the games, I took the opportunity to do the banana boat rides with my sis-in-law and bro-in-law. The fee is cheap; RM10/pax with min 6pax per ride (approximately 15min). I was laughing hard for the whole ride because of my SIL keep screaming and 'swearing' every time we shouted 'fly' and 'terbalik' to the boat operator, hahahaha! Elan and Daniel also want to ride but mister didn't allow them to do so despite of green light from me. Hurmmm, kesian, nanti kamu besar sikit la baru main kio anak2.

Banana Boat ride

Incomplete 'us' - 2 is missing in action (sibuk mandi laut)

Mister's family

That night after Solat Maghrib and Isyak, we went for dinner hunting but end up with restaurant with terrible service and expensive with so-so foods, grrrrrr! We waited for almost 20min before the waitress took our order and have to wait for almost an hour before getting our food! Their excuses; short of staff. Duh, kasi tau awal-awal la ba kan. Lost appetite terus tu malam, grrrr!

Forced smile - Warning; Don't dine out at this restaurant!

After those horrible dinner, we continued with our family bonding time; random quizzes for kids, gift exchange for adults and lastly souvenirs/hampers for all of us. We keep chit-chatting after that and the others still chatting when I went to bed at 1am. Banyak betul gosip dorang, tidak terlayan saya mo dengar, kihkihkih!

Enjoying the night

The kids being asked random question about the family

Woke up early the next morning and have breakfast at nearby stall while kids went to play at the beach again. 3 bungkus nasi lemak kena bedal sebab terlampau lapar. By the time we checked out from Seraya Chalet, the haze was pretty bad so my family went back to Puchong while the others follow my MIL to her friend's kenduri. 

Overall, this family day was so fun and I think they will make this annual activity from now and hopefully will able to join it again (*finger crossed).

Family pic before bound back to Puchong + compulsory 'mikirayou' pose ;P

I heart this pic (^^) V

Oh well, hopefully this long post won't bore you all to death. Glad that finally I am able to publish this before my laziness strike. Until next post, peace!

PJ HALF MARATHON 2015 (21KM Finisher)

PJ Half Marathon 2014 was my 1st HM and I participate this event once again this year because I want to improve last year finishing time. PJ Half Marathon 2015 was held on 7th September at Laman MBPJ, Petaling Jaya. It was my 5th HM (*wink2). 

We was late because some road being closed due to the event that caused us to take a quite a long detour to reach the event venue. Mister dropped me by the roadside nearby the starting point and I had to rush to find toilet because 21KM will be gun off in 20min.  I was just entering the toilet when they gun off 21KM runners at 5am and managed to sprint to the starting point 2-3 minutes later and joined the last crowd. 

The route was totally different and more challenging than last year. I enjoyed the run but those impatience cars, motorcycles and buses that keep honking at us at some congest point really a killjoy. I feel so thankful towards volunteers and police traffic who controlling the traffic for us because if they weren't there, (palis-palis) memang yang tidak penyabar langgar suda tu runners semua.

I was running with slow pace at average 12min per miles and made it to the finish line after 154min; better time than my finish time during PJ Half Marathon 2014. Am I happy? Of course! For an amateur runner like me who always lack of training, finishing a HM below 3 hours, I considered myself doing a good job(^^)V...Ba, jangan kamu muntah, ayat kasi sedap hati seja ba tu, ngehehe!

Okay, regarding the event itself; I think overall it was better than last year. The route is challenging and enjoyable (minus the barking dog when passing along the residential area and those impatience cars/buses/motorcycles), punctual and suitable starting point (at least for me), good traffic control and nice running t-shirt & finisher t-shirt for 21KM.

However there were also several flaw that the organizer should take note and overcome if they want to convince runners to join this event again next year. Firstly, they should increase the number of volunteer/support team at the water stations. Pity us because some of us especially those who run with large crowd, have to serve our own water that add 2-3min to our time. 

Secondly, they should be more considerate about providing wider running line for hundreds runner for I saw some runners almost got hit by car/motorcycle for accidentally ousted from the narrow line by other runners. 

They also should provided e-cert with ranking and finish time for 21KM and 10KM instead of paper cert that we have to fill up the details by ourselves and they should give finisher medal and light breakfast to all category since the fee was quite expensive. Blank paper certificate is so out-dated! Running event nowadays is getting expensive year by year (*sighed).

The certificate

Beside that, the organizer should design attractive medal instead of a simple plain one because this year medal is no difference than last year except for the size. Pardon me if I am rude but the medal is so boring, hehehe! Lastly but not the least, please add up the number of toilet at the starting/finish point because I had to queue up for almost 20min and missed the gun off by 2min, grrrr!

Okay, I am finish with the review of this event and sharing here few pic of me from the event:-

The medal, me at the finish line & me wearing the finisher t-shirt

Screenshot of the result

The only pic of me by freelance photographer, Maui. Can you spot me? :P

My 33th Birthday

Alhamdulillah, 33 years and Allah still give me the chance to breath, to witness His magnificent creation and importantly to give me the chance to become a better person. In my 33 years, I been thru lots of good, bad, sweet, sour, bitter and spicy experiences and undergo numerous kind of emotional changes that shaped who I am today and for that I am truly grateful.

Special present? Nope, I don't get any but kisses and birthday wishes from my kids and my mister is special enough for me. We are together, reunite and stronger hence the hurricane upon us is a blessing for me and I  couldn't ask for more. 

Special wish? Hurmmmmmm, (for myself) instead of wishing, I am praying for my little family well-being here and hereafter (Amin)! 

Errrrr, I also wish I will look young and slim forever like Amy Mastura, hahahaha! Just kidding okay! (^^)V

Rambled too much already and it's time to say Peace, No War!

Me few days before my 33th birthday

My sumandak 8th Birthday

Memories of giving birth of her 8 years ago today still fresh in my mind. She came to the world without fuss, the easiest labor among 4 of my pregnancy. Initially want to name her Elysha Qistina but in the end change the name to Elysha Shaqina to honor her grandma (my MIL) request.

Being the only daughter and grandaughter (mister's side) she always playing by herself in her kingdom of fantasy. Sometime when she is bore, she will mix and getting tough with her male cousins, LOL! Hopefully she will have girl companion soon..

She is my dear shy and soft princess. Despite her flaw and menace, I love her to the moon and back. It's such a joyful journey to watch her grow up and develop yet I am scared for her at the same time. People nowadays are unpredictable that I couldn't say NO to those negative thinking creeping to my mind. A neighbor, a friend, a relative and even a family can harm our children especially a girl nowadays. How scaryt is that... May she will be always in Allah protection, Amin!

Happy birthday Shasa! Mama will always be with you and mama will always pray for your happiness, safety and success here and hereafter.

RUN WITH US 2015 (12KM FINISHER)

After hibernating from running for almost 2 months, I joined Run With Us 2015 (which I registered 2 months earlier) organised by 21st Century Sport on 16th August, held at Dataran Putrajaya and gun off at 6.45am and 7pm for 12km & 5km respectively.

I have no target for this run except for crossing the finish line without any injuries because I have zero preparation/training during the hibernating period. As expected, I was struggling along the route to find my pace, pheww! Every now and then I will stop and walk because bernafas pun macam angry dragon suda plus berat betul tu kaki mo lari macam ada batu attached, ahahaha! Syukur Alhamdulillah, succeed at crossing the finish line without any injuries and got another addition to my running medal collection. 

Regarding the event, I think the fee I paid for worth the whole experiences. I give 2 thumbs up to the organizer for the smooth and successful event. They provided good number of water station and medical/aid volunteer, accurate distance marker, good quality of running shirt and finisher medal and also nice snack/breakfast pack. Will join this event again in future and will also recommended this event to my friend. 

Sharing pics from the event day:-

Pre-run pic; Sleepy & lazy smile

Post-run pic & Medal closed-up

The crowd of finisher

mikirayou pic, tehehe!

Pic from other source, credited to photopix

Screenshot of the cert for my record :P

P/S:- Congrats to runners who upgraded to marathoners! Hopefully I will have the courage and gut to upgrade in future, In Sha Allah...