Today My Life Begin

Hi everyone!

I don't know what to write about because I was so deep in thought with my recent situation. Yeah, this blog of mine seem abandoned but nope, I am not losing my blogging passion yet. It's just that at the moment I can't share anything about my life when it's full with uncertainty but I am going to be active in blogging again (*smile).

Not many know what is going on because I choose to settle it without third parties interference because I know what will happened when people start to involve with this matter. I realized that lots of people will accusing me of being selfish as they always did before but I don't mind anymore. I just want to get my life back to its track and become myself without faking or pretending to be happy anymore.

I cannot reveal too much about this matter but I feel calmer and content now. It's not easy for me to choose this option but I don't want to live with the question 'what if' forever. I want to take control of my life and my future. I want my kids to see the real me and teach  them to stand for what they believe. I don't want them to do what I been doing when I younger and foolish, following what other people told me to do and losing myself and my voice and in the end I don't even know who I am and become so self-conscious.

Imagine a girl who was pampered and grew up with love and tenderness by her parent and siblings, who never know the words 'violence', who stupidly threw herself into trouble and experienced all the heartaches, pain and misery that nobody will ever understand except her. She couldn't adapt to her new environment. She became the laughing stock of her new family because of her language, attitude and behavior. She was shocked by her new family attitude and behavior, not that her family was that good but the difference is too obvious. For years she tried to adapt but she couldn't and she long for her hometown  every single minute. Time passed by, the girl became woman, she became stronger and wiser with each ordeal but at the same time she was also became the weakling that have no voice and vision. She knew that her life is not okay that she is not happy but she keep her head ups for the sake of her children and people around her. She was too afraid to hurt them even though deep inside she is miserable. Then one day, she woke up and realize that she have right to be happy, to change her life pathway and be herself.. The end! :p

All of you must be puzzled what's above rambling of this girl about right? Actually I just explained a little bit about my life and nope, I am not trying to gain anybody sympathy. The story above related to why I am taking the crucial decision I have ever made in my life. As I told before, I don't know where this might lead me and I don't what will happen in future but I m hoping and praying that God will guide and lead me. It's sadden me but at the same time I feel such a relief, like half of the burden on my shoulder being lift off..

What the.. this suppose to be a happy post, to tell my blogger friends that my new life start from today...Oppsss! since yesterday actually (*LOL). I am really sorry because I am talking in riddles again but with times all you might know what is it about. Anyway, I hope everyone have a good and  happy life!

Good night & Happy Weekend!

Kiddos & Me doing crazy pose at I-City.

Langkawi Trip Mission : Finale

As promised, I am gonna post the last part of Langkawi Trip.. Less words, more pictures, hopefully (*winking)..

The journey continued where I went to swim at the Tanjung Rhu Beach because less people there and really have a great time there. 

The sunny Tanjung Rhu Beach

Loves The sky!

Awkward SelCa..LOL

After that went to Kuah Town again and explore the Lang Square, Legend Park and  Jetty Point & the duty free shop again.

Mercu Tanda Langkawi

Peace! Snapped this pic from Jetty Point

Another awkward SelCa :P

More Awkward Selca

Taking this pic after swimming at Cenang Beach

Last sunset at Cenang

Also spent lots of time shop-hopping, searching & comparing price before buying souvenirs (T-shirts, perfume and chocolates) and walking at the beach at night time and listen to the sea breeze. On the last day at Langkawi, managed to trek all the way up to the Telaga Tujuh. I love jungle-trekking so much! Overall it was a very memorable trip I have ever had! I cherished every single minutes I spent here. 

Next post, I am going to share about the place I stayed during my trip to Langkawi. Not sure when but stay tuned... Have a nice day you all!

P/S : Want to upload more pics but lots picture I snapped using the digital camera turned blurry and I don't have idea why :((

Langkawi Trip Mission : Part 2

Took me a while before I can update again hey :) It's just that I m bit busy  and occupied with other matter (*sigh). Let's continued from the last cliff-hanger of my trip to Langkawi last February...

On the 3rd day, managed to explore the west area of Langkawi; hiked up to Telaga Tujuh, walking around the Oriental Village while waiting for our turn to ride the famous Langkawi Cable Car Telaga. Can you believe that we have to wait for 2 hours before our turn (maybe because it was peak season huh? ) then queue up for approximately another 45min before we finally had our ride but the wait worth it because of the magnificent view from up there (*smile). I remembered how I grabbed the lady's thigh beside me when the cable car suddenly stopped and for quite sometime!! I bet I might looked as white as chalk (*LOL). Luckily it moved again after 5-10min hanging there..phewww! A bit disappointed because the Skybridge was closed for maintenance. I was out of luck..I know (*sigh again).  Later in the evening, managed to catch the sunset view at Telaga Harbor Park & Kok Beach. At night, went to Kuah Town and did shop-hopping at the duty free shop there. 

Malu2 posing :P

The waterfall really nice

The Seven Well - There were 7 small well-looked alike

Boleh tahan la this place

The pass to ride the cable car & the cable car

Muka excited, before the cable stopped - poor lady on my left, became the victim of my hands (LOL)

Under Maintenance again..

Okay, mikirayou for a while because an handsome guy help snapped the pic for me :P

The Harbor, before and after sunset..

That's all for now.. Don't want to promise when can post the next part, the finale one but will try to finish selecting and editing the pics then upload it the soonest possible (*finger crossed). 

Good Night everyone!

Langkawi Trip Mission : Part 1

Hi everyone!

Sorry for the late update about this so-called solo trip of mine.. I know you all are so keen to hear about it right? (*silakan muntah...LOL).

I guess all of you already know where was my destination right? Yep, Langkawi! I choose this Island because I never been there and always wanted to go there but never got the chance.

I departed from LCCT at 1930hrs and reached Langkawi around 2010hrs and have to wait until 9.30pm for  my host - Kak Zue (hotel/room owner) to fetch me at the airport only to inform me that there was some mistake and I have to stay at her friend homestay for 1 night! Ok, I was shocked but at the same time grateful because she solved the problem and more thankful because I have a place to stay that night.. Cobaan on my 1st night in stranger place (*sigh)...

Free Map given by the car rental agency booth at the airport. It became my best friend during this trip :)

The next day, my original plan to go to Gunung Raya cancelled because I have to check out from Kak Zue's friend homestay and check in to my room at her place. So, I went to have a look at Pantai Cenang 1st and as what I read from reviews / blogs, this area was super-packed! The beach was fully occupied by foreigner who trying to get sun-tanned and also the locals. So was the hotel in this area!  All was fully booked until 15th Feb! There were not much I did on that 1st day but window shopping at the Cenang Area and later went to Kota Mahsuri and  the Monday Night Market to buy dinner..

This is the only area that less crowded at Pantai Cenang

Monday Night Market

I look fat in this pic..I loike..Oh My English! :P

Next day, drove to Gunung Raya with intention to do some hiking or trekking but this plan also aborted because of the warning from local people about snake that going down the mountain during dry season plus the car was running out of fuel..HMPPPFFF! kecewa lagi! However,  managed to cover area such as Black Sand Beach, Telaga Air Hangat, Durian Perangin Waterfall and Wildlife Park on that day. So terubat juga la kekecewaan di hati :P 

View from midway of Gunung Raya

I snapped this cute hungry monkey on the way back to the main road (at least)

Posing on the black sand :D

Hahaha.. Childish hey!

Posing dulu before doing the easy trekking to the waterfall

Pics of the waterfall

At the wildlife Park.. Hmmm, the park was as boring as the worker expression ..LOL!

Soaking my feet in the lukewarm water.. Not really as lukewarm as Poring tho :P

It's past 10pm now, so that's all for now.. To be continue in part 2!.. Hopefully will post it by tomorrow night? (*wink2)..

Oh ya, before you all started kutuk2 my 'fugly' pics, please be inform that I am no professional photographer and all pics took by my phone camera and also borrowed Olympus digital camera ok.. Wait till I have usin will buy those expensive DSLR  (*wink2).

Good night everyone!

Langkawi Trip Mission : Teaser

Hey all!! I m back!! How's your CNY holiday and celebration?? Mine? Superb because I managed to tick off one of my must do list/resolution (*wink2).

Ok, can't write much at the moment because I am busy catching up with works and the kids at home but here is a pic snapped during my recent solo trip as a teaser so that all of you can stop guessing where is the destination of my solo trip (*smile)! Happy Wednesday everyone!

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Mission In Progress!

Hey you all! Miss me??

Been super busy at office these few weeks and actually still busy till Chinese New year holiday. Well, I have an hour before going back home, so I am taking this opportunity to 'mengular' and sharing few things with you all.

Remember when I said I am going to travel alone soon in my past entry? Yep, I have planned everything and hopefully those 'everything' will goes smoothly. The hardest part was getting 'green light' from the husband. I been planning all of this project of mine since December last year and only 2 weeks ago did I got his approval though he is still a bit reluctant to let me proceed with this whole 'lone ranger' mission of mine (*roll eyes). Thank you so much  for letting me doing this and take care of the children! I'll buy you nice souvenirs okay (*wink2)!

Just when I thought I have everything in hand, I got an email from the site where I booked my hostel/hotel, informing me about refunding me because the hotel/hostels I booked were full, that there was a technical mistake / miscommunication between them and the hostel/hotel management. Honestly, I was panicked but thank God that I managed to find another place to stay and this time I booked it directly from the owner.

Initially, I was planning to go by bus/train, but yesterday I changed my plan and decided to go there by flight instead. I know it means extra budget but at least it save the traveling time.. *Ayat bikin sadap hati seja tu.

I have done my 'homework' to google up all the place I must go, things I must do and souvenirs I should buy and make a list of it. I also been reading tips about traveling alone from online forum/discussion and takes note about it especially tips concerned about safety matter. My hubby said, "semangat giler die!".. LOL!

Gosh, Times up! Have to go back now to fetch my kids from their daycare center. I'll try to post about my preparation for this mission of mine again soon.. And Nope, I won't spill out my destination until mission accomplished! To those who knew (Attn: Just), psstt, diam2 dulu ah!

To those live in Putrajaya, Labuan & Kuala Lumpur, Happy Holiday!

Note: Below Pic have nothing to do with the entry.. Seja2 mikirayou! HAHAHA!

Pic at genting last Sunday :P

Contribution Needed For Orphanage

It will only takes a minute to be kind but the result will last forever.

Hi everyone! Today entry is about my personal petition for sincere contribution from anyone who might reading this entry. I am joining a charity event conducted by Nadia this coming February and here in this special entry I would like to humbly ask for your kindness to help us raising a fund to be contribute to Rumah Amal Kasih Bestari which is located at Kg Baru Subang.

All of you can read the detail about this Orphanage  here and how to channel your contribution here. You also can read the update about the contribution in Nadia blog (*this is not a scam!). 

Image copied from the Nadia's Blog

Any contribution, little or big amount are highly appreciated. Rather than giving RM1 to the beggar that we don't even know weather they really are people in need or part of those beggar syndicate, why not contribute it to this Orphanage that we know exist and really need our help.

We might not wealthy but I believe all of us have a big heart and sincerity to help this orphanage, to ease down the management burden and to make that happen we are appealing for your contribution to help them. We also grateful if you can help us to spread this message to people out there. May God bless you all for your kindness and compassion..

Now Or Never

Pic of the recent book I am reading (edited)

As people busy planning their upcoming CNY holiday, I am busy with my own planning to tick off one of my wish list this year as well... Since I am too chicken to travel as lone ranger to oversea, I decided to do it locally and it going to happen soon (*winking)!

I am always craved for challenge and activities that will give me a rush of adrenaline and my coming soon lone ranger trip gonna involved activities such as trekking, hiking and if there is any available; bungee jumping! Yay!

I m not going to reveal where I am going because everything is still in planning and I am still asking people around and searching here and there about the place I m going to, things to do there, hotel/motel/backpacker hostel I can stay and also how to move around there.

Some people might think I am selfish or crazy but I just want to make my dreams come true when I am healthy and have energy to do it. Being married with 4 kids doesn't mean I can't live my life to the fullest and make my own dream come true right? Before this I was too concerned about certain parties happiness that I forgot about my own dreams and happiness.. My kids are exceptional tho.. I also got a bad critic from my in law side but this time I just ignore their negative thinking because I know I am not anything wrong and I am doing all of this making my dreams come true project at my own expenses.. I don't want to live in regret when I know I can achieve one or two of my childhood dreams but never try or fight to make it real.. Semangat tomod tih (*LOL)!

That's all I wanna say for now. Tomorrow I am going to write a donation petition for this charity event I am going to join next month and hopefully will get some support/donation  from my fellow follower and also from those who stop by my blog. So, stay tuned for tomorrow entry ya!

Happy Friday & Happy Weekend in advance everyone!

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Wordless Wednesday #29

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Turning Point & Resolutions

It's 1st day and night of year 2013 already and tomorrow school session will start and my routine of waking up early in the morning to prepare the kids to school and daycare center will starting over again. No more waking up at 7.30am except weekends..LOL! Thank God, despite of few problem, kids school preparation went smoothly..

I have few resolution and goals that I set up for year 2013 but I am not going to reveal it because you know me...LOL.. But I really hope that I can achieve one or two of it by the end of the year (*finger crossed).

Image credited to google.com

People said, at some point, when you have enough of those suffering life you been through because of others, you will find the strength to raise above and stand up for yourself. At this point, you won't care about what people think about you because for such a long time you been holding up yourself for their benefit, sacrificing your own feeling and happiness.

I believe everyone have or will undergo a turning point in their life and that also include me.. I am not sure where this turning point will lead me but I know that I have to do it sooner if I want to live happily without regret.. I am still in early stage of my new direction and lots of people may look down at me or worst may labelled me as selfish and stupid but someone had told me that nobody can judge us unless they have live and walked our journey. People may said that it's too late for me but I have faith that nothing is too late and it's better now or never.

Somebody talking riddles here huh(*rolled eyes)! Actually, what I am trying to say here is I am going to fulfill some of my dream i.e traveling to other country (*finger crossed). Most people trying to fulfilling their dream before get married and have kids whilst me doing it afterward..weird huh? Actually, I was too busy to enlarge my 'rakyat' before this beside that fact that I was financially can't afford to do it before. Well, still in tight budget but traveling once or twice a year won't do me harm, hopefully.. After working hard, we deserve to pamper/reward ourselves right?

Year 2013 will be more challenging for me because some aspect of my life will be change in near future. I pray that everything will be fine and I can keep my head up without regret or bitterness (*smile).

Well, may all of us have a happy and joyous life ahead in year 2013..Until next entry, good night everyone!