My Way to Tackle Depression!

Do you know what is emotional/nerve breakdown ? Some people said that it's a state where we lost our sanity and act without logic consideration. Some even defined it as a state of madness. To me it's the most logical definition is temporary collapsed or disintegration of personality that involved an inability to function, depression, lost of contact with reality, manic episodes, anxiety & panic attack that resulted from unpleasant emotional explosion.People who like to hide their unpleasant emotion and experiences are most likely to face emotional breakdown because they unable to channel or voice out their negative thinking / emotion right away.

I am one of those who rather suffer in silence that voicing  out my complaint or protest especially when it's involved my family, relatives or close friends. Here in KL, among my husband family & relatives, I always encounter a situation where I have to listen to people bragging about their wealth, their achievement and even their lies and deceit but have to keep my mouth shut to prevent any confrontation though I am totally hurt by the situation. It's really frustrating you know to hear them boasting up themselves and looking down at me just because I am just an average woman with average wages. It even hurt to know that people talked bad about you behind your back like a double standard! It's really depressing to live among materialistic people who measure your worth with the sign $$$.

I am grateful because so far I still can prevent myself from facing emotional breakdown and guess how I did it? Can you guess it?? Hahaha, big thanks to my dear friend, my beloved diary book for being the shoulder for me to laid on my emotional burden.. Whenever I am hurt, upset or mad, my diary will always there to listen to my complaint.. My diary is my secret keeper..

I just love writing down my feeling in my diary.. Pssstttt, guess what i write in it?? Hohoho, I won't tell because it's secret!                                                       

I loves Blogging!

I am blogger since 2003 but back then I am blogging using wordpress.com & I opted it to be private, meaning it's solely for me only. By mean, I did personal / private blogging where as my post was not for sharing..

source: Google

Actually it's more like my medium to pour out all of my anger, my sadness, my pain & even my complain to somebody or to everybody..Hmm, it's full with cursing & blasphemy too.. But, when I read it back before I decided to terminate a.k.a deleted it for good before I started this blog, I found out that it's not really that bad yet it reflected how immature I was. It's quite funny but I still have to terminate it because too personal & lots of peoples' name mentioned in it. 

Let see the difference between my habits / styles in blogging now & then..

My blogging habit back then :-

1. Back then, I don't even bother to customize my blog because nobody gonna  able to read it.. I called it as my "black-book" because of the dark black background with only the text in white.. Imagine that, scary huh..
2. Back Then, I was blogging for fun to fill up my 'leisure' time. Never ever crossed in my mind that I can earn money from it.. Pathetic isn't it.. 
3. No pics / illustration / graphic / anything but TEXT in my post.. Hahaha, can you imagine what kind of blogger I was?
4. I don't give a damn whether my post can attract reader or not
5. I don't follow anybody

My blogging Habit present time :-

1. I customizes my blog template - My blog will be always undergo template changing
2. I join lots of site that enable me to earn money online via blogging.. My favorites is to write a review / post about something ( product / services / events ) since I can practice my writing skill..
3. I uses lots of pics / graphics / illustration etc to enhance my post attraction
4. I learn about SEO to drive traffic to my blog
5. I followed people that share good info / tips / etc

I am happy because I change my blogging habits into something much more meaningful.. With new habits I connected to lots of friend with interesting passion and talent. It's really fun & refreshing to read about their life and opinion and even inspired me to be a better person.. Sharing is definitely a way of showing that we care about people around us.

So, lets keep blogging, lets keep sharing... Blogging Rock!

We're quite happy to cut it into many small useful pieces

I am Happy For You...

My Big Bro, Bitot & My son

Last night while my hubby was using my PC, my niece Opok buzzed me to chat via FB..  I was ready to have an early night but then have to cancelled it because I  want to know what she want to chat with me about..

Guess what she told me about??!! My big brother will engage with his girlfriend after he sign his divorce paper on this coming 28th March! I am shocked and speechless because I am so damn happy for him! It's about time for him to start a new life, a  new beginning after his unfaithful wife ( soon to be ex-wife ) dumped him for another man.My brother is a good man, a loyal one and my soon to be ex-sis-in-law doesn't deserve him at all.. He might have a temper but he never raised a hand to anyone even me his stubborn sister!

Actually I envied my brother courage to start a new family after failed with his 1st marriage.. If it happen to me ( touch wood ), I will definitely have a emotional wreck-down that will require forever to trust in marriage again.

What worried me the most is the age gap between them & they just get to know each other a month ago..He's 38th years old and his girlfriend only 21 years old.. I know what you thinking, BUT, love is blind right? I don't want to think negatively because to me the important thing is my brother happiness. If he is happy then I am happy for him too..I prays for him to find his happiness after all the ordeal he been put through with his 1st marriage.


Everyone deserve happiness in life.. Ordeal and turbulence may come all along but in the end happiness will come to those who search for it with pure intention..

For those who give up after failed in life or in anything, try to find in your heart the will to get up and try once again because every cloud has a silver lining.. Who know you might achieve more and you will never know unless you try..

Lack of sleep!s

Source: Google Image

I really want to update my blog & post new entry everyday but seem for the past 3 days I am unable to do so because of my poor state of health..

I wanna to post about my stay at Duta Vista Suite with my mom-in-law family & mine but since now I haven't edit any of the  photos and I am kinda of blur every time I wanna wrote something about it.. You know, it like I don't know where to begin or what to begin with..

Actually for the past 3 day since my sponsored post published, I spend most of my time reading  online book and since I am book maniac, I stayed up until 2 to 3 am in the morning just to make sure I finished reading and now the consequence is disastrous! My blood pressure increased due to my lack of sleep and rest!

My hubby admonished me to do something about my obsession with book many times before but I couldn't just leave behind this "passion" in me.. I loves reading too much..(*sigh)

My hubby warned me not to engross too much with online book reading.. He said he will unsubscribe from Unifi if I ignore my health again.. I guess I really need to watch out this habit of mine.. (* sigh & Yawning )

Dive Into The Season's Sexiest Swimwear!

This is a Sponsored post written by me on behalf of Express for SocialSpark. All opinions are 100% mine.

Hello again my fellow readers and followers!

Today I want to share about this awesome new collection of Spring Season's swimwear from Express. Express has launched its new line of spring swimwear which consisted of 37 pieces of sexy and gorgeous design at an affordable price. I took my times to look at the collection one by one because the design really captivated my attention due to its simple yet sexy design. The available color also matched with the spring theme where bright color such as yellow, red, pink, purple, blue,orange, white and even black will definitely look smashing!

women's swimwear

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My favorites piece is the Denim String Triangle Bikini Top! I just love the design especially the bottom because it was designed to look just like a casual shorts/ sweat pants and to me it's really worth my money to own something casual, simple yet sexy swimwear in my possession. I can even Imagined myself wearing it ( with a cute baby-T ), walking hand to hand with my beloved husband at the beach. Yay, what a view! So romantic!

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Bedtime Story : past, present & future

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Hello readers!

Do you still remember all of those bedtime stories your mother told you when you were just a little kid? Well, I definitely still remember some local bedtime story or tangon that my mother used to tell me whenever I faced difficulties to sleep in Dusun language. Most of it was about a ordeal and experienced of  character named as anak-anak. My mother was not as educated as my father so she was unable to read all of those fairy tales books to me but I still loves to hear the her story. That was bedtime story during my years and I grown up listening to those local story before I was introduced to the fairy tales.

Me too read a bedtime stories to my kids sometimes but ashamedly I have to admit that I didn't told them the story I heard from my mother not because I don't want to but because I don't know how to tell it or more accurately I don't know how to translate it into English or Malay correctly.. I tried once but quit after my kids laugh on me over mistakenly used a wrong words.. Kids nowadays are smarter and their thousand question right after I finished reading those bedtime story sometimes choked me..(*sigh)

I wonder what kind of bedtime story will my kid read to their kid in future? Will local story and fairy tales still interest our future generation? No matter what, I hope our future generation will preserve the tradition of reading bedtime story because to me it is one of the effective way to get close to our children. It created a certain kind of biding time with our kids that might be lack in our hectic-pace future generation where time seem not quite enough to grasp their ambitious vision.

Boomerang Reward From TNT

Ayayayai.. I received my Boomerang Reward From TNT last week!!!

I submitted my Redemption on 10/02/2011 to TNT express Worldwide (m) Sdn Bhd  & expected to received the items by the end of this month. So I am so damn surprised when TNT delivery guy handed me over my redemption reward last week..

source: tntboomerang

 It's not an expensive stuff but it's FREE STUFF! My company has been used TNT services for quite sometime and though the fare is bit expensive yet my boss trusted this logistic services. Boomerang is one of TNT's testing program to see whether their customer would approved this kind of give back for their loyalty on using TNT services. Well, to me it's a good program though to get the best reward of all, customer have to accumulate a sum of point yet the minor reward also satisfying.

The Rewards From TNT

 If TNT wanna prolong this program, I am damn sure that I can persuade my boss to let me participate our company again! My favorite reward is the 3 in 1 KFC voucher! ( psssttt..my boss let me have all the reward! ^_^ V ) My family especially my kiddos & me will gonna have a feast  at KFC or Pizza's house! (*wink )

Note:-

• The Voucher total sum are RM100 & I spent it on buying KFC & Pizza
• The TNT's Teddy bear given to my princess but my youngest son "rampas" & make it as his bolster bear!
• I just love the  TNT Foldable Bag! The decoration suited me well and even my kiddos nanny said it is pretty nice bag! So, I gave 1 unit to her..

When Ignorant people "talk"...

Last Sunday, our local newspaper,Berita Harian  published a insensitive caricature about Tsunami disaster over Japan that received million of negative feed back from peoples around the world. Lots of people questioned on how come such insensitive caricature can even published / released by the editor of those newspaper? This is what happened when we are ignorant of people feeling and situation.

source: Tempo Interaktif

Maybe the author just wanna make fun but to me it's totally wrong and unacceptable! we cannot turn other peoples grief and misery into laughing stokes! It is an heartless act for doing so especially from us Malaysian people who well known as one of the country rich with moral value & hospitality..

Though Berita Harian already asked for forgiveness over their carelessness but believe me when I say that world will always labeled us as insensitive country just because of this mistake..*sigh*

When this insensitive caricature issue is still hot on the track, our First Lady, Datuk Rosmah Mansur shocked us with her clueless & idiotic statement over the recent disaster hit Japan! Watch the video below:~

Ini.. pada diri saya, adalah satu pengajaran kpd negara2 lain utk apa2 pun mereka nak buat ataupun sebarang pembangunan yang mereka ingin lakukan, seharusnya mengkaji dulu keadaan sekeliling & mengaitkan dgn 'Green Technology'.. err.. err... termasuk juga negara kita." - Rosmah Mansor.

I am totally speechless when I watched this video.. Gosh, how ignorant people can be kan.. She is really & truly clueless over what she was saying. In her statement, she was implied that the earthquake & tsunami that hit Japan were consequences of their lack of concerns toward the environment...

Doesn't she know the meaning of NATURAL DISASTER ? 

It's commonly know that Japan is located on Pacific Ring Of Fire, that's why it has constantly experienced earthquake in the past and will face the similar condition in future. It's not because of their own doing that causes the earthquake and tsunami but the natural cause that we called natural hazard. The fact is, Japan is one of the most advance in green-tech among countries all over the world and even if they do not practicing enough environment friendly technology, I still think that we Malaysian is not in position to criticize them.

Her statement show that she is in the state of ignorance & possesses a very poor of knowledge in geographical aspect. Maybe she want to give a statement that sound brilliant but in the end she just screwed it up with her ignorant & idiotic statement! Bak kata pepatah Melayu, " terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata, badan binasa " 

So think wisely before making any statement. Don't play the brainy act if you clueless over something.. People will understand if you just admitted that you don't have a idea then playing the cool act just to cover your lack of knowledge..

Hopefully world won't judge all Malaysian people over this two careless or clueless people mistake! 

Note:-

• I can't wait to know our PM respond over this issue... Will he back up his beloved wife? 
• I am not judging our FL, but only wanna give my say from my POV..
• The 2nd last Paragraph is pointed to me actually..hihihihi

Life : Through My Window ( Poem )

Wanna share this nice piece of poem  by C Cattaway . The meaning is deep & significant with my Blog Title.

Through my window, I can see
A world that isn't pleasing me,
For on the street, I see a box,
And inside, feet which wear no socks.
I needn't know, for I can guess
Just what is there atop those legs,
A little boy without a home.
A poor, small child, helpless and alone.
Through the window there, I saw
A man who turned to alcohol,
And still, each day, he fills his cup
'Coz that's all that keeps his spirits up.
People think it's his own fault,
"He would change, if a job he saught",
But they don't know why he's that way.
He's skilled enough, but still turned away.
Through the window, I can see
A world I viewed so differently.
I'm lucky enough to live inside,
And it's easy enough for me to hide.
What have they done to be that way?
Did they run out of luck, one day?
With a different start, would they be the same?
Or, would all my worry be in vain?
I've taken for granted the sea and the sky,
For I thought my window didn't lie.
But now, I see that I was wrong.
Outside my window, life goes on.

© C. Cattaway 1992

Submission date : 2006-04-13
Last edit : 2006-08-02

ENJOY READING OKAY!

New Tv Set !

Jeng.. Jeng.. Jeng... 

My hubby bought a new set of LCD color television  today.. ( mo mikirayou sikit.. hehehe )

Actually our 6 years old set of television sudah start meragam, that's why my hubby decided to buy a new one & he said alang2 mo beli baru, beli ja la yang ok sikit.. Thank you hubby! ( lama sudah jealous dgn friends & family who own LCD/PLASMA/LED television )

 This is the my snapped pic of my new TV set :~

Sharp _ Aquos 32'

However we still want to repair the old one because it was our 1st television that we owned & it's kind of reminder to us on how hard we been strive to be what we are now.. Yeah, I am proud with my hubby & myself for being able to faced all the obstacle in the past & here we are more comfortable than before.. ( sedih bila teringat masa susah dulu2 )

I feel happy because we can buy stuff with our own earned money without borrowing from other & humiliated. I am happy because my children can eat good & nutritious food! I am happy because no longer people look down at us.. Hardship have toughen me & make me a better person..

Some people said keep your head up & never look back but to me, I will definitely keep my head up & at the same times will looked back to the past from time to time to learn from it in order not to repeat the same mistake..

huishh.. I am into blues all of sudden, hahahaha.. Well, wanna stop here & enjoy my 1st time watching DVD with our new LCD television.. See ya later & Peace No war..

Condolences & Prayer for Japan & its people

This Afternoon I got a call from my company supplier, Ms. Anne from Fuji Die Co.,Ltd Malaysia Branch to inform me that they will take some times to reply our request to give us the schedule for preform carbide order. At that moment I was not aware about the earthquake that hit Japan earlier this morning so I ask her why & shockingly get to know this devastated news about Earthquake & Tsunami that hit Japan..

Ms. Anne told me that their headquarter in the center of Tokyo also affected by the earthquake & all of the workers were ordered to go back home until the safety of their building confirmed. I feel bad & really sad to know this news since I have few friend who live & study at Japan but glad to know that  they're safe! ( dapat tau situasi my friend from FB..)

Malaysia Meteorological Department already notify/ warned people who stay near Labuan & Kudat beach to not wandering nearby the sea from 6pm to 12 midnight because of the raising seal leval & strong wave as a impact from the earthquake..

Lets us pray for the safety of people in Japan who involved in this tremor.. Hopefully they will be strong & patient to faced this nature disaster & May God bless them!

A video of Earthquake in Japan :-

IPv4 To IPv6 ? What is That?? Explain please..

source: Google Image

Seriously, I don't have any idea what is IPv4 or IPv6., I do know about Internet Protocol but I never know that it got what they called as version 4 & version 6.. ( hahaha, I am not IT student nor Computer geek )

Just now, I am browsing the The Borneo Post Online when my eyes caught this post about changing the IPv4 to IPv6 & jadi gelabah sekejap because I don't know what is it all about..( Habit yg susah mo dibuang bila faced with new stuff/info that need my urgent attention: Anxiety )

So, here I am asking for a favor from all of you my beloved follower / whoever read this entry that have knowledge about this stuff, can you please explain to me ( in simple word, no extreme IT word ) what is this stuff about ?

All your comment / explanation is highly appreciated.. ( cewah, mcm buat surat rasmi pula kan..)

I feel bit embarrassed for asking this favor tapi orang cakap " malu tanya, sesat jalan" kan.. So I rather put aside my embarrased feeling to know new thing then berlagak mcm I know eveything.. ( malu-malu kucing juga la..)

P/s:- Hopefully will get lots of explanation !

Mata Cantik GiveAway

Klik Here To Read The T&C & Join Mata Cantik GiveAway! 

Tagged by ANNE & sebab don't want to missed another GA, I make this entry in hurry.. Although it's just 4 hour before the deadline, I want want to tag this 3 awesome people :- Lenn , Eryati & Jujie ( hope you gal manage to submit your entry before  the due time ). I wish everyone who joined this GA GOOD LUCK!

AKSI SI COMEL with LITTLE FINGERS

Click Here To Read The T & C & Join " AKSI SI COMEL with LITTLE FINGERS " contest

DUE DATE : END OF MARCH 2011

Here Is My Storyboard :-

PART 1 :EXAMINE THE LITTLE FINGER

PART 2: SELECTING

PART 3: DECIDING WHICH ONE

PART 4: SHOWING HIS SELECTION

PART 5 a.k.a END OF STORY: FEEL IT!

MAIN CHARACTER : ILYAS MALIQ

AGE : 1 YEAR 10 MONTH

THE MOMMY a.k.a DIRECTOR : HARYATI MOLLY @ TUNUNG

TAGGED: ERYATI

THANKS TO JUST FOR TAGGING ME ALONG & FEEL FREE TO JOIN OKAY!
CHAYO..CHAYO.. 


Notes:~

• Pics snapped by Sony Erickson phone camera
• Editing done at pizap.com

We are Not Whining!

Reading the statement by the Deputy of Prime Minister really boiled up my blood! Adakah He asked us to stop whining when all the Sabahan have done were asking for their assistance to help them improve their life standard! He even put the blame on the Sabahan leaders  that they unable to do much for the landless & hardcore poor! Jadi what the use of "Kerajaan Pusat"?? Isn't it is their responsibility to observes & take action if something is not right with the state leadership?? Come on, where is the spirit of " RAKYAT DIDAHULUKAN, PENCAPAIAN DIUTAMAKAN " motto that propagated by the government?

What really irritated me is the comparison of Sabahan poverty problem with starvation faced by China & India citizens. China ( ~ 1.4 billion people ) & India ( ~ 1.15 billion people ) are high populated country mister! How can he compared those country with Sabah that have approximately 3.2 million people? With that number of population & limited source of foods, starvation definitely surfaced. Please understand that Sabahan people not complaining about starvation but we are complaining about the lack of development in our Beloved land of Sabah. How can we feel satisfied when our state was labeled as the poorest state in Malaysia though we are all waiting & ready to co-operate for the proper development to be conducted by the

government.

Sabahan people also need to change they way of their thinking. Instead of waiting for the help that might never come, I guess all of us should stand together shoulder by shoulder, helping ourselves & our state to development. For example, support our local people in their business or take part in any local communities/events that give opportunity to our local people especially youngster to gain skill in supporting themselves & their family to prevent them from depending too much to the government.. It's better than waiting in uncertainty of the promised development by government right?

 

To all Sabahan, don't mind about being labeled as " the poorest state" in Malaysia because to me we are still the richest & beautiful no matter what they say! I am Proud To be Sabahan !

Note:-

1. This post is just my point of view & not intended to insult or humiliated any party ( personal or community ) & forgive me if any feel so.. 
2. This is just an honest opinion from the heart of Sabahan woman & its definitely not a political view because I am not interested in politic itself..
3. If anyone want to read the DPM statement mentioned above ---> READ HERE FOR MORE !

I proud being a woman!

Source: Google I mage

Once upon a time, women were treated as an insignificant figure, merely for breeding & hosting purpose due to simpleton thinking by men back then. Nowadays, women played important role along with men in economic, political & social achievement yet at the same time they do their duty as a mother & wife.

Source: Google Image

If anyone ask me whether I ever regretted born as a woman than my answer will be definitely "NEVER" because I am proud to be  a woman who can work to support my family, being a mother to my children & good wife to my husband.

Since today is International Woman Day, I like to share a meaningful poem about woman with all my fellow reader who happen to read this post & I hope you, yes YOU WOMAN will stop to question the existence of human being called WOMAN ~

A Woman's Poem

A woman is the calm of a hurricane's eye
where a man finds tranquility
as the storm passes by

A woman is the softness inside the shell
when the shell is bombarded
by man's creation of hell

A woman is the pillar of a temple foundation
where a man comes and goes
with renewed inspirations

A woman is the cloud that carries the rain
giving life to man's soul
parched from anxieties and pain

A woman is the bank of the river flows
helping man's direction
by being the woman she knows

A woman is the sound of a Lark's song in the morning
when mist covers life
and man feels forlorn

A woman is the emotions
shared with a man
the climax of giving
by the touch of a hand

A woman is the flesh that holds the seed
the miracle of birth

fulfilling human need

A woman is the mother of a new generation
a man is the direction
of that aspiration

HAPPY WOMEN DAY !!!

Fluctuation of oil price (RON 97) hurt!

Have you read what Datuk Seri Ismail Sabri Yaakob. Minister of Domestic Trade, Consumerism and Co-operatives said in his statement about the fluctuation of RON-97???

Here is the link ---->> Price of RON97 will fluctuate every month, said minister

How can they say fluctuate when since last year the price has been increased from RM1.92 to RM2.50 by earlier this month & there was no slightest decrease????

Why don't just admitted that the price will keep on increasing indeed of using the word "fluctuation"?? I hate it when people trying to cover the fact that even a small kids can identify! Malaysian citizens won't buy by these excuses because we are no more the dummy citizen. 

The constant increase of oil price really hurt citizen with average income like me.. Even those with higher income feel the effect because when oil price increase there is no doubt other thing will be increase too. For examples: bus fares, flight fares, daily stuff etc.

Source: The Star Online

Source: The Star Online

Some times I wonder how come our country leader can fight over something trivial in parliament yet they cannot solve bigger issue like oil price for the benefits of our country & its citizen development. Why don't they put aside their feud amongst themselves & co-operate to find the best solution on how to maintain the oil price from increase & ease down the burden of Malaysian citizen..

The motto of "RAKYAT DIDAHULUKAN, PENCAPAIAN DIUTAMAKAN" is meaningless if our leader take no action on this matter!

Let The Music Heal Your soul

Lyrics | Bravo All Stars lyrics - Let The Music Heal Your Soul lyrics

Have you ever heard about Music Therapy? It is scientific research about correlation between logic & musicology that may influence the development or changing in human physically, emotionally & spiritually.
Have you ever noticed how people with glumly mood smiled when they listened to certain song played on air? I guess everyone would agreed if I say that music can make us happy and music can make us sad.

I can feel my eyes misted whenever I heard " You Raise Me Up " by Josh Gorban because it remind me of my father yet at the same times it lift up my spirit to never give up. I also turn into dance monkey every time I listen to my favorite song such as "Waka Waka" by Shakira and also song by Rihanna.. Gosh, I just love her song..

Song such " Hero" by Mariah Carey, " Strong enough" by Cher, " Black & White " by Michael Jackson, " Written In the Sky " by Tinie Tempa and lots of inspired me to be a better person.

I don't know whether people out there agreed about music can heal our soul yet to me I cannot denied the power of music over my own emotion..

Note :- My family especially my hubby is fanatic about music though he don't even know how to play a simple note with guitar.. 

Insolent people turn me OFF!

Today while I was choosing my meal for lunch at Restoran Padi, I accidentally bumped into one of the restaurant worker who is on her way to serve Nasi ayam that cause her to spill some of the soup onto the table. I apologized because I know I am guilty too though it's her mistake for not watch her step while serving in rush only to get her death stares in return! 

I was so upset because apparently it was the worker mistake yet I was the one who is doing the apologizing thing only to received rude action in return.. She don't even utter a word like " it's okay" or may "takpe, saya pun salah". What a fool I am to expect such kindness! I feel humiliated because I am the customer & she didn't even show any respect to me as a customer. At that time I can feel my anger bubbled up & I almost exploded but I thankfully I managed to contain my anger though in my mind I already started cursing WTF.. ( muka merah suda menahan marah )

My hubby noticed my angerness, so he persuaded me to ignored the incident & calm down but how can I just ignore it when people showing bullshit manner in return of sincere apologize? Yet, I sat down & ate my lunch without enthusiasm like I always have when I eating.. Even great food turn tasteless after facing such manner..

One of people behavior that really pisses & turn me off is insolently! 

I know I can't expect all people to be kind towards me. But, C'mon in this case I am their customer & in business world customer should get some respect! The worker was lucky because she bumped on me ( I am not hostile person ).. I wonder what would happened if she bumped onto someone who is less patience & hostile.. 

"For those who are on the roof become insolent as they don't know yet about the slope and the slipperiness of the roof!" »Mehmet Murat ildan

 What do you do when you are in my place?

Note :-

• My moody heart cheered up by my ex-colleague who happened to buy lunch at the same restaurant. He paid our bill as treat for us & how can i prolong my moody heart after such kindness.. Thank you Navin!
• Hopefully the worker will learn some manner in future

"Bosou" Craving Madness

copy from google image

I was blog-walking at  Dev place when I stumble upon Gunsirit message on Dev shoutbox, asking about my favorite food "Bosou" & BAMM, just like that I experienced this craving madness for this particular dishes.. It's been a while I am craving to eat "Bosou" & I been trying to avoid any single thing that would remind me of this favorite food of mine since no way I am gonna get some here in KL.. Guns, you triggered the craving & now my craving exploded like dynamite !... (tapun2)

All Sabahan people know by heart what is "Bosou"..( who doesn't know you can just google it yourself)
My favorite one is "Bosou Udang + ikan + lada putih".. Just thinking of it watered my mouth..  (Mentally I slapped myself for torturing my mind with the delicious image..Yummy!)

Last time I have "Bosou" was during my visit to my brother residence at Damansara Damai On last Christmas.. I even tapau a week suppllies for me.. I called my brother to ask for some "Bosou" but they said it already finished some time ago..

ARRRGHHH!!! I wish I had learn the art of making "Bosou" with my mother or my villager!!!!
 I will definitely sleep with upset stomach today...Huahuahua..

P/S:- I am not craving because I am pregnant okay =) But it happened because just say I am "bosou" lover..

Selfish Friendship

Source: Google Image

Once a cat was caught in a hunter's net. A mouse used to live in a nearby hole. The mouse seeing the cat in the net started playing around the cat. Soon a mongoose came there. He wanted to kill the mouse. As he lifted his head, he saw an owl sitting on a tree trying to catch him. The mongoose went very near the cat's net to save himself. The mouse thought "When the hunter takes away the cat, the mongoose will not spare me and the owl is there to enjoy both of us."

The Mouse went to the cat and said, "I can cut the net if you promise to save my life from the mongoose and the owl." The cat agreed. The mouse started cutting the net slowly and freed the cat only when the hunter was just near the cat. The cat took to heels and so ran the mongoose too. The owl was very much disappointed to see even the mouse running away to safety.

A few days later, the cat being hungry, went to the hole of the mouse and requested him to come out for a game. The mouse replied, "I sought friendship and saved you to save my life." Now you can go home.

MORAL : Don’t nurture friendship with selfish people

At first i don't get what the connection between moral of the story & the story itself. It's pretty confusing & it took me sometimes to analysis the story to fully understand what is it about.. In my own words, the rat sought friendship with the cat for his own benefit so that he can escaped from the danger that surround him for that moment..( hahaha, consider ja la the rat sex is M ).. Yup the cat was rescued in return but only because the rat was in danger. Means, there was no sincerity in that friendship!

Google Image

Sincerity is one of value that important in building a ever lasting friendship. I hardly encounter any sincere people here in my area and that is why I don't have many good friend. In fact I don't have any friend here in Selangor. Maybe I don't look hard but I really don't wish to befriend someone who take me for granted..


I still know some friend but their character is similar to the rat in above story & I rather be alone than befriend with someone selfish.. 


So, what about you? Do you want to have a selfish friend?

Wish Upon The Star

Source: Google

Do you remember being a kid, when the world  was full with possibilities? When we believed that we could change the world by making a simple wish?

Yup, I was one of those kid who make thousand of silly wish! When I make my 1st wish ( I was 8 years old that time ), I looked up to the sky with my hand clasped and my eyes closed then wished " I wishes that my family is wealthy ". At that time my father was struggling to support my big family where money always a problem and i guess that motivated me to make that silly wish..

Here is some of my thousand wish that I never forget until now:-

• I wished Santa Clause will visit my village
• I wished I can turn into mermaid
• I wished I have a blue eyes
• I wished Michael Jackson visit Sabah
• I wished I can meet princess Diana

Hahahaha.. It's endless because I always wish something every single day! I still sometimes making wish upon the star but now I make a wiser and realistic wish that I can achieve. My father said that everyone can wish and there is no point of silly or stupid in wishing something because the main point in wishing is our intention. Nothing impossible and God willing if our intention is pure enough, we will achieve it in time..

So dear reader, what is your wish?

P/S :~

1. I wish I will win a jackpot that I can pay my PTPTN loan in lump-sum amount and travel all over the   world! ( tua2 pun masih mo buat wish lagi..hihihi )

" Saya Nak Join Bloglist Nellt The Strange "

I was tagged by the gorgeous Dev to join this contest and for that I really thankful..
I am kinda of enjoy being tagged.. hehehe.
For the past few day, I am incapable to write good entry because lets say my mind is fully occupied and no room to think about posting new entry.. otak mo kena reboot dulu kali..
So being tagged by someone really freshen up my over-heat mind.. hehehe..
So, lets check out the contest below okay :-

# Copy BANNER yang Nelly dah sediakan dan linkkan ke entry ini. ( Done )

# Paste kan kat entry, dan buatlah entry ringkas bertajuk :  (Done )
"Saya nak join bloglist Nelly The Strange" 

# Yang belum FOLLOW, sila follow ye . . ( Followed )

# Korang pilih nak masuk kategori mana : Otai , Sempoi , Cool ( I choose Sempoi )

# Tinggalkan link anda kat ruangan komen entry ini. ( Okay )

#Tarikh tutup: 29 MARCH 2011 

#Tag dekat 3 orang ok  . . ( I tagged Jujie , G'bits & Fadzmie )

Gotta go now --------------> to inform those 3 people that I tagged them =P

Rocking song of title "Animal"

When I was thinking on what I am going to write for my latest entry, I am kind of blank and have no idea on but then AWESOME song as below on air at MTV channel and I think, why not I write about it!

My kids love this song.. Whenever this song is on air, my kids will start dancing and singing along especially during the "oh oh I want some " part.. Our small house will turn mcm disko sekejap time ni lagu on air.. My hubby & I pun join because this song really awesome.. Even my youngest son pun know the chorus part.. Hahaha..Funny betul ba tengok si kecik shake his butt..

Maybe the lyrics is kinda of inappropriate for kids but I don't mind because they hardly understand the true meaning of the song. I mean, my kids just enjoy the music ba.

source: Google image

Actually I am not really big fan of Neon Tree, singer of this song because I am big fan of Green Day & Paramore but since the release of this song I start to like them not as much as the other 2 group though. In fact I don't know much about them before this song. ( I start to google about them only after I heard this song on air ). Biasa la, kalau 1 single meletup baru we start to get to know the singer kan..

Seem like need to stop typing because mo join dorang nyanyi dulu..
See ya later!

p/s:  Best oo ni lagu jadi senam aerobik punya background song... We sweat faster!

Culinary Failure!

Whenever my hubby and me talk about culinary, he will teases me about my 1st fried rice that I prepared years ago.

Frankly, I don't how to cook when I married him 10 years ago! Okay, let me tell you why he teases me about it.
That day I choose to prepare fried rice because I thought it's easy than other menu. I used my common knowledge didn't refer to any recipe book.( Malu mo tanya plus masa tu I don't have/keep recipe book with me)

I still remember the ingredients of my fried rice :- a can of sardine, garlic, chillies, salt and a big bowl of cooked rice. I fried the meshed sardine, garlic and chillies together then I putted the cooked rice, added salt and done. At that time seronok la sebab manage to prepare something for my hubby. I don't even thought to taste it 1st.

So right after my hubby returned home, I asked him to taste my fried rice and do you know what he said??
" Awak masak ape ni?? Rasa macam NASI KUCING la.."
I tasted it and he was right because it tasted like cats' food!!! I felt so ashamed and I vowed that I will never cook anything without consult anybody..

I sulked for few days because of this nasi kucing incident but now when I think back it's kind of funny. After that I bought recipe books for cooking simple and daily dishes and never experimenting with my common knowledge in culinary..

One lesson I learned that day was to taste my cooking 1st before serving it to other people. My hubby said it's basic knowledge in culinary.

I am lucky because since that day my hubby is the doing the cooking task. I just help him to prepare the ingredients. I can cook but I am no chef! I don't have the talent in culinary though I loves food very much..

I think lots of people out there have their own experience with cooking and this is mine.. 

Note: I always admire people who expert in cooking because they can turn simple food into mouth watering dishes. They said everyone can cook but I definitely a failure in culinary..*sigh*

Water your body!

Like plants, we too need to water our body everyday! Our body contained from 55% to 78% with water, depending on our body size. To function properly, our body requires between 1 to 7 liters of water per day to avoid dehydration. Drinking water is essential to human and all kind of lifeforms!

Some of you might wonder how is it affect your confidence? Well, no matter how expensive or how up-to-date your make-up or beauty product, it won't cast away your dull and dry skin problem due to lack of moisture within your body system. All of those product only conceal those problem and I don't think all of us wanna to put on make-up 24/7 aren't we?

What I mean by water is not include with coffee, tea, carbonate drinks or etc but it is a clean, white water okay! In fact, you need to cut out taking all of those flavored drinks especially those with caffeine!

I am not bluffing about this because I've seen the result of drinking enough water with my own eyes! I don't know if the result is same for all people  or maybe it depend on our body system but one of my friend did have a translucent and flawless skin by drinking 8 glass and more water per day! Believe me when I said it boost-up her confidence !

For those who ignore this simple fact before this and then suffer with the consequence, it's never too late to start watering your body. Even hopeless plants can bloom beautifully after consistently being watered !! Try it and you have nothing to lose!