Hold it Against Me - Britney Spear!

OMG!!!! She is back and along tagged with her is a NICE song!!!
Basi suda ni news tapi still want to share..*wink*

After series of breakdown and failure, she is back with a single that debuted at number one in 19 countries for whole week ( until Bruno Mars bounce her down ).


There is rumors that Britney copy a veteran artist song but to me the song sang by Britney just smashing!
Here is the lyric :- ( copy from lyricsmode.com )

Hey, over there please forgive me
If I'm coming on too strong
Hate to stare but you're winning
And they play my favorite song
So come here, a little closer
Wanna whisper in your ear
Say it clear, little question
Wanna know just how you feel

Chorus:
If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me
'Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me?

Verse 2:
Hey you may think that I'm crazy
But I think you're just my type
I might be a little hazy
But you just cannot deny
There's a spark in between us
When we're dancing on the floor
I want more, wanna see it
So I'm asking you tonight

Chorus:
If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me
'Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me?

Bridge:
If I said I want your body would you hold it against me?
Yeah Oh
Give me something good
Don't wanna wait I want it now
Drop it like a hood
And show me how you work it out

Chorus:
Alright
If I said my heart was beating loud
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me
If I said my heart was beating loud
If we could escape the crowd somehow
If I said I want your body now
Would you hold it against me
'Cause you feel like paradise
And I need a vacation tonight
So if I said I want your body tonight
Would you hold it against me

There is no Video Music to share with since the song is not officially release yet.

Supermums 2011!

I am fan of Reader Digest since I am 10 years old ( My 1st hard copy of Reader Digest was given by my beloved father) and the contents never let me down, even the contest is surprisingly interesting!

This year, they are doing Supermums 2011 nominations where people were invited to nominate a mother that they think deserve this acknowledgment by writing about her and submit it to Reader Digest by 28th February 2011.

I have browsed some of the story and most of it really touching... I guess everyone agreed if I said all mother deserve to be call "supermum"! ( excluding those who dumped or abused their kids, they are different kind of mother which I called "heartless" mum ).

Me too a supermum yet not as super as other mother.. ( I get annoyed easily over my kids misbehaved ...*sigh* ). And you, yes YOU are supermum or soon to be too..*wink*.

Most men always wonder what is it about being a mum that qualify them to be call "super".. ( even my hubby ask me the same Q ). Then I ask him, " when our kids fall sick, who stayed up all night long to take care of them?" and he said, " You did."

I asked him again, " When the Eyas not eating well or when Elan grade fall down or when thinking of leaving our kids at other people care, who worried the most?" and again he said, " You did."

"Then that answer your wondering," I told him. Well, a mother is gifted with undying compassion and unconditional love  and that qualified them to be called as "super". It's undeniable that men too can have such intensity of compassion and love but the still the gap is too obvious. ( Just my opinion and i know it differ depending on individual )

Okay..okay.. I think better I stop my rambling here but I will rambling again soon. So, if you have someone in you mind that might deserve this recognition then do it hurry up because the time is tickling!

P/s:- I am rambling only when I write and I am no crazy..LOL

Tom & Jerry Relationship

Who"s not watching this show?

Tom & Jerry cartoon show is one of my all times favorite cartoon show!I grew up with this cartoon show and  I have watched it like thousand time even at the age of 28! In fact, my kids, my hubby and I always watch this show together and it never failed to make us laugh out of breathe.

Some relationships are like Tom & Jerry. They tease each other, knock each other down, irritate each other, hate each other but can't live without each other.

Above phrases was from one of my Facebook friend's status updated ( so i don't really know the author/ origin of it ) that caught my attention that I copied it to share it with my fellow reader because of the truth and meaning of it.

I adored the interpretation of love-hate relationship between Tom the cat and Jerry the mouse. The tease, the irritation, the hate, the torture only make their relationship closer and that only colored and spice up their relationship.

"Tom & Jerry Relationship" does occurred in human life especially those who been married for sometimes and undergoing some phase of uncertainty but don't get me wrong since I like this kind of relationship (excluding knocking out each other okay..)! My hubby and I not a lovey-dovey couple. We always have argument and disagreement that will lead us into hurting each other feeling yet we stick together when obstacles come trying to tear us apart.. However, unlike Tom & Jerry who trying to find point to start their war, we are trying to avoid any cause that will lead us on fighting..... ( well, my mom said, " au osonong misawo-sawo migiodu kesasari" )

No matter what kind of relationship you have the mutual and important foundation is honesty/sincerity . So be honest and sincere with everyone and believe me that you will survive any kind of relationship..

Templates Haunting ongoing!

Ever since I got advices from my fellow blogger friends, I have been browsing through the net over and over for hours yet I haven't find any suitable templates for my blog.. Haiya..

The template I am using now is not really my choice since the themes is so childish and not really about me..
However haunting for suitable template is not as easy as I think because I am no IT genius and complex templates will squint my eyes away! LOL..

I am still in blurry decision on what concept I want of my new templates and hopefully I will stick to it till the end..( I just loves variety ).

Here is some of the link where I found awesome templates :~

• yummy lolly 
• deluxe templates 

Know all the facts before you judge!

This story is simple and does happened in real life:~

One old man was sitting with his 25 years old son in the train. Train is about to leave the station. All passengers are settling down their seat. As train started young man was filled with lot of joy and curiosity. He was sitting on the window side. He went out one hand and feeling the passing air. He shouted, "Papa see all trees are going behind". Old man smile and admired son feelings. Beside the young man one couple was sitting and listing all the conversion between father and son. They were little awkward the attitude of 25 years old man behaving like a small child.

Suddenly young man again shouted, "Papa see the pond and animals. Clouds are moving with train". Couple was watching the young man in embarrassingly. Now its start raining and some of water drops touches the young man's hand. He filled with joy and he closed the eyes. He shouted again," Papa it's raining, water is touching me, see papa". Couple couldn't help themselves and ask to old man. Why don't you visit the Doctor and get treated your son.
Old man said," Yes, We were coming from hospital only. Today only my son got the eyes first time in life".

Moral: "Don't draw conclusions until you know all the facts".

Peoples tend to make conclusion without knowing the whole story, leading other people to the wrong side of the whole truth and I realize that did the same mistake several times that end with bad consequences.

For example, last year I found out that my hubby used the money that supposed to be spend on our kitchen stuff without consenting me and instantly, I accused him using  the money to buy trivial stuff instead of asking him and we end up having a "cold war" for a day, only to find out that he used it to settle his old debt with his friend. You see, if only I ask him rather than accusing him then we won't get through that "cold war" after all..

The main key is don't feel ashamed to ask! Nobody will get mad with you if you ask question ( as long as the question is appropriate and suitable to the situation ). By asking, you will get the answer to ponder with before you make conclusion/judgment!

Please End Baby Exploitation & Trafficking!

Baby-for-sale? I know it's not a new issue yet it's still sound menacing and cruel to a mother like me. I surf the star online and this title caught my attention 1st ----> Baby-For-Sale Racket Crippled!

Sometimes I don't understand what kind of person those people who involved in this illegal activity. They are human being after all who gifted with heart to feel love and compassion toward those poor baby yet they are doing the cruelest thing without any remorse.  For God sake, they are just a baby who need protection, not a product to sell off to anybody!

Human trafficking especially baby trafficking is wrong and should never happened after all. For those who involved in trafficking/selling them off let me tell you all this:- Please examine your heart and humanity. If you live on other people misery especially those innocent babies you sold off, then misery will be your friend for eternity.

Congratulation to the local authorities for arresting those who involved in baby trafficking.. Keep up the good job!

For our government: Please stop your debate on trivial matter and focus on something much more important and wide problem such as human/baby exploitation and trafficking! ( we don't want Malaysia to be re-list in human trafficking blacklist as happened in year 2009 when the US government listed us in human trafficking blacklist!) So, forget the political view differences and work your mind together to solve this bigger issue!

Nuffnang Malaysia newbie (^_^) v

Hello Nuffnang Malaysia Community! Newbie here and please show me the way to $$$ !! just kidding but who I am kidding with right?..
I just registered with Nuffnang Malaysia like 1 hour ago and here I am bragging about it in my blog with twinkle in my eyes..

I know about this community since I created my blog site last year but I took time to join it because;  just say I was naive blogger before okay! I know most of my fellow follower and blog I followed used to this community because I visited their blog frequently and saw the Nuffnang ads there and there in their blog site.

Frankly, I don't really know how this community/site function but I guess it might as same as Google adsense where we can get payment if we do it the right way but I am hoping to know it better soon. Very soon indeed.

Guys and gals, feel free to advise me on how to use Nuffnang effectively.. I am looking forward to know your comment..

Morning therapy with my mom!

This morning I call  my mother to pour out my heart out about my 2nd son.. Last night I punished him because he lost his class timetable and exercise books.. Moreover, my eldest son complained to me that he always wandered alone back at school !

Sometimes my kids behavior especially my 2nd son always cause me headache and sometimes will turn me into "step-mom".. My mother said I need to use different way to approach each of my kids since they are different in characteristic and behavior and I guess she is right after all.. My mother said parenting done with softness is better than that with harshness because harshness only cause bitterness in kids character.. The bond between children and parent is much more strong if we use a softer approach to tackle their misbehavior.

Calling my mother really worth my phone bills because I  know I can  rely on her to advise me.. She is my top idol beside my father!I hope I can figure out my kids character and find the way to advise them in more effective way than punishing them to regret later..

Things To Always Remember

Whenever I feel down, depressed or even madly sad, I will surfed for inspirational stories, poems and even quotes that can help me to lift up my strength and spirit. It is kind of my habit to help me ease down my worrisome heart..

Your presence is a present to the world.
You are unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You will make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Do not put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot … goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life’s treasure are people together.

Realize that it is never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have hearth and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a start.

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET ….
FOR EVEN A DAY
HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !

I picked the poem above because it remind me to appreciate the existence of me in this world, to live life to the fullest, to dare myself of hoping and dreaming and to appreciate every single  thing that surrounded me.. In short words, it remind me to live, learn and love!

Great Marriage story

I just want to share this amazing story that read from this link :~ AcademicTips Blog
Here is the story that I picked :~

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

“Why?” he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can’t even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me:” What can I do to change your mind?”

Somebody said it right, it’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : “Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?” He said :” I will give you your answer tomorrow….” My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes…. My dear, “I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further..” This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

“When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your “good friend” approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face… Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. ”

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and as I continue on reading… “Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk… I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread….

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…

That’s life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… and that’s our life… Love, not words win arguments… 

This story really touched my heart and I hope it will touch many more..

Earth Day Every Day!

 I loves nature very much and I always wish that every day is an earth day so that people will stop from contaminating the air, water and lands. I loves the wild jungle, the unpolluted river and the fresh and fresh air but nowadays it is really hard to see a jungle or a clean, unpolluted river or to breath a fresh air. 

22 April every year is officially Earth Day since 1970 but I really wish that people will think every day is an earth day so that they will aware about the critical condition of our beloved earth due to human lack of responsibility in taking care of it. Nowadays here in Malaysia, major supermarket and shopping complex held every Saturday as an earth day where peoples were require to use disposable beg/their own bag instead of plastic bag when they are doing their shopping. It's a good effort but I guess it only give a best result if they are strict on it because from my view, plastic bag is still available but you have to pay extra 20 cents per bag!

I get to know a website that doing a campaign on making every day an earth day from one of my Facebook friend and I really touched by their effort on this matter. As much as I supported any effort on saving or preserve our nature and earth from harm, I 100 percent support this site with their campaign to make :~
Every day an Earth Day!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!

When the clock strikes twelve on December 31st, people all over the world cheer and wish each other a very Happy New Year. For some, this event is no more than a change of a calendar. For others, the New Year symbolizes the beginning of a better tomorrow. So, if you look forward to a good year ahead, spread happiness with these wonderful New Year wishes.

To me each new year is a new chapter of 365 pages new days that I need to fill up with my sweet, sour, bitter etc memories. However as most people me too wish that I can fill it up with good and sweet memories.

Every new year people make resolutions to change aspects of themselves they believe are negative. A majority of people revert back to how they were before and feel like failures. This year I challenge MYSELF to a new resolution. I challenge myself to just be me myself. I don't want to be somebody else just to make other people notice me. I want to show all of those people who look down at me especially him the real me, the real me who has been hiding within myself..

 

What I really want to say is ~*~*~*~>

What can be said in New Year rhymes,
That's not been said a thousand times?
The new years come, the old years go,
We know we dream, we dream we know.
We rise up laughing with the light,
We lie down weeping with the night.
We hug the world until it stings,
We curse it then and sigh for wings.
We live, we love, we woo, we wed,
We wreathe our prides, we sheet our dead.
We laugh, we weep, we hope, we fear,
And that's the burden of a year

 MY WISH FOR ALL OF YOU WHO READ THIS POST :~

May this new year find you
healthier and happier,
peaceful, content, satisfied,
looking forward
to fresh, revitalizing interests,
a variety of pleasures,
interesting new people,
material and personal successes
to make this new year
the best one yet.
Happy New Year!

Malaysia won the AFF Suzuki Cup !

Malaysian supporter gathered to cheer for the team

AFF Suzuki Cup is officially belonged to Malaysia after defeating Indonesia (2-4 Agg). I am happy but I am disappointed with Malaysia team because to me the winning seem like a lucky one. To my eyes they were not playing at their best last night! They are lack of trying to shoot for a goal and everybody is too engrossed to defend their goal post than attacking the Indonesia Goal post. If only they manage to maintain the 1-1 goal than the winning will be with style.


Last night Malaysian supporter including me were cheering for them and I am glad that they win though not in style and I believe Malaysian supporter knew that our young players have done their best.

Indonesia dominating the whole game since from the beginning. They keep attacking and trying to shot for a goal but maybe luck was not in their side while Malaysia keep defending their goal post! Maybe it was their strategy to deter the Indonesia player from having a chance to shot a goal but at the same time they were doing it without proper strategy that caused one of Malaysian defender to shot goal for Indonesia. I think Malaysia Goal keeper, Fahmi can catch the ball if only the defender didn't interfere.

However they still done a good job and deserve the winning since they work hard for it since the 1st match against Indonesia where they were defeated (5-1). I really admired the skill and courage showed by Malaysian goal keeper and the team should be thankful to him for saving quite a lots of  try from Indonesia to get through their goal post.

Congratulation to Safee Sali for winning the top scorer title! You rock man! Congratulation for the team for winning the Suzuki Cup! Though they didn't ganyang Indonesia support with numbers of goal but at least they win the cup!

I hope Malaysia team will keep on improving their performance and skill to ensure that they can fight a greater opponent in future. Nothing impossible if they work hard for it.

Also million thanks to Prime Minister, Dato' Sri Najib Tun Razak for announcing Friday as Public Holiday as a reward for winning AFF Suzuki Cup! We should proud because the games was shown live through ESPN channel 813 where the whole world might watching it!

Bits of news about Malaysia Winning :~
Malaysia clinche victory at the Gelora Bung Karno Stadium
Malaysia put up strong show to lift AFF title for the first time
Najib declared Friday a Holiday!

Thing Happened For Reason - Be Strong My Brother..

Midnight is time that I spare for myself to lay down staring at the ceiling and think back about my life. Last night all of sudden I was thinking about my older brother. He is going through a very harsh stage of life right now yet he never show his true feeling to any of us including my mother who loves him so dearly.

When I think about him I feel that I am luckier than him though my earning is far from enough to support my big family because he is so lonely. He have a good career with excellent salary but nobody to share all of those thing he have. He a daughter but his relationship with his daughter is altered because of the mother doing.

Recently during Christmas day, I was able to see him again after few year lack of communications due to my cowardliness and embarrassment. I am so happy to see him but I am taken aback with the longing look in his eyes when he played with my kids. At that moment I knew that he is in misery. I know about his problem through my mother but my brother tried to act that he is okay when I asked him about his life, his daughter and said he will going to see her soon.

Though I am not as close to him as my other brother, Peter but I loves him and adores him. Thinking of his condition wretched my heart. My father once said to me that everything happened for reason but I can't think a single reason on why should my brother life become complicated like this. I know he is stubborn and he even have a  tantrum but other than that he is a kind  guy and he deserve happiness in his life.


I prays that he will find happiness in his life. I am grateful because I still have my kids though things always find foul with me.. No matter what happen, I believe that God is watching over us all.. We only have to put our faith in God..

To my brother, please don't give up your hope and expectation in life. Things happened for reason. Our father will always watching over us from above. Remember, you still have us by your side and we will always support you.

Relaxing the Blurry Mind

3 more days before 2011 yet here I am with my blurry and mingling mind that just now I was staring to the monitor for quite sometimes, like I was frozen for a moment before I start to type down this entry.

Sometimes this condition happened to me because I am too engrossed with my thought on about how fast time passed by. My mind is trying to grasp this fact and I think it stop to function properly due to thousand of memory flashed back that I couldn't put it into words! My mind is like a mixed-up puzzle that I need to rearrange it back to get the picture back.

This condition also happened to me when I am too nervous or anxious about sometime that my mind will acted to block my nerves system that caused me to froze for a while.. Yes, it is really hilarious but that's me and I am used to it.. It's not a bad condition and I think 9 from 10 person happened to face the same condition as me.

Whenever this happened, all I have to do is ~ Take a deep breath ~ Think of the blue ocean ~ Think of My kids smiley face ~ RELAX~ and I will be okay few minutes later!

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2010

Last time I celebrated this event is 10 years ago before I converted to Islam. Frankly, I misses to celebrate Christmas very much but please do not misunderstand because I just miss the celebration not my former religion. I misses the Christmas present giving, I  misses the decoration, I misses the family gathering on this event and I misses the foods!

I still celebrate Christmas but not as happening as before since here in Peninsular, people will eyes us suspiciously especially about this that concerned with religion. I have once asked a friend who asked an expert on thing like this whether it is wrong to me to celebrate Christmas with my family and I am glad upon his explanation that it is okay as long as I know the boundaries. He said that what matter the most is our faith in Allah and our intention on celebrating.




So, I would like to shout to the world especially to my beloved mother and families back at Sabah a very Happy Christmas! May Happiness and Grace bestow upon us all and peace and harmony spread worldwide!

My Happy Ending!

Everyone want a happy ending! Everyone planned their life to meet happily ever after yet to me it only existed in fairy tales. Life is reality of love,happiness, betrayal,hurt,sadness and disappointment, so I always keep my life reality checked though I love creating my own fairy tales in my head.


I don't expect perfection in my life because nothing, nobody perfect in reality and even sciences proved that it is a fact that we should keep in our mind. To me, achieving some of my long-listed purpose and dreams are satisfying and good enough to be my happy ending!

From Internet Surfer to Novel writer =)

It feel likes been ages since my last entry..
There is communication error regarding to my company internet line and still on process of recovery.
I lodged a report to TM customer hotline (100) since last Tuesday and until now there no proper action been made except for their constant call asking us whether the connection is still got problem or not..

Working without internet really slow me down since I am used to do 2 things at the same times.. While I wait for any delivery order and invoices being printed, I surfed the net.. I also chatted with my online friends but since last Tuesday I feel like my world is boring without internet. Yes, I am able to do my task faster but i have nothing to do after I done everything..

I am writing a novel to fill up my leisure time nowadays. I always wanted to do so but keep post-phoning it. Now I have a lot of free time so I decides that it's time for me to do it..
I hope I am able to finish writing it..

Balance Bring Forward

As far as I remember, i have so many purpose that unfulfilled and I keep forwarding it each year. It's really suck because I am 28 years old and i still have like 10+ purpose I've not done properly yet!!

I have so many expectation in my life! And maybe that's why it's really hard to fulfill every single thing I expect from my life especially after I ruined my own plan that I  planned during my teenage year.. I don't have anyone to blame for since it's my mistake. I have endured self-respect crash for some years before I got up one day, looking into my 1st born baby and said to myself that I must be strong, keep my head up and moved on with my life. Until then, my life purpose totally changed 360 degree because I have my kids future to consider with.

Nowadays, my life purpose mostly about my kids well-being and my dreams as well. I don't think I am ready to give up my childhood dream and I will make sure that one day it will come true before my life end..

Each year I am struggling and doing my best to fulfill every single purpose I have made and it's not as easy as people might seem. Being alone in metropolitan city that have no mercy on weak people and surrounded by money-greed people, the task is much more challenging and hard. If you are too weak and naive, you might allured into fulfilling your purpose by the illegal but easy way!

I am glad that I have my family moral support though they live far away in Sabah. It's enough for me to keep myself in the right path in fulfilling my dreams and purpose. Not once but over and over again people especially those i know online try to talk me into doing something bad but thank God that He gift me mind that can differ between bad and good. Although I have done mistake before but it doesn't mean that I will repeat the same mistake and I learn a lot from my past mistake!

Though I keep forwarding my unfulfilled dreams and purposes each year like a debt balance being forwarded I am proud with myself because I doing it the right way! It's might take quite some times to fulfill all of them  but I still believe that  I can achieve its.

Free Movie Marathon!

Who say we cannot do movie marathon for free.. With ASTRO movie channel, we can do it at home with our family!

Every times my family and I decided to stay at home we will do this and we enjoyed very much.. Though the movie has been played many times before yet it still enjoyable to watch especially with our love one..It kind of our bonding because all of my family member including the youngest one love watching movie!

Don't think that movie marathon can only done by going to cinema! All of us can do it at home since home theater existed! Moreover, it's free!

Harian Metro & Kosmo! : Idea No more??

Among many papers available here in Malaysia, I dislike Harian Metro and Kosmo! the most. Why? The answer is simple; because they reported a lot of trivial matter than significant ones.. Do we really want to know about trivial stuff such as weird animal, mystical stuff etc.. Yes, the papers still reported some important local news but 45% only and the rest were irrelevant news.. News paper should reported about relevant ongoing stuff...


Their choice of words for the title and also the content were another thing that really irritates me about this papers..  I don't wanna explain further because I don't want any reason for them to find fault with me later..

Let me conclude my reason on why I dislike this papers in simple words;~

• Lack of relevant news/event
• using "conceited" words ( in both title & contents )
• comical way of content evaluation - makes me think that the news is just rumors
• Dominating advertisement - Dr.Romzey appeared in every edition of Harian Metro like he own it! WTH!

If you are one of those weirdo stuff fan, I suggest you to read this papers because the papers itself are weirdo..I might be reading fanatic but still I choose my reading stuff and this papers were listed last in my choice.. To all Harian Metro & Kosmo! fan; no hard feeling okay!! This is just me expressing what I think.. Reading is good no matter what you read but your choice of reading material define something about you.. So, it's your choice!

Fifteen Things God Won’t Ask..

God won’t ask what kind of car you drove, but will ask how many people you drove who didn’t have transportation. God won’t ask the square footage of your house, but will ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
God won’t ask about the fancy clothes you had in your closet, but will ask how many of those clothes helped the needy.
God won’t ask about your social status, but will ask what kind of class you displayed.
God won’t ask how many material possessions you had, but will ask if they dictated your life.
God won’t ask what your highest salary was, but will ask if you compromised your character to obtain that salary.
God won’t ask how much overtime you worked, but will ask if you worked overtime for your family and loved ones.
God won’t ask how many promotions you received, but will ask how you promoted others.
God won’t ask what your job title was, but will ask if you reformed your job to the best of your ability.
God won’t ask what you did to help yourself, but will ask what you did to help others.
God won’t ask how many friends you had, but will ask how many people to whom you were a true friend.
God won’t ask what you did to protect your rights, but will ask what you did to protect the rights of others.
God won’t ask in what neighborhood you lived, but will ask how you treated your neighbors.
God won’t ask about the color of your skin, but will ask about the content of your character.
God won’t ask how many times your deeds matched your words, but will ask how many times they didn’t. 


My POV :~
# We might not perfect and to do all the qualities above seem impossible to accomplish since we're not a saint but at least we can try..

Million Thanks to:---> inspirational stories for sharing awesome story/quotes !! 

LOVE - WEALTH - SUCCESS

The story :~
A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beard in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said, " I don't think I know you but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."
" Is the man of house home ?", they asked.
" No, he is out ", she replied.
" Then we cannot come in, " they replied.

In the evening when her husband home, she told him what happened.
" Go and tell them I am home and I invite them in !"
The woman went out and invited the men in.
" we do not come to the house together, " they replied.
" why is that ?" she asked.
One of the old men explained. " His name is wealth, " he said pointing to one of his friend, and said pointing to another one, " He is success and I am love." Then he added, " Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her  husband was overjoyed. " How nice!!" he said.
" Since that is the case, let us invite the wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!!!!"
His wife disagreed. " My dear, why don't we invite success??"
Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion, " would it not better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!!!"

" Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.
" Go out and invite Love to be our guest".
The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, " which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest".
Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the woman asked Wealth and Success, " I only invited Love. Why are you coming in?"
The old men replied together, " If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other 2 of us would've stayed out. But since you invited love, wherever he goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there also Wealth and Success!!!"

Moral of the story:

LOVE LEAD US TO BETTER THINGS SUCH AS WEALTH, SUCCESS,  HAPPINESS....

YES, THERE WOULD BE TIME WHEN LOVE HURT BUT BEYOND IT LOVE STILL CURE...

Stressful Year End

Year end is suppose to be anticipate by most people because it's time for holiday yet for me year end is the most stressing period since during this period my mind is coping with so many figure especially those concerning with my kids school preparation; books, tuition, apparatus, bus fees, school fees etc.

Well, my salary is just in average level, means it is okay yet living in metropolitan city like KL demand more than my salary can afford.. Everything we did here have cost and the cost is not as cheap as you think.. I wish i am living back at my village where the cost the lower!!!

I am 28 years old and I still have to settle my PTPTN loan.. I planned to settle it in 5 years yet with the rates I am paying back to PTPTN right now i think it might need more than 5 years to be settle.. I wish the government will evaluate back the interest that we have to pay.. My situation is worst because they already black-listed me at the Immigration and that caused a lot of trouble to me and prevent me from achieve more from my recent career..

Hopefully everything will be work as i planned....

My Favorite Rapper : EMINEM

Eminem aka Marshal Bruce Mathers III is my favorite rapper all the times.. I don't really like rap song but Eminem songs is exceptional.. I love all of his songs!!!! Every single song of his are my favorite..

I wish I could buy all of his Original Album but I couldn't afford it before yet now I am planning to buy it from online one by one until I have all of his album.. I am not fanatic of him but I just loves his song because it's inspiring me.. He produce a rap song that understandable and not like the other rapper with their cacamambra language.. Yes, sometimes his song contain the " *uc* " etc words yet it is still a great song..

Yesterday I heard his " NO LOVE " for the 1st time via MTV channel and I fall in love with the song instantly.. It's a awesome song..

Check out NO LOVE lyric ----->No Love lyrics by Eminem

Amateur Blogger!

What can I say.... I am absolutely an amateur blogger..

Yesterday, I spent most of my free time trying to learn the tips and tricks to create a NICE and BEAUTIFUL blog yet the result was indeed hilarious but quite okay for an amateur like me.. However it's really crammed my brain especially with the HTML editing.. It's really confusing to me since I hardly remember anything I learn in C++ course I took like 6 years ago.. Thanks to blogger help that i manage to edit some of feature in my blog though it took me whole day to figure out how to do it.

Million thanks to debscraft.com for giving away free beautiful background.. I really love my blog background that I used now  because it really define my blog a girl's never ending story..

Anybody who want to have one nice background like me can click the button above and see for yourself...

Also thanks to shabbyblogs blog for sharing some useful tips for an amateur like me.. They also offering awesome blog background, header and post divider. However I still can't manage to add post divider to my blog and hopefully i will learn how to do so very soon..

Anybody out there who happen to read this post, please help me by  advising me on how to add post divider using the new HTML code..

Prince of Curiosity Kindergarten Graduation Day

Yesterday was my 2nd son kindergarten graduation day though I was absent from attending it due to my work demand... Another chapter of his education level done and next year he will be start his new chapter in standard one at Sekolah Kebangsaan Puchong Indah..

I am proud of him because he is as clever as any private kindergarten pupils though he attended public kindergarten, also known as Tabika Kemas.. I may not attend any of his kindergarten meeting /  occasion but i know every single progress he did.. He is very good in Math and he loves science very much.. He is curious about everything and want answer of everything.. His favorite tv program are " science backyard " and " animal mechanical "..

My husband is the one who always attend his kindergarten meeting and for that I am very grateful to him.. I asked him to snap pic of our son taking his certificate but he can't take any because the place was crowded with thousand parent who attending the graduation day of their kid. Luckily, my son teacher already took a pic of  my son with certificate and it's enough for his album..

I will do my best to give my kids proper education for their future and hopefully my 2nd son eagerness in everything never fade away..

Congratulation my son, Mama really proud of you..

Always me,

New Gadget or Saving ??

End year is approaching and here I am once again planning what to do with my annual bonus ( if there any for me ). I am excited yet nervous at the same time because I expect too much I guess.. Last year I have to use my annual bonus to cover up our debt, so there not much left for me to buy things I want and there was nothing i kept for saving..

This coming soon annual bonus I am planning to buy new hand-phone, maybe I-phone or Blackberry but I am not sure whether it is necessary since I am not a gadgets collector, plus my hand-phone is still in good condition.. I feel like wanna buy it because I envied all of my friend that already using it!! It's really a worst excuse isn't it? I also thinking on saving it up since I already have everything I want for  now.. I think it's relevant since I wanna buy a bigger car for my bigger family in near future.. Our Viva can't hardly fit us all !

I am good in administering and managing my company account but I am really bad in managing my own finance!! I do have planning but always slipped away from my own planning!! I hope I am able to follow my plan this time so that I can save more money for children future..

Happy Deepavali!

I think this is funny since i don't have any close Indian friend yet I wanna wish Happy Deepavali to anyone concerned out there.. I do have Indian neighbors but I am not really friendly to them because of certain circumstance but I still want to wish it to them... 

I might not celebrating Deepavali yet here I am utterly happy because I am gonna have a long weekend with my family though most of it will be indoor since we rarely go out..

Frankly, I never really visit friend during Deepavali Festival because I don't have any close Indian friend in whole my life though one or two of my sister in law were Indian.. I wonder whether they celebrated it any longer since married to my brother..

Yet I think most people are happy and delight to celebrate this Festival as merry as Hari Raya Puasa , Chinese New Year  and Christmas festival because it's holiday time babe!!! Time to chill-ax and have a rest wherever you wanna be..

So have a happy Deepavali (to whom celebrating it), relax, enjoy and have a nice weekend to all of you..

Scream!!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's it! I really want to scream out all of my tension off my head but I can't.. Not here in the middle of city full with people who might think that I am crazy if I do exactly that, screaming..

Screaming is a way of releasing tension out of our mind system though not supposedly being done frequently but occasionally.. Mean we cannot overdo it or other consequences might happen..

Back to my teenage years when I am still in my village, I used to scream whenever I feel like I can't take more pressure because it makes me feel good afterward.. screaming loose out my pressure knotted mind and make it think better and clearly afterward.. And I did it in the middle of our paddy field, screaming like maniac echoed by my mother angry voice, asking me what happened while I simply laughed like idiot..

However, here in Malaya I have to go to recreational parks such as Sunway Lagoon, Genting Highland, Bukit Gambang etc. just to scream out my tension.. Such a costly way that make me choose to cry in the dark of my room instead..  Or screaming out my lung to my pillow... Well, we have to be creative sometimes I guess even in finding the best and cheapest way to flush out our pressure..

I guess I will go to one of those recreational park along with my kids and husband because we need a break after all..

Enough is enough..

I start my day at office with tension and headache gripping my mind.. Why should those people keep asking me about that person problem.. Ya, we might be living together but it doesn't mean i know every single move that person did.. That person also never tell what he gonna do unless that person want me to help him lying and I hate that the most.. All my life I been helping that person too many time without asking anything except some changes in that person habits..

I received a call from those people asking me the arrival time of mine at office and I tell those people the truth ; 8.50am because I don't suspect anything.. Then those people tell me that that person only arrived at office at 9.30am and those people said they don't like it.. All i can say  is; really because as matter of fact it's none of my business.. I work for other company and those people don't have the right to ask me about me and they also don't have to use me to spy on that person.. This act really out of working ethics. However I can't be mad at those people because they asked me nicely.

The problem is that person.. That person acted without thinking of the consequences.. When problem arise, that person blame other people than admitting that he is wrong.. I hate this behavior the most!! there nothing wrong in admitting our mistake.. People will respect us more if we are humble enough to admit that we are wrong than lying to cover up our mistake.. I have learn from the hardest way that lying won't solve anything because once we lied we tend to create more lies and that mean we are living in lies..

I am ashamed of that person behavior and attitude.. That person see the worst in other people but he never realize that he is the worst.. Me too is not perfect because I admit that I have done so many mistake in my life as many as that person.. The difference is I regret every single mistake I have done while that person never and will never admit that he is wrong..

I am tired and i feel just want to give up hope in that person.. Or maybe I already give up because right now the only strength i have are inspire by my children.. They are the reason why I am still alive and fighting hard to give them the best in life..

Fave songs of my daughter & baby boy

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky!

Repeat:
 *Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!*

When the blazing sun is gone,
When he nothing shines upon,
Then you show your little light,
Twinkle, twinkle, all the night.
(*repeat)

Then the traveller in the dark,
Thanks you for your tiny spark,
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so.
(*repeat)

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep,
For you never shut your eye,
Till the sun is in the sky.
(*repeat)

As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveller in the dark,—
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
(*repeat)

That's it.. Twinkle twinkle little star! Both of my daughter and baby boy love this rhymes very much.. My baby boy always humming this rhymes when he is playing inside his cot drawn in his own world.. While my daughter sing this song with her own version that make my husband and me laugh whenever we heard of it..

This is another favorite song of my daughter & baby son :-

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie Ft. Rihanna

What can I say... They just like this song very much!!!! Every time they heard it on air or watch the video music on tv, they will started singing and dancing.. Moody atmosphere will definitely vanish watching this two tiny people competing each other...

Nightmares and Sweet Dreams..

I am one of those people who can sleep through the night without any dreams, bad or good if I am in good state of health, emotionally and physically. Yet if i can choose, I rather have a sweet dreams then nightmares and I believe everyone want a sweet dreams instead of nightmares. In fact everyone hate nightmares! Unfortunately, we cannot choose what we gonna dream about.. Even the process of dreaming is still a mystery and no logic explanation available though many scientific research have been done that bring on more fascination about it..

I am not gonna explain about dreams because it's such a complex topic but you can read more about it at this link ---->Dream : Wikipedia

I still remember how I dream constantly about my father every night after he passed away that cause me awake and crying after that. This happened for months and effected my health emotionally and physically. To me, dreaming about my father is not a nightmare no matter what kind of dream it is.. It's not the dream that effected my health but it was my regret, guilt and my stubbornness to accept that my father is gone that caused all of those health havoc.But now, I am doing fine though I still dream about my father from time to time..

The scariest nightmare i ever have is to be trapped in a house full with worm!!! I am phobia with worm!! I don't know how it happened and when it start about but I do scare of worm. I can stand with reptile such as snake but anything come close as worm will scare me to death..As for my kids, I only know my eldest son nightmare because he will tell me about it right after I wake him up to get ready for school and so far the scariest, according to me is being chased away by zombie..( Laughing ) As for my Hubby, I think the scariest one is the he dreamed about right after he was released from the worst moment of his life.. The memory of him hugging me and the kids and crying while telling his dream will always stuck in my mind for the rest of my life.. Who said guy can't cry..Even the toughest guy will cry if he dream something like that and I won't tell what is my hubby dream all about because the dream is him to tell not mine.

If nightmare exist so do sweet dreams and talking about sweet dream make me smiling like a an idiot.. Well, i think the sweetest dream I ever have so far is to meet and fall in love with the guy I have a big crush on when I am in secondary school but I won't mention who he was because it will embarrass me.. At least he fall for me in my dreams, hahahahaha.. As for my hubby, I guess the sweetest dream he ever have ( so far ) is winning a Jackpot in his dream!!!

 You see, nightmares and sweet dream is just a part of human life.. Yet nightmares can effected us badly if we are weak enough and sweet dreams can drift us away from reality if we let it be.. So, It's okay to have a nightmares and sweet dream as long as we always on reality checked.

Dusun language days for my kids !!

I feel that teaching Dusun language to my kids and hubby is one of my priority nowadays because i found out that they are really poor with it. I spoke mixed language ( malay + english + Dusun ) with them and i think it's not enough since they barely talk in Dusun though they understand it.

I ask my eldest son to answer me in Dusun language whenever I talk with them using Dusun but he said  " Mama, it's sound weird and funny ". Yet he did try talking in Dusun with me in the end after arguing with me. My 2nd son is the funniest one since he like to imitating me speaking in Dusun and then start asking me with his never ending question such as " why should he learn speaking in Dusun? ", " why he have to speak in dusun with his Odu?", " How come his mother, me can speak in Dusun very good?" and many more other question that will make me snapped at him sometimes.. I hope I can do better with my daughter and youngest son since they are still in early age and according to expert it's better if we teach them to excel in languages since early ages.

My husband is the worst because he refuse to speak in Dusun though he can understand it.. He said he is too old to start learning it but I know it's just an excuses since there is no limit in learning.. Maybe it's a bit difficult but if we keep on practice we can be good at it.. Hopefully i can persuade him to try speaking in Dusun sometimes with me. However i am proud because he did understand it..

As for me, I am still good with my Dusun language and I am very proud with it.. I want my kids to speak it because I don't want my mother tongue being forgotten by future generation.. Although my kids were not born in Sabah but my blood, Sabahan blood is in their blood and that make them one of Sabahan too.. I guess i need to be more persistent to courage my kids speak in Dusun.. For a start, i will fix some day in a week for dusun speaking only in my home so that my kids will know that i am serious with it.

Hopefully my kids can speak Dusun better after this...