Wordless Wednesday #15

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Headache!

School session gonna start soon enough and as always on every year end I am having this terrible headache because I am dealing with multiple preparation task.. Yep, 1st kiddos school preparation and 2ndly accounting reports/document preparation (*sighing)...I am going to sit my computerized examination (KPP) next Saturday on 31st December and that too need preparation. I have not finish reading and doing the test examples yet! Haiya.. Headache.. Headache..

However, in between my headache I manage to re-bond my hair using the discounted voucher which I purchased via www.ilovediscounts.my (*winking) and now I have a super-straight hair for new year! So much for having a headache huh (*laughing). The saloon is a new outlet in Bandar Puteri Puchong and their saloon seem not yet well organized but I am kind of satisfied with their service though. The only problem is the hairstylist/hairdresser cannot speak/understand English and the only person who know speaking English is the receptionist. I was kind of nervous when I knew the fact that they only speak Mandarin/Chinese, that they might not understand what I want them to do with my hair but thank God, they managed to understand me and do a great job with my hair despite the communication problem between us! We used sign language most of the time, imagined that! Oh ya, the saloon name is Lisa Hair Saloon which located nearby Giant Puchong and I used GPS to find the place because it's not that easy to find! I also have 2 more voucher to spend and I am going to have a pampering facial and spa soon (*laughing devilishly)

Peek a boo during my hairdo session!

Actually I am used to this headache and in fact it became some kind of yearly fever for me. So I am not really in that bad condition because I already prepared my 'boxing fist' to kill this headache (*winking) I know what I mean right???

Last but not the least, do you people have any tips/advice on how to pass the KPP computerized examination for driving license? Please let me know okay because I am kind of nervous actually to take this examination. I want to pass because I don't want to waste money to re-take it again.. Please do share your tips okay!

Happy Tuesday You All!

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I Miss You Dad!

 

Yes, I miss my father very much! I miss to talk with him, to tell him about my heart content, my problem and what I am thinking (*sighing). Whenever new year approaching, I will think back how was my life so far? What I have achieve in my life? Whether I am happy with my life? Whether I am satisfied with what I am doing now? Whether I am making the rightthing for me, the kids and for everyone else? Yes, all of those question  might make you think that I am such paranoia but that is just me re-evaluating my life for better option.

You must wonder why talking stuff like that with my father when I have a husband. Honestly, I never talk this stuff with husband because I don't feel comfortable talking about this stuff with him and moreover he is not a good listener like my father. Yes, we might be husband and wife but there are certain thing I don't like to share with him and even if we are spouse but it doesn't mean we gonna share everything! That just my opinion though and it not apply to all people ok! (*winking)

Well, I seem happy with my life but honestly I am not that happy at all because I often miss my family back at Sabah and too much pressure from certain people here in KL. I miss to gather with my friends and nieces back at Sabah. I don't have any close friend here in KL... In fact I never go out with friends here in KL! Sometimes I feel bored because my life only  rebound around  my kids, husband and his family. Please don't mistaken that I don't like family life because I like it but I only want some time for myself where I free to spend it with my my friends. There is nothing wrong of wanting some time for ourselves, isn't it?

The only time I have for myself is when I am going to watch movie at cinema by myself. Gosh! How I miss the girl talk with my girls friend and the last time I have that was like 6 year ago with my best friend, Opong. I wish I could talk out my heart with my father because he will know how to console me and make me feel better with his wise and comforting words. Yes, Ia such a daddy's girl! 

Well, writing a post about it definitely help a bit because now I feel bit better! LOL! Thank you for reading and sorry because you have to read an emotional post from me. Wish you all have a very Good Day! 

P/S: Song below really pictured my feeling right now! I love this song even though it make me cry every time I listen to it! (^_^) v

Merry Christmas!

When I was younger, I always looking forward to this date because on this date my family always held a Christmas celebration where all of us gathered up. Honestly, we don't even have any gift exchanging or such thing but we were still happy because on this date we have the change to meet the rest of our family member. Well, yes I always participate in the church activity back then and one of my favorite activity is the gift exchanging where we wrapped something, put number on it and then random people going to get the gift. So many funny and hilarious thing happened because of this gift exchange because people can wrapped anything, yes anything and random people gonna get it without knowing who gave it! (*winking)  I still remember people who got a tin of soil and dirty underwear! YEP, I knew who were the villain though(*laughing).

Later, this activity was changed into program called as "Dariku, Untukmu" to prevent such thing from happen again and from what I know the church back in my village still continue this activity until now. I really miss the old time! (*sighing). I really miss the Christmas celebration with my family too.. My family suppose to have a family gathering this year but they cancelled it due to lack of funding. They should plan it earlier like 6 month or earlier than that because raising a fund for big event definitely take some times. I hope we gonna make it next year and I am going to keep in touch with my sibling about this because I want to participate this time. I don't want to miss another family gathering!

So, on this day of Christmas I want to wish all of Malaysian, especially my family & friends back in Sabah and people all over the world a very Happy Christmas Day!May the magic wand of Christmas bring warmth and joy in every family and bestow peace and harmony all over the world!

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14 Days Of Absence!

Wow, how could I do that?! I abandoned my blog for 14 freaking days without any post, not even a pics?! That's really bad of me yet I did not did it on purpose though..(*sigh)

I want to post something but I am too occupied with my new interest in learning Spanish and I spent most of my free time learning it online. Nope it's not online program though (*winking). Actually I have this online friend from Costa Rica and he is trying helping me by speaking with me on Skype and it's freaking hard for person like me who have pronunciation weakness! Even my English pronunciation also suck!

Hubby only shakes his head whenever I sit in front of our computer for hours talking with this friend of mine. Thank you hubby! He know me well and my interest in making online friends. Who say that we cannot gain something good and useful from our online friendship? I have to thank my online friends because I learned to speak English confidently through them. Well, as I always said it depend on us on how gonna benefit from all of this technology. If we use it wisely, we can get lots of good thing and vice verse. But It gonna take me sometimes to really understand and speak Spanish because as I said I am slow learner when it come to languages.

I need to read this! @_@ V

Beside that, I was busy searching for good and affordable driving school to get my 1st license. Yes, you read it correct! My 1st driving license..LOL..and yup, I already found one and attended the 5 hours KPP yesterday at Perfect Driving School ! Boring? Yep, it is a boring class but wondrously I did not fall asleep at all! Not even a blink because the instructor/teacher know how to make the student animated with the class by playing video/clip which is funny or scary from time of time! I don't know when I am going to do the computerized examination to get the 'L' license but I intended to did it before end of this year and next year going to focus on getting my 'P' license (LOL). Seem like I am going to busy again with reading the text book and memorize it! Hope I am not that blunt yet so that I can memorize it easily (*laughing)

I was busy shopping for my kids school uniforms and shoes and also books for the new term of school that will start in about 2 more weeks. Yes, I like early preparation when it concerned with kids education. Hahaha, but only in that thing I am such a pushy!

Okay, that's all happened in the past 2 weeks! It's not much but for a small woman with 4 energetic kids like me, it's really took my time! I also want to announce that from now on there will slight change of the way I am going to post because I want to post more about my thought in future. Hopefully all of you won't feel bored with my rants about thing/people/issue in near future!

That's all for now! Keep the smile on your face, Happy Monday & Happy Working everyone!

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It's Super Silent !!!!

My heroes who keep our home alive with NOISE!

I woke up at 9am, yes 9am with a weird feeling today. I am wondering why can't I hear any television noise or any voices at the living hall.. It's kinda creepy because my house really are quiet! Than I remember that 2 of my hero was staying with their grandma at Semenyih (*slapping my forehead)

I always scold them for making lots of noise especially during weekend morning because I want to sleep a bit longer on that day but now I kinda miss their noise already =(.. The truth is I miss them already (*sniffing). To make it worst, my daughter is asking for her older brother right after she woke up! Even the my youngest son ask for his big brothers (*sobbing). Sorry for being such an emo today. It just that I rarely being apart from my kids...

My kids are close with each other though sometimes they fight like cat and dog. It's really funny to watch them picking with each other (*smiling). Last night my daughter refuse to go back home and she cried till she exhausted because she didn't want her brother to stay at their grandma house. Hubby have to trick her saying that her brother will ride with their grandma later to our home at Puchong. Guess what she said when she woke up this morning??? "LIAR" Yes, serve us right for tricking her (*sighing). I don't know whether I can stand the silence of my house for a week but hopefully I can because I promised to my heroes that they can stay there for a week, unless they miss us and want to come back earlier (*winking). 

OMG, this entry is so boring that I swear I can see you all yawning and said BORING (*Laughing) Okay, I hope all you had a enjoyable weekend and don't forget tomorrow is Monday, so Happy Sunday and Happy Monday in advance!

MALWARE DETECTED?!

One of my reader informed me about this yesterday and of course I am worried because I really don't what caused that problem since I do have internet security installed in my computer (home & office) so I am kinda confident that I am protected from any malware, spyware, virus or anything concerned with net world. But now I feel insecure after being informed about this problem and that make me thinking, "No wonder the number of visitor to my blog is lesser than before."

I am not a computer genius and I don't know how to fix stuff like this because I thought that those expensive antivirus that I purchased will do such thing for me. So, here I am  asking for help from any of you who know how to fix problem like this. I will appreciate anything, tips or link that will help me figure out how to fix this (*puppy eyes)

That all I can write for now because this problem kinda filling my mind since last night and I need to let it out! Really hope to get any tips from you all soon.. Happy Saturday everyone!

Kids Of 90's

I rarely post any direct update on my Facebook account nowadays but still I check on people especially my families and friends update regularly.. Yesterday I stumble upon an updates from a friend which remind me of the old time and I re-shared it on my FB. It's an interesting update, just read below which I copied & pasted it here in my blog :-

I grew up in the 90s. :D

We are the last generation who learned to play in the street, we are the first one who've played video games, and we're the last ones to record songs off the radio on cassettes and we are the pioneers of Walkman and chat-
rooms.

We learned how to program the VCR before anyone else, play with Atari, Super Nintendo, & Genesis. We also believed that the internet would be a free world.

We are the generation of the POKEMON, Digimon, Thunder Cats, Power Rangers, Dragon Ballz, Ninja Turtles, Transformers, and Doogie Howser MD. Traveled in cars without seat belts or airbags, lived without mobile phones.

We didn't have +99 television stations, flat screens, surround sound, mp3, iPods, Facebook or Twitter but nevertheless we had a GREAT TIME! :)

(Re-post if you're one of us!)

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Well, I definitely didn't played on the street when I was a kid. The jungle and the paddy field was my playground! I climbed tree like a monkey back then and still have those 'expertness' even now with 4 kids (*laughing). Yes, I did have a walk-man when I was in form one which is given by my older brother and I involved with chatting world (MIRC) when I was around 16teen. I never played Atari or Super Nintendo or Genesis because I can't afford to have those luxury. The only games I know is Super Mario Brother (*smile). We, the village kids rather stayed outside playing with dirt than being in home playing those games..LOL! Of course cartoons show such is Power Rangers, Thunder Cats, Dragon Balls, Ninja Turtles, Maskman, Gaban, Rugrats, the smurfs, Tom & Jerry etc were part of my life though I don't remember Digimon or Pokemon during those times (*scratching head). Before my father bought our own VCR, I went to my big step-sister to watch rented video taped movies. In fact, we the village kids gathered to watch it and it was really a memorable moment especially when we watched horror movie (*smiling). Frankly, we all have a great and fun times even without today technologies luxury!

Kids nowadays are too pampered with this modern technologies! I don't know about other parents opinion but to me I will never let my kids to have anything like FB or any social network account, mobile phone, laptop etc, not until they are old enough to handle this stuff wisely. Old enough means they have to wait until they are past 17 years old. Hubby said that I am being unreasonable that all of those stuff normal for kids nowadays but I have my own reason and I will stick to my point until they give me good reason to think the other way. Well, kids if you excel in your study, maybe mama will change her mind? (*winking)

No matter how happening world nowadays, I still prefer my childhood and teenage years because I have such a great and fun time during those years. What can I say..It was irreplaceable! What say you?

Happy Friday & Happy Weekend You All!

Wordless Wednesday #14

What Happened To you?

That was a bonus question from my SIL the other day when hubby, the kids and I visited my MIL when she saw my face with lots of breakdown..Yep, since last fasting month I faced the worst pimples breakout in my life. Even worst than the one I endured during my teenage year! 

Hubby keep teasing me of catching this problem because I don't eat Petai and my HUGE appetite over chocolate and greasy foods.. Such a ridiculous myth since as far as I knew though our diet might play role on acne problem but it cannot causes the sudden acne breakout.. I might believe if people said it occurred due to hormone imbalance but never on diet habit..LOL

I don't really know what triggered this problem and I don't really care actually but I do want to get rid of it since it really turn down my self-esteem..Well, you know I don't wear make-up and the redness of my acne really show off and that cause me to feel a bit embarrassed to be in public.. Right now I am using the Natural Tea Tree Oil which recommended by my friend few years ago. So far this is the best product that I knew can fight pimples with no scar but I do like to try other product which is cheaper and effective too..Any suggestion?? 

You must think that I am such a whiner, aren't you?? The previous entry I whined about my flabby tummy and now this! Actually my point is don't feel embarrassed to ask for people suggestion/tips because who know their idea might help and here I am asking for tips of fighting acne breakout from all of you (*with puppy eyes)..

Happy Tuesday!

Eating Habit & Flabby Tummy

It's been 3 days in a row I started doing this intensive tummy/abs workout... Hubby is LOL as i writing this entry.. (*sighing).. Why need to do intensive tummy/abs workout? Well, I have a thin body BUT my abs or better I say tummy have this excessive fat cell which look so ugly and unbalance for my thin frame and I think I need to get rid of it...Who say thin people don't have flabby tummy? I have and that's why I need this intensive workout for my tummy since I do jog & exercise regularly.. I blamed my so abnormal eating habits though.. (*sighing again)

Diet?? No way! I love foods so much and I won't stop from eating my favorite foods just to get a flat tummy. I rather do intensive workout/exercise than starving myself.. But I already stopped my habit of taking heavy foods 1 hour before bedtime and change it to fruits instead. Yeah, I am a person who eat every 2 or 3 hours because I always feel hungry and I love to eat heavy foods and junk foods.. I am a petite woman with a huge appetite.(noted the HUGE word) I always hope that those fat rich foods I consumed can make my butt bigger or my leg & thigh more muscle but seem like it turn my tummy into flabby one..Silly me..LOL.. 

Changing my eating habits is seem impossible because I am always hungry! I can't  sleep when my stomach is empty and singing for food.. That's why I always make sure junk foods is available in my home so that I won't trouble hubby to wake up 3am in the morning just to buy foods for me though sometime I did wake him up especially when I crave McDonald Big Mac burger..(^_^) V.. Now, serve me right for having a flabby tummy...(mentally slapping my forehead)..

Eating habits is very important aspect that you must keep on tabs.. Lots of article stated that not only it is one of aspect that we must control if we want to have an excellent health and also a nice figure.. No matter how hard you exercising if you ignore this one very simple fact than you will not gain any improvement.. Well, I should keep that one in my mind.. For foods lover like me, this fact seem like a hindrance..

I am not figure obsessive because it's never a problem for me before since fat cells seem hate me very much but now seem like those fat cells love my tummy very much and started to make my tummy as their favorite pit-stop..LOL.. Imagine this; thin hands, arms, legs, thighs & flat butt but a very flabby stomach...Fugly & imbalance isn't it? That's why I need to workout my abs a little bit..Cheer -up for me okay!..(*winking)

My tummy is singing for another fill up though I just have my lunch like 2 hours ago! Wish you all a very Happy Sunday & Happy Maal Hijrah! Ciao.... 

Twilight : Breaking Dawn (Part 1)

Last night I watched Twilight: Breaking Dawn (part1) and guess what I am gonna say about this movie??! It's awesome! Best adaptation of the book itself so far.. 

When I watched the 1st adaptation of the Twilight saga  which aired on 2008, I was kinda upset because the storyline was entirely changed from the original story but still I anticipate the next movie and I don't really know why though..LOL.. Maybe because I have all the book in my collection..(*winking)

I like the intro scene where Jacob got upset after getting the wedding invitation.. Heck, what I am kidding?! I like the whole movie! I wish they didn't cut some of the scene especially the scene where Edward extracted their baby from Bella womb! At one moment I saw Bella spine twisted and blood vessel and then Edward with bloody on his mouth, hands and shirts.. If only I haven't read the book like thousand time, I might have no idea of what really happened in this movie... Such bugger! Killjoy! I wish I could watch the uncut version of this movie..

The movie also pictured the very pregnant and sick Bella amazingly.. I can't imagine how horrible Bella condition until I watched this movie. 5 THUMBS UP, for the make-up artist! Did I give the praise to the right person/crew?? Better I say, congrats to all of the crew instead huh..(*laughing).. I also happened to love Bella wedding dress because it's simple yet sexy & elegant! I think Bella wedding dress is better than Kate Middleton wedding dress.. Kate's die hard fan, please don't hate me okay...(^_^)V

Talking about this gonna take me forever if you allow me..LOL.. But, I want you all to figure it out yourself since I don't want to give detail to those who have not watch it yet that means cheating..LOL...Moreover, my opinion is just a tiny dot from countless opinion about this movie...Go to the nearby cinema and watch it and then do share out your opinion.. To all of you who watched it already, come on and share your thought with us.. Right now I already looking forward to watch the next part of this movie..Okay, one more thing, I love the soundtrack of this movie which sang by Bruno Mars..

Happy Friday & Happy Weekend in advance!

P/S: Gonna ask my oversea friend whether they can get the uncut copy of this movie.. (^_^) V and please enjoy the song...

 

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WORDLESS WEDNESDAY #13

What If...

What a lovely Monday to start with (My wish..LOL) when the truth is I feel like want to bring along my blanket and pillow and snuggle comfortably here in my office if I don't mind to receive LOVE LETTER from my boss...(*wink2). Well, the weather is cloudy and just nice today but I wish the sun will shine soon because I want my laundry to dry off so that I can wash the other 2 basket full with dirty clothes! Laundry services? Nope, not my taste...LOL.. What a gross introduction! Yet I can help myself from mentioning it since it bugged me for days now.. (@@)

Now back to the main point... What's up with my entry title today? Well, for the past 2 days, I have not update anything  because I am busy, nope too engrossed reading other blogger entries. Some of them make me laugh, some of them make me slapped my forehead, some of them make me sigh, some of them make me cry and some of them make me wonder.. But as always story that make me wonder will always occupied my mind.. 

This "what if" issue, not an issue actually but more about our mind plot which considered as negative thinking by some people but to me it is not at all. Guess what, though I never regret anything happened in my life except few things that I wish I never done, I still reflect to the past and ask myself  what might happen if I choose the other option.. What if I stand on myself and refused to further my study in UKM? What if I follow my parents suggestion to let them to adopt my baby? What if I never agree to get marry? It's countless actually and though this kind of question sometime knock me hard with the possibility of what might happened but at the same times it give strength to pull myself together to accept my choice and make the best of it.. 

When I read peoples entry about how they feel sorry for ever thinking this what if matter, automatically my mind think of this, "why feel sorry? There are no law or regulation that prohibited us from thinking of the other possibilities. We are human after all and such thinking is normal for human like us, or at least for me.." It's not a problem at all but if you tended to mourn on it than that's a problem.. But overall, at always it depend on our perception.. 

I am not ashamed for ever looking back and thinking of the possibility of what if I choose the other option because I gain such strength from it to make my choice of life better than the other option. Thinking of it doesn't make us ungrateful person but in other way it make us appreciate our choice to it best.. So, don't ever feel guilty if those question of what if ever crossed your mind because that mean you are just a normal human being...(^_^) V

Happy Monday and Happy Working!

Forgetful Me!

Hi everyone! How's your day so far?

After a busy morning, now only I have a time to say hello to this blog of mine...Like it cares huh..(*Laughing)..

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Okay, don't want to make lame jokes again because I really have no talent in doing so..(*sigh)...Where should I begin this boring stuff of mine...(*thinking)...Okay, last night after I went back home, I was writing an entry for this blog from my mobile because I was thinking on posting double entry to my blog. Well, you know yesterday was suppose to be filled with words.. But, I was fall asleep before I managed to save it up in drafts and when I woke up, it all gone and I couldn't retrieve it again!!..(*sobbing).. Such a waste since I wrote it heart-fully..(*sigh again)..That's what happened when you typing from mobile and laying down at the same time with a full stomach..(LOL).

What did I wrote about last night? Nothing important really.... and I am not going write about it here because I don't have enough time...and I don't want to make any promise about re-writing it in case I might forgot again.. Lately, I become forgetful that I tend to forget even the simple thing and cause lots of trouble to me..(*sighing again)..What?! Facebook?! That one thing I can't forget...(LOL)..

Gosh..I can feel that my writing is starting to stray away from it purpose which is just to express my disappointment over my lack of focus lately.. So, now you know it, I better say "Ciao"...Cliff-hanger...(LOL)

Happy Thursday!!

Words-Filled Wednesday

Hello everyone..

Today is suppose is a Wordless Wednesday entry but since I haven't write a words since last week and I miss writing my mind out here, so NO entry for WW this week unless I change my mind later..(*winking)

So, what was up for the past 7 days in my life? Honestly, nothing interesting..(LOL).. Everything is same as usual except that I have so much in my mind! Normal though because I am just a normal woman..(*laughing)..But, yep there is always but.. We did managed to find suitable, reliable and affordable kindergarten for our princess. We decided to send her to her eldest brother former kindergarten (Tadika Alam Indah) because the we know the headmistress (Mrs.Chin) and the teacher (Ms. Kumala) well and we know that their teaching/learning methods work very well. Plus, the registration fee is cheaper from other kindergarten and we can pay it twice. Such a convenience for a average earning parent like us. How much? well, the registration fee is RM500 and the monthly fee is RM95.. The other kindergarten registration fee and monthly fee make me feel like choking, that's why we choose Mrs.Chin's Kindergarten and I am not going to regret it because I know this kindergarten can give my daughter a proper early education.. If you wonder whether it is one of the smart reader kids franchise than the answer is NOPE but it a good kindergarten for sure.

See, I have a lots to say though.. Wanna say more but I will save it for later because I know you all started to yawn already with this boring story...(*laughing).. Before I go, to all parents who have kids age 7 - 11 years old, don't forget to collect your RM100 per kid at their school okay!(LOL).. 

Okay, see you all in next entry..HAPPY WEDNESDAY & HAPPY WORKING!!!

Wordless Wednesday #12

Free Vacation

Hello everyone!

Yep,  we are on free vacation at Kemang Indah Condo, Port Dickson with MIL. Its not a grand hotel, not even a popular pit stop because this condominium area located in village area but for me the its okay. Of course I am okay with it because its free... LOL

This is 1st time the kids come to Port Dickson and they are excited especially my boys (Elan & Daniel) and Shasa. Shasa love staying at hotel because she love sleeping in air-conded room and she will refused to go back home when its time to leave... We have to persuade her and tell her that we will install air-cond in our small flat.. LOL, like that gonna happen.

I dont know whether we gonna go eye-sighting around Port Dickson or just lazing out in the condominium.. Ya, maybe thats good idea and I can  read books. .(*winking).. Hubby planned to go ti the beach later and also the night market but its all depend on the weather.. So, hopefully its going to be a good day today. . Insyaallah..

I have not manage to snap some good pics, so I cant tell you any thing about this free vacation yet.. Maybe I will write it later or maybe not since I dont really keen telling people about my vacation. Its not like I am stingy to share about my vacations but since most of it just simple one and not much to tell than I prefered to keep it and just mention it here and there occasionally.. But I have this intention to give my review about budget hotel/inn/homestay/apt & condo because we stayed on those place on most of our vacation.. Dream on Tunung..Hahaha!

Opppsss.. I can feel this entry is gonna bored you, so better stop here. I hope all of you a very happy Saturday, happy weekend and Happy Aidiladha in advance!

P/S: The pics taken today at the swimming pool here in Kemang Indah Condominium..

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Wordless Wednesday #11

Delayed Dream: Travelling Alone

Here I am attacked by the insomnia.. I want to read but I better not or else I will end up stay awake till morning.. So I think maybe writing a random post will kill it. . Talking about random post make think of sharing my dream of travelling alone..

I always dream to travel alone without any company but my books.  I have this dream since I was a kid and I really do hope that I will have the guts to do so. It doesn't have to be travelling to oversea because here in Malaysia we have lots of beautiful and interesting place though travelling alone to oversea seem more adventurous.. As if I dare... LOL

I have told my hubby about this dream of mine and he said why not if I dare enough. Yep, thats the main problem; I am not that brave to travel all by myself especially nowadays where lots of missing people reported.. Just thinking of that make my knees buckled out. Moreover, I don't think I can leave my kids without thinking of them and end up missing them..q

See, I think this dream of mine will be on hold until I have the courage and gut. Let say like 10 or more years in future?! Well, I don't know for sure since life is so unpredictable...

Yay, as I told earlier, writing this post really did kill my insomnia.. So what do you think of travelling alone?  Leave you all with quest and now I am off to lala land..(*yawning)

Good Night and Good Morning everyone...



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Kindergarten Hunting Mood!

November is welcoming us in 3 more days and then another 30 days, December say hello again, signalling the upcoming new year.. See, how fast time passed by and as always since my kiddos start attending school, November and December gonna be month with careful expenditure for me because during this 2 month I am gonna use lots of $$$ for their uniform, book, fee etc. 

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Next year my daughter is attending kindergarten and here in big city, early education is not as cheap as you think unless you send them to KEMAS or pre-school. Hubby and I prefer sending our kids to private kindergarten for their early education because private kindergarten offer better option of early education which is really important to prepare them to face the much tougher subject and surrounding in primary school. We knew this  because we saw the difference of kids performance that attending private kindergarten and government kindergarten. How come? My eldest son attended private kindergarten and he can read both Malay and English books at 6 years old but our 2nd son which attended KEMAS (during our hard time) still can't read very well even after he graduated from those KEMAS! Luckily he is a brilliant kid and now he can read though not as good as his big brother.I am not saying those kindergarten is not good because some kids who attended it still excelled very well but maybe it was just my little boy who didn't pay attention at class...

Hubby and I will start our hunt for a good and affordable kindergarten for our beloved princess next week. So, not yet hunting but will be and hopefully can find one before December.. Oppps! Today is Friday and I am not suppose to spoil your Friday mood with this worries of mine.. I have lot of them recently... 

Okay, gotta go and find something to turn on the happy mood...Happy Working, Happy Friday & Happy Weekend!

Auditor-General's Report: RM3.73bil Overspent!

Yes, last night I spent my insomnia time reading the article about Auditor-general's Report and one article  about "Nine Minister or Depts Overspent By RM3.73bil" really caught my attention and wanna have my say over this overspent money since me too tax payer and as far as I knew they got those fund from our tax. 

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RM3.73bil???!!!! That's really a HUGE amount! If we divide those overspent money to Malaysia population which is approximately around 28M to 29M, everyone in Malaysia can be a millionaire and there will still around RM3.7bil to develop our country. But that's just a fairytale wishes since our leader will never think like that. If you read the link that I attached below about this overspent, you too will feel suspicious. Can you imagine how can they paid RM56k for a night vision binocular which price is only around RM2k to RM3k?! This finding make me wonder how terribly 'stupid' those people who handle the purchase of this item because even my 9 years old son knew it is irrational price..Sorry , sound harsh but that's exactly how I think of those people... Its also make me think that corruption might be involved all the way.. Wait until you read about the RM260m overspent by Ministry of Tourism on ads and also the purchased of 23 horses worth RM5.66m by the National Sports Institute.. Revelation like this really make me, a tax payer feel being robbed because the money I paid was not been used wisely but being wasted over something unnecessary instead! As for the excuses by MOE, to me it might acceptable since I don't mind spending more over education as long as they really spent the money on education development purpose!

It's true that we might never know the validity of AG's report but they won't come out with such report if it's not happening. I may not an expert, not even a person of wisdom and people might think that I have those qualification to give my say over this report but to me as a tax payer, who contribute to fund all of those government spending, I think I have the right to say something over this matter. And I say the RM3.73bil overspent really ridiculous and something should be done to avoid such waste as well as preventing our country to bear the burden of debt because of corruption that might involved.

Read below articles for yourself and be welcome to express your opinion.. 

Dept paid RM11,800 for RM3,400 laptop and printer

Animals purchased by sports institute did not compete in championship

Auditor-General: Tourism Ministry overpaid RM270m for ads

Ministries and agencies to explain funds management

Want more articles/news? Haiya, just google it up okay and you'll find more!

Well, times up for me here. Need to go back to my invoices. So, Happy Tuesday & Happy Deepavali in advance to all Malaysian who celebrates this festival especially Hindu people..

P/S: This is solely my opinion and no political intention here but just my point of view over the AG's report.. I am a neutral when it concern with political view which mean I am speaking only for myself not for anyone else.. PEACE NO WAR! (^_^) V

Uncivilized Action Of Malaysian Audience!

I am not really motoGP fans but I do keep on tab about this sport because well ya my hubby likes this sport though he never watch it live at all. I guess maybe all of us knew that one of the popular figure in motoGP, Marco Simoncelli deceased yesterday at our very own Sepang circuit after involved in disastrous crashed with 2 other rider. I only knew about the news after reading one of my FB friend updates who was there at the Sepang Circuit where the accident took place. 

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Actually this post not really about the deceased rider but I am writing this because I felt disappointed with our peoples who throwing rubbish on the circuit after the organizer cancelled the race. From what I read from articles and people updates, the audiences were angry because the race was cancelled without detailed info and the news of Simoncelli death only announced after some of the audiences left. 

When I read this, all I can think about is, whats wrong with all those people? They were there, watching the whole accident right to their eyes and they still need a detailed info? OMG! Are they blind? Didn't they see that accident  might cost that man life? Those audience who throw rubbish really act like child throwing tantrums when something make them angry.. Geez, such a shame! Their action gonna cost our country it good image for sure..

You might think that I have no right to say anything about this since I am not there. You might even think that I judges without knowing the whole story. Ya, I realize that but I don't need the whole story to give my opinion about the audience selfish behavior because the proof is there. The rubbish won't scattered on the circuit unless someone throw it there, isn't it? So, in my opinion the audience action really unacceptable! We live in era of civilized country so act like one.. Only caveman showing tantrum like a child and even a caveman can act better than those who involved in littering the Sepang circuit..  

Ya, I am bit emotional because I love my country and I don't want such incident tarnish our country image. It's not only showed that the audience ( Malaysian mostly ) acted like uncivilized but at the same time it showed that the audience have no respect to the  deceased rider and his family! They said that they were not informed with the Simoncelli death but being there watching the whole episode of the accident they should know better that the result was fatal and instead of throwing rubbish, they should pray or at least hope that the involved family will get through the loss.

I always emotional when it concern with someone life.. I may not know Simoncelli and his family very well like those fan of him but I can feel the hurt and sadness of his family especially  his father who watched his son catastrophic accident. In fact, I can't imagine at all how terribly sad his father over his son death.

To all the audience who involved in those 'throwing rubbish' incident at the SIC yesterday; please do not do that kind of action in future. Remember that we Malaysian, rich with moral value that patience and understanding are among those good quality in us.. Ya, you might think that your action speak for yourself but in the end people worldwide still related it to our country image..

R.I.P to Marco Simoncelli and to his family, may God give you the strength to get through the lost.. 

P/S: - Really hope that world won't condemn all Malaysian just because of those uncivilized action..

       - Anyone who read this and happened to watch the GP race yesterday, please do not mad at me because I merely expressing what I feel about the 'throwing rubbish' incident okay..Moreover, no point to get mad if you are not one of them right? PEACE NO WAR! (^_^) V

      - HAPPY PINK RIBBON DAY!

^STARIGHT TALK - October

This post brought to you by Straight Talk. All opinions are 100% mine.

Bonjour!

1st of all, just want to warn that this entry is, well you know... So, bear with me and read it or at least give it a glimpse okay..(*winking)

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Unexpected Gift!

It's Thursday and it mean 1 more day to go before weekend..(*winking)

Between my hectic day in office, I manage to sit down and write this entry that bugging me since Monday.. It's about my hubby..Nope, it's not a bad thing but quite a surprise for me because he is not a romantic kind of guy and honestly he never did any romantic stuff for me though I am okay with it since me too react awkwardly with romantic situation..(*Laughing)

Tada!! The content is secret but I guess you knew it

Last Monday, after fetching my kids at the day care, he then came to fetch me at my office, along with the kids. Then we went to the Giant, Puchong and asked me to wait in the car with the kids because he said want to buy some stuff. After half hour, he came back. I was not paying attention when he entered our car because I was busy playing games on my phone while the kids busy chatting and playing at the back seat. He put my favorite flower, roses and a gift bag on my lap and asked me to open it. Amazed, I opened the bag and found a Tomei jewel box inside.

I asked him why all of sudden? He said, " I never give you anything because I can't afford it before this. I know you never ask any but I want you have it. Just think of it as gift for our anniversary. "

I was speechless. I never expect this from hubby because I knew his character and attitude. Seriously, I thought he was acting really weird and lots of negative thinking started to cloud my mind. Where did he got the money to buy it? Why did he gave it to me? How ? When? etc... I barely uttered a words to him, not until after we have our dinner only then I managed to let out my mind. He laughed and said, "Is it really weird for guy like me to be a little bit romantic once a while? Seriously, no hidden agenda here. Its not that expensive but its sincere from me. Don't worry, I bought it with my own money that I save up without your knowledge. For that I am sorry and quit those negative thinking already."

That was 3 days ago. Now I am wearing it on my middle finger everyday upon my hubby request though I don't really like wearing any jewellery. Why middle finger? Don't laugh okay...Because it was the smallest one that Tomei can offer! Bigger than that mean I can't wear it at all..LOL.. To tell truth, I was really moved with this unexpected gift from my hubby because I saw the sincerity in his eyes when he gave it to me.. He is right, the gift is not that expensive but the sincerity is what I value the most..THANK YOU HUBBY!

The moral of the story, don't jump into conclusion before you understand the root/resource of something because you might concluded wrong. Obviously I jumped into conclusion by thinking that something is not right with my hubby unexpected gift just because he never do such thing in the past. Now I feel bad because I suspected him doing something illegal.. I am sorry hubby! This unexpected gift incident will definitely gonna be one of my sweetest memory...(*winking)

Time's up here! So, until later... HAPPY THURSDAY!

P/S: I don't wear my wedding ring because I lost it few years ago.

Wordless Wednesday #10

Pink Ribbon Month & Me

Bonjour! Comment êtes-vous? 

I think it's not too late for me to say "Happy Pink Month" to all women in whole world especially to my fellow blogger friend! I don't need to explain more since you can google it up and find thousand articles about this month of breast cancer awareness. 

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So ladies, have you done the BSE ( Breast Self-Examination)? Well, I have to thank my dear blogger friend, Just because her recent post remind me of it.So, if you have not yet perform it at home, hurray-up do it soon. If you don't know how to do it, check out this link---->BSE 

Some women might say, what for? It's not like it can save us from death. Yes, it will not but at least we can detect any early symptom that might give us more chance to be curable than doing nothing at all. Moreover it show that we are responsible of our own body and health. I really am not keen with people who surrender before fighting. I always adore those women who suffered with breast cancer that keep fighting and never lost hope till the very end though it seem like they were in loose end. We have a lot to learn from them; their courage, their determination and their will to survive..Those women really are amazing!

This year, the Pink Ribbon Day fall on 24th October (next monday) so show your support ladies! Those who want to donate, you can go to breastcancer.org and make your donation. Pssttt, I donateD all my not much earning from surveyhead to Susan G. Komen Organization, one of organization that actively involved in Breast Cancer campaign though I did wish I donate it to local organization instead..Ya, it's not much but at least I did my part..

Boss is here, so gotta go! Happy Tuesday Everyone!

Losing The Passion Of Blogging?!

Considering the way I updating my blog nowadays, seem like I am losing the passion of blogging but the truth is I will never stop from blogging/writing because it is my way of expressing myself and my point of view of everything that crossed my mind. So the answer is NO WAY and NEVER WILL I. Yes, I rarely update my blog but it not because I am losing the passion in it but it just because I don't have free time to post a new story/opinion plus I don't have an idea of what I am going to blog about..

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Some people like to share what they do in their daily life, some like to re-share the latest news, some like to blog about places, some like to post about food and in fact everyone have their own idea to blog about. But I don't have a specific idea because I like to blog about everything! Ya, I am blogging for fun but at the same time I take seriously the content of my post because I want people who read my blog to know where I stand on certain issue/matter and then ponder with the pro and con of those issue though sometime I become too emotional in my post..(LOL)

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I am not one of those who can write a new entry right away in front of their computer! No, I am not that good because normally I need to draft my idea before I can write it right away. Okay, okay, I know you might laughing right now but seriously, I really do that.. Recently I can't draft my idea because I fall asleep after I  am done with house core on week days and that prevented me from posting new entry! Weekends? Hubby and the kids monopolized our computer, playing ANGRY BIRD! Yep, all of them including my youngest son. 1 against 5? I am hopeless right? (*sobbing)..

I wish my hubby never started playing those addictive game! But at the same time I enjoy looking at them because during those time I can see how close my hubby with my kids.. That's why I gave up to them.. It's not like they play it everyday but only weekend right?

You see, I thought this gonna be a very short entry but its more than 3 paragraph already! Got to stop here because hubby and the kids are waiting.. 

Happy Sunday everyone!

P/S: Please check out my WW entry next week okay.. (muka x malu ba ni..hihihi)

Happy 31th Birthday Hubby!

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Yep, today is hubby birthday and as mine he doesn't want to have any special celebration. Keep praying for me so that I can be a better man, he said that. I don't buy anything special for hubby so I decided to write a special post about him so that people will understand why I stay by his side.

He is come from a very different kind of background than mine. His parent divorced since he was just a toddler and remarried again. Hubby been through a very harsh and sad childhood. His siblings and him was raised by his father and stepmother because his mother (MIL) couldn't afford to support them back then. He said they were treated kindly at first but everything changed after their stepmother have her own kids. He said he became spiteful and headstrong because of his childhood experience.

When I got to know him 10 years ago, he was still in devastated state because being dumped by his Filipino girlfriend. He was jobless and have to quit from continuing his study at FIT (Federal Institute Of Technology). If I think back, his life story also one of the reason why become closer to him. I feel sorry for him because he have that kind of background. 

I knew he was not ready to marry anyone when he said he will took the responsibility of me 10 years ago but still he did marry me. He can just leave me because I doubt that we were really in love back then yet he stayed. His family especially his father said that he can never be a good person and for that I feel so bad for him. He adore my father more than his own father though he only talked with him via phone call and never meet him in person. When I asked why? He said, I long for a father who can advise me through my good and bad time, who still proud of me though I made a mistake and who will never look down at me. I envy you because you have one..

Being a mere human being, he has many flaw but he is a very good father to my children and a good husband as well. Our marriage is not based on fairytale love story but we learned to love each other and as time passed by, our love grew stronger and stronger. Too many obstacle crossed our relationship but we managed to overcome it and here we are still together despite of some people prediction.. Life is so unpredictable..

Talking about him and us gonna take me forever so let me just concluded it here. I stay by his side because now I love him, because he is a great father to my kids and also because of his courage/responsibility in life.. What more can I ask when I have this kind of man in my life?

To my dearest hubby, on this special day of you, I wanna wish you a very happy birthday. May everything you dream of will come true..I love you!

To all my blogger friend, Happy Friday and Happy Weekend in advance!

P/S: Once in a while jadi jiwang, buli ba kan...(*wink2)

Wordless Wednesday #9

Story Of My Past

Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim...

As I promised, though it took me sometime to publish and here is my story of my past.. It's not detailed but it I hope it enough to give you all a glimpse of my past that not as good as your..

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I don't really know where should I begin but I think it's better if I give you all a glimpse of myself; attitude/ behavior/ personality when I was younger. I am the youngest in my big family and the closest one to my father that some people said I was over-pampered by him. I excelled in my study since I was in primary school and finished my secondary school with good result during SPM 1999, though not as I targeted. I was a stubborn, tomboyish girl who never give a damn about stuff that normal teenager might involved and often bragging about not getting married especially not with Malay guy..Ironically, I end up with a Malay guy..Life is so unpredictable..

I never parted from my family especially my parent and pursuing my study at Matriculation college in KK was my very 1st experience being separated from them though every weekend I went back to Ranau. That was also my 1st experience to mix with new circle of friends that more worldly and exposed to the outside world than my friends back in Ranau. I was amazed at their level of knowledge about world/stuff that I fast became their friend. In fact the the name "Molly" was given to me by one of them. I was too close with my new friend that I almost forgot my childhood best friend, Falinah (Ellow) and at one time we quarreled over trivial matter that make us enemy for quite sometime  (I am sorry again for that stupid quarrel, Ellow) though we are good now. You see, I was so naive about lots of stuff and being a teenager I was too curious that I want to know more and want to learn more about stuff, positively or negatively. At that time I was already addicted to the MIRC and befriended lots of  people from virtual world..(Some of them still in contact with me until now)

My parent especially my father trusted me completely because I never did anything reckless in my life before. I finished my matriculation in just a year then got an offer from UKM to pursue my study in Chemical Technology. I was devastated actually because UKM was my last choice which I filled up in my UPU form (1st until 4th option was UMS). I didn't want to go that far when UMS is just 2 hours from my hometown but my father and family seem happy to let me go. Mad and devastated with them, I got drunk with my ex-schoolmate and make a scene at my village on that particular night to show my protest . Luckily, nothing serious/ bad happened to me because my ex-schoolmate took really good care of me and send me back home in good condition..(Thanks again Giwin) I can't imagine what would happened to me if only he took advantage of me..(palis2)  That was my 1st time being reckless and foolish yet my family still trusted me because they understood how scared I was to separated with them.

I was not ready to face the new world of Peninsular Malaysia yet I went there, mentally unprepared of the new people and lifestyle over there. I was given the key of my freedom and stupidly I vowed to use it with vengeance..Really stupid of me.. 2 month later I got to know my hubby via chat-world channel in MIRC. He was using 'Burger King' as his username and I remembered that I was the one who hit on him 1st for using those username. We quarreled online but then after sometime we became friend, exchange number until one day we decided to meet up at my hostel area at Kolej Rahim Kajai, UKM. After that we became closer though we never meet again until July 2001. He called me everyday, asking about me and I guessed that was why I melted into him. I was so engrossed and blinded by my new founded feeling that I forgot about my family and my promise with my father. 

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Ashamedly, I admitted that I lost everything to my hubby because my mind defeated by my own lust and curiosity. Yep, I was one of those stupid young woman who gave up everything she got because of thing so-called LOVE but in my case it never really about that. It was just me being stupid, naive and blind over sweet word and promise when the truth were I never really know what love is and my hubby background that well. he introduced me to his family and I get along very well with my MIL who told me and warned me about his past, that he might not serious about me at all. She said my hubby might just want to get revenge for being dumped by his former girlfriend from Philippines. I was so scared after I knew about his past and at the same time I found out that I was pregnant. I was torn apart.. It felt like tons of brick fall upon me..

I don't have anyone to confide with.. I couldn't tell my family because I know they will surely hate me and condemn me. I was too ashamed to tell my friends because I know they will call me fool or worse they might labeled me as slut. It crossed my mind to do abortion just to hide my sin but I couldn't because I don't want to commit bigger sin than I already did. I don't want to be amongst those heartless people who aborted and dumped their baby. I want to I keep the baby because I love him already. I keep my distance from my family and friends because I was afraid of what they gonna do and think of my pregnancy. At last I told my hubby about it and I was bit relief because he promised to take responsibility and I stay with his sibling during my semester break(1st year) but my big brother came looking for me at my MIL home (Kajang) and took me back to my hometown. 

Back there my family insisted me to do medical check-up and I told my mother about my condition and manage to cover my condition with lies. I persuaded her to kept it secret until I return to KL and she did so. She only told my father about it when I already in KL and my father call me right away, asked me to come back, that nobody will hate me no matter what happened but I was already smitten/committed by my hubby promises that I turned my back against my father and hurt him terribly. I converted into Islam and got married without my father consent. I betrayed my father trust and tarnished my family good reputation. It really such a shock for my father since I was the center of the family and he love me the most amongst his children. I thought that I was no longer have place in my family heart. I am the black sheep in the family. I am the thorn that sting them.

As I thought I made the right choice, that my life will be better but I thought wrong because I never felt true happiness. I always shadowed by my guilt toward my family. I cannot live in peace because day after day I was haunted by my mistaken over turning my back against my family and hurting them. I didn't ask fro their forgiveness and worse I didn't contact them because I thought they hate me and they were angry at me. Everyday I thought of them and cried. At last, when I  no longer stand it, I make myself strong and called my parents, asking for their forgiveness and blessing. I told them everything and guess what? My family especially my father still love me even after all I have done. They forgave me despite of the hurt and humiliation I put them through. YES, I am blessed for having such a wonderful family..My father said, no  matter what happened I am still their beloved daughter..

When I 1st learned of my pregnancy, I thought that the end of my study, my life. I was so afraid of what kind of future would I have if I don't finished my degree. I want to prove that I might strayed but I can excelled in my study..Most young woman might quit studying if they were in my condition but I ignored peoples sneer and negative stare and continue my study after I gave birth of my son. I know there were nothing I can do to mend the damage I caused in my family but I wanted to redeem myself by showing them that I will get my degree and indeed I got it.. 

You see, this story is kind of story you've heard and familiar with but to me who experience and been there, it something that I treasure because the experience had taught me lots about life and it meaning. Yes, it was not something I am proud about because it show how weak I was to temptation but still I am proud with myself because I survived and able to raise again from my fall though my achievement is not as great as other.

 

Actually the story still far from ended but I only have permission to reveal this far.. The rest of it concerned with my marriage and it is private..

To all young woman out there who did the same mistake as I did, please don't make bigger sin than you already commit.. Allah is merciful and forgiving.  

Happy Monday and Happy working!

P/S: To me, it is okay to glance back to our past once in while, just to remind us about the significant lesson we learn from it..=)