My Way to Tackle Depression!

Do you know what is emotional/nerve breakdown ? Some people said that it's a state where we lost our sanity and act without logic consideration. Some even defined it as a state of madness. To me it's the most logical definition is temporary collapsed or disintegration of personality that involved an inability to function, depression, lost of contact with reality, manic episodes, anxiety & panic attack that resulted from unpleasant emotional explosion.People who like to hide their unpleasant emotion and experiences are most likely to face emotional breakdown because they unable to channel or voice out their negative thinking / emotion right away.

I am one of those who rather suffer in silence that voicing  out my complaint or protest especially when it's involved my family, relatives or close friends. Here in KL, among my husband family & relatives, I always encounter a situation where I have to listen to people bragging about their wealth, their achievement and even their lies and deceit but have to keep my mouth shut to prevent any confrontation though I am totally hurt by the situation. It's really frustrating you know to hear them boasting up themselves and looking down at me just because I am just an average woman with average wages. It even hurt to know that people talked bad about you behind your back like a double standard! It's really depressing to live among materialistic people who measure your worth with the sign $$$.

I am grateful because so far I still can prevent myself from facing emotional breakdown and guess how I did it? Can you guess it?? Hahaha, big thanks to my dear friend, my beloved diary book for being the shoulder for me to laid on my emotional burden.. Whenever I am hurt, upset or mad, my diary will always there to listen to my complaint.. My diary is my secret keeper..

I just love writing down my feeling in my diary.. Pssstttt, guess what i write in it?? Hohoho, I won't tell because it's secret!                                                       

I loves Blogging!

I am blogger since 2003 but back then I am blogging using wordpress.com & I opted it to be private, meaning it's solely for me only. By mean, I did personal / private blogging where as my post was not for sharing..

source: Google

Actually it's more like my medium to pour out all of my anger, my sadness, my pain & even my complain to somebody or to everybody..Hmm, it's full with cursing & blasphemy too.. But, when I read it back before I decided to terminate a.k.a deleted it for good before I started this blog, I found out that it's not really that bad yet it reflected how immature I was. It's quite funny but I still have to terminate it because too personal & lots of peoples' name mentioned in it. 

Let see the difference between my habits / styles in blogging now & then..

My blogging habit back then :-

1. Back then, I don't even bother to customize my blog because nobody gonna  able to read it.. I called it as my "black-book" because of the dark black background with only the text in white.. Imagine that, scary huh..
2. Back Then, I was blogging for fun to fill up my 'leisure' time. Never ever crossed in my mind that I can earn money from it.. Pathetic isn't it.. 
3. No pics / illustration / graphic / anything but TEXT in my post.. Hahaha, can you imagine what kind of blogger I was?
4. I don't give a damn whether my post can attract reader or not
5. I don't follow anybody

My blogging Habit present time :-

1. I customizes my blog template - My blog will be always undergo template changing
2. I join lots of site that enable me to earn money online via blogging.. My favorites is to write a review / post about something ( product / services / events ) since I can practice my writing skill..
3. I uses lots of pics / graphics / illustration etc to enhance my post attraction
4. I learn about SEO to drive traffic to my blog
5. I followed people that share good info / tips / etc

I am happy because I change my blogging habits into something much more meaningful.. With new habits I connected to lots of friend with interesting passion and talent. It's really fun & refreshing to read about their life and opinion and even inspired me to be a better person.. Sharing is definitely a way of showing that we care about people around us.

So, lets keep blogging, lets keep sharing... Blogging Rock!

We're quite happy to cut it into many small useful pieces

I am Happy For You...

My Big Bro, Bitot & My son

Last night while my hubby was using my PC, my niece Opok buzzed me to chat via FB..  I was ready to have an early night but then have to cancelled it because I  want to know what she want to chat with me about..

Guess what she told me about??!! My big brother will engage with his girlfriend after he sign his divorce paper on this coming 28th March! I am shocked and speechless because I am so damn happy for him! It's about time for him to start a new life, a  new beginning after his unfaithful wife ( soon to be ex-wife ) dumped him for another man.My brother is a good man, a loyal one and my soon to be ex-sis-in-law doesn't deserve him at all.. He might have a temper but he never raised a hand to anyone even me his stubborn sister!

Actually I envied my brother courage to start a new family after failed with his 1st marriage.. If it happen to me ( touch wood ), I will definitely have a emotional wreck-down that will require forever to trust in marriage again.

What worried me the most is the age gap between them & they just get to know each other a month ago..He's 38th years old and his girlfriend only 21 years old.. I know what you thinking, BUT, love is blind right? I don't want to think negatively because to me the important thing is my brother happiness. If he is happy then I am happy for him too..I prays for him to find his happiness after all the ordeal he been put through with his 1st marriage.


Everyone deserve happiness in life.. Ordeal and turbulence may come all along but in the end happiness will come to those who search for it with pure intention..

For those who give up after failed in life or in anything, try to find in your heart the will to get up and try once again because every cloud has a silver lining.. Who know you might achieve more and you will never know unless you try..

Lack of sleep!s

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I really want to update my blog & post new entry everyday but seem for the past 3 days I am unable to do so because of my poor state of health..

I wanna to post about my stay at Duta Vista Suite with my mom-in-law family & mine but since now I haven't edit any of the  photos and I am kinda of blur every time I wanna wrote something about it.. You know, it like I don't know where to begin or what to begin with..

Actually for the past 3 day since my sponsored post published, I spend most of my time reading  online book and since I am book maniac, I stayed up until 2 to 3 am in the morning just to make sure I finished reading and now the consequence is disastrous! My blood pressure increased due to my lack of sleep and rest!

My hubby admonished me to do something about my obsession with book many times before but I couldn't just leave behind this "passion" in me.. I loves reading too much..(*sigh)

My hubby warned me not to engross too much with online book reading.. He said he will unsubscribe from Unifi if I ignore my health again.. I guess I really need to watch out this habit of mine.. (* sigh & Yawning )

Dive Into The Season's Sexiest Swimwear!

This is a Sponsored post written by me on behalf of Express for SocialSpark. All opinions are 100% mine.

Hello again my fellow readers and followers!

Today I want to share about this awesome new collection of Spring Season's swimwear from Express. Express has launched its new line of spring swimwear which consisted of 37 pieces of sexy and gorgeous design at an affordable price. I took my times to look at the collection one by one because the design really captivated my attention due to its simple yet sexy design. The available color also matched with the spring theme where bright color such as yellow, red, pink, purple, blue,orange, white and even black will definitely look smashing!

women's swimwear

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My favorites piece is the Denim String Triangle Bikini Top! I just love the design especially the bottom because it was designed to look just like a casual shorts/ sweat pants and to me it's really worth my money to own something casual, simple yet sexy swimwear in my possession. I can even Imagined myself wearing it ( with a cute baby-T ), walking hand to hand with my beloved husband at the beach. Yay, what a view! So romantic!

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Bedtime Story : past, present & future

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Hello readers!

Do you still remember all of those bedtime stories your mother told you when you were just a little kid? Well, I definitely still remember some local bedtime story or tangon that my mother used to tell me whenever I faced difficulties to sleep in Dusun language. Most of it was about a ordeal and experienced of  character named as anak-anak. My mother was not as educated as my father so she was unable to read all of those fairy tales books to me but I still loves to hear the her story. That was bedtime story during my years and I grown up listening to those local story before I was introduced to the fairy tales.

Me too read a bedtime stories to my kids sometimes but ashamedly I have to admit that I didn't told them the story I heard from my mother not because I don't want to but because I don't know how to tell it or more accurately I don't know how to translate it into English or Malay correctly.. I tried once but quit after my kids laugh on me over mistakenly used a wrong words.. Kids nowadays are smarter and their thousand question right after I finished reading those bedtime story sometimes choked me..(*sigh)

I wonder what kind of bedtime story will my kid read to their kid in future? Will local story and fairy tales still interest our future generation? No matter what, I hope our future generation will preserve the tradition of reading bedtime story because to me it is one of the effective way to get close to our children. It created a certain kind of biding time with our kids that might be lack in our hectic-pace future generation where time seem not quite enough to grasp their ambitious vision.

Boomerang Reward From TNT

Ayayayai.. I received my Boomerang Reward From TNT last week!!!

I submitted my Redemption on 10/02/2011 to TNT express Worldwide (m) Sdn Bhd  & expected to received the items by the end of this month. So I am so damn surprised when TNT delivery guy handed me over my redemption reward last week..

source: tntboomerang

 It's not an expensive stuff but it's FREE STUFF! My company has been used TNT services for quite sometime and though the fare is bit expensive yet my boss trusted this logistic services. Boomerang is one of TNT's testing program to see whether their customer would approved this kind of give back for their loyalty on using TNT services. Well, to me it's a good program though to get the best reward of all, customer have to accumulate a sum of point yet the minor reward also satisfying.

The Rewards From TNT

 If TNT wanna prolong this program, I am damn sure that I can persuade my boss to let me participate our company again! My favorite reward is the 3 in 1 KFC voucher! ( psssttt..my boss let me have all the reward! ^_^ V ) My family especially my kiddos & me will gonna have a feast  at KFC or Pizza's house! (*wink )

Note:-

• The Voucher total sum are RM100 & I spent it on buying KFC & Pizza
• The TNT's Teddy bear given to my princess but my youngest son "rampas" & make it as his bolster bear!
• I just love the  TNT Foldable Bag! The decoration suited me well and even my kiddos nanny said it is pretty nice bag! So, I gave 1 unit to her..

When Ignorant people "talk"...

Last Sunday, our local newspaper,Berita Harian  published a insensitive caricature about Tsunami disaster over Japan that received million of negative feed back from peoples around the world. Lots of people questioned on how come such insensitive caricature can even published / released by the editor of those newspaper? This is what happened when we are ignorant of people feeling and situation.

source: Tempo Interaktif

Maybe the author just wanna make fun but to me it's totally wrong and unacceptable! we cannot turn other peoples grief and misery into laughing stokes! It is an heartless act for doing so especially from us Malaysian people who well known as one of the country rich with moral value & hospitality..

Though Berita Harian already asked for forgiveness over their carelessness but believe me when I say that world will always labeled us as insensitive country just because of this mistake..*sigh*

When this insensitive caricature issue is still hot on the track, our First Lady, Datuk Rosmah Mansur shocked us with her clueless & idiotic statement over the recent disaster hit Japan! Watch the video below:~

Ini.. pada diri saya, adalah satu pengajaran kpd negara2 lain utk apa2 pun mereka nak buat ataupun sebarang pembangunan yang mereka ingin lakukan, seharusnya mengkaji dulu keadaan sekeliling & mengaitkan dgn 'Green Technology'.. err.. err... termasuk juga negara kita." - Rosmah Mansor.

I am totally speechless when I watched this video.. Gosh, how ignorant people can be kan.. She is really & truly clueless over what she was saying. In her statement, she was implied that the earthquake & tsunami that hit Japan were consequences of their lack of concerns toward the environment...

Doesn't she know the meaning of NATURAL DISASTER ? 

It's commonly know that Japan is located on Pacific Ring Of Fire, that's why it has constantly experienced earthquake in the past and will face the similar condition in future. It's not because of their own doing that causes the earthquake and tsunami but the natural cause that we called natural hazard. The fact is, Japan is one of the most advance in green-tech among countries all over the world and even if they do not practicing enough environment friendly technology, I still think that we Malaysian is not in position to criticize them.

Her statement show that she is in the state of ignorance & possesses a very poor of knowledge in geographical aspect. Maybe she want to give a statement that sound brilliant but in the end she just screwed it up with her ignorant & idiotic statement! Bak kata pepatah Melayu, " terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata, badan binasa " 

So think wisely before making any statement. Don't play the brainy act if you clueless over something.. People will understand if you just admitted that you don't have a idea then playing the cool act just to cover your lack of knowledge..

Hopefully world won't judge all Malaysian people over this two careless or clueless people mistake! 

Note:-

• I can't wait to know our PM respond over this issue... Will he back up his beloved wife? 
• I am not judging our FL, but only wanna give my say from my POV..
• The 2nd last Paragraph is pointed to me actually..hihihihi

Life : Through My Window ( Poem )

Wanna share this nice piece of poem  by C Cattaway . The meaning is deep & significant with my Blog Title.

Through my window, I can see
A world that isn't pleasing me,
For on the street, I see a box,
And inside, feet which wear no socks.
I needn't know, for I can guess
Just what is there atop those legs,
A little boy without a home.
A poor, small child, helpless and alone.
Through the window there, I saw
A man who turned to alcohol,
And still, each day, he fills his cup
'Coz that's all that keeps his spirits up.
People think it's his own fault,
"He would change, if a job he saught",
But they don't know why he's that way.
He's skilled enough, but still turned away.
Through the window, I can see
A world I viewed so differently.
I'm lucky enough to live inside,
And it's easy enough for me to hide.
What have they done to be that way?
Did they run out of luck, one day?
With a different start, would they be the same?
Or, would all my worry be in vain?
I've taken for granted the sea and the sky,
For I thought my window didn't lie.
But now, I see that I was wrong.
Outside my window, life goes on.

© C. Cattaway 1992

Submission date : 2006-04-13
Last edit : 2006-08-02

ENJOY READING OKAY!

New Tv Set !

Jeng.. Jeng.. Jeng... 

My hubby bought a new set of LCD color television  today.. ( mo mikirayou sikit.. hehehe )

Actually our 6 years old set of television sudah start meragam, that's why my hubby decided to buy a new one & he said alang2 mo beli baru, beli ja la yang ok sikit.. Thank you hubby! ( lama sudah jealous dgn friends & family who own LCD/PLASMA/LED television )

 This is the my snapped pic of my new TV set :~

Sharp _ Aquos 32'

However we still want to repair the old one because it was our 1st television that we owned & it's kind of reminder to us on how hard we been strive to be what we are now.. Yeah, I am proud with my hubby & myself for being able to faced all the obstacle in the past & here we are more comfortable than before.. ( sedih bila teringat masa susah dulu2 )

I feel happy because we can buy stuff with our own earned money without borrowing from other & humiliated. I am happy because my children can eat good & nutritious food! I am happy because no longer people look down at us.. Hardship have toughen me & make me a better person..

Some people said keep your head up & never look back but to me, I will definitely keep my head up & at the same times will looked back to the past from time to time to learn from it in order not to repeat the same mistake..

huishh.. I am into blues all of sudden, hahahaha.. Well, wanna stop here & enjoy my 1st time watching DVD with our new LCD television.. See ya later & Peace No war..